150 since my highest weight

Nov 10, 2012

Today I weighed myself and realized that I am down 150 lbs since my highest recorded weight in 2003. as for surgery weight, I have lost 109 since I began this journey. I find that i still want to weight myself everyday but I don't because at this point I am just living my life. I am active and I exercise every day. I have more energy than ever and I feel good when I put something on. Although the saggy skin and the apron bother me naked, thank god for spanks and Bali bras (the only maker I have ever found that has my size that fits (38b) and is comfortable. I also found smoother type tank tops to wear under my shirts that smooth out the wrinkly saggy skin with out flattening my breasts to pancakes. I still have 14 lbs to go for my big goal but I am doing it more slowly now. I know I can be more rigid and work out more if I want to. But I am comfortable losing it more slowly now. I am truly starting to feel normal. I can sit in an airplane seat and not worry if I will fit, or if i will be able to buckle the seatbelt. I can go into a store and find a shirt or something that I can fit into. I can stand in a crowded elevator or cramp space and I don't feel like I should be apologizing for taking up the space of three people (well sort of felt that way, very conspicuous feeling). I remember all the feelings and all the times I decided not to go out or go somewhere because I did not want to feel that way. I just avoided uncomfortable situation. I missed so much. I am loving life... I love my sleeve.

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