BETHC500
Need to get back on track
Sep 26, 2013
Hi all,
Over the last year I have gained 30 lbs. I just slid back into old habits. Not quite eating fast food everyday and chocolates but I learned how to eat around my sleeve. I let the daily exercise slide and I am eating way too many carbs. I eat until I am full then wait for an hour or two then I eat some more. This fall I am having trouble fitting into my autumn clothes from just last year. things are very tight and last year they were loose. So here we are, starting day to get back on track.... DAY 1
I will go to the gym every day, track my foods, weight myself everyday, and start reading/reciting positive/motivational/ confidence building things. I need to get the positive back in my head and reduce my negative self talk. And I have to stop making excuses to do the wrong things. Just a taste is not working... or I will eat better tomorrow... it doesnt cut it. Its bad for me.
I am worth the sacrifice, hard work and effort it takes to be healthy and feel good about myself...
I am gonna get it done..............
150 since my highest weight
Nov 10, 2012
Today I weighed myself and realized that I am down 150 lbs since my highest recorded weight in 2003. as for surgery weight, I have lost 109 since I began this journey. I find that i still want to weight myself everyday but I don't because at this point I am just living my life. I am active and I exercise every day. I have more energy than ever and I feel good when I put something on. Although the saggy skin and the apron bother me naked, thank god for spanks and Bali bras (the only maker I have ever found that has my size that fits (38b) and is comfortable. I also found smoother type tank tops to wear under my shirts that smooth out the wrinkly saggy skin with out flattening my breasts to pancakes. I still have 14 lbs to go for my big goal but I am doing it more slowly now. I know I can be more rigid and work out more if I want to. But I am comfortable losing it more slowly now. I am truly starting to feel normal. I can sit in an airplane seat and not worry if I will fit, or if i will be able to buckle the seatbelt. I can go into a store and find a shirt or something that I can fit into. I can stand in a crowded elevator or cramp space and I don't feel like I should be apologizing for taking up the space of three people (well sort of felt that way, very conspicuous feeling). I remember all the feelings and all the times I decided not to go out or go somewhere because I did not want to feel that way. I just avoided uncomfortable situation. I missed so much. I am loving life... I love my sleeve.
100 lbs today
Jun 22, 2012
I am actually 142 lbs down from my highest weight... when I lose the last 22 I will have lost 164 (from my highest weight) and I will weigh 164lbs... I will be exactly half the size I was back in 2003... Well the recorded size anyway. I stopped weighing myself when my scale would no longer record my weight back in 1998 or so. I was so frustrated and unhappy back then that I had decided that I was fat and that was all there was to it... I was not going to worry about being fat because I felt helpless to lose it for good. I have a few old pictures from then and I know I was significantly higher in weight than 328... in 2001 I was in a 32 plus and I started trying to eat healthier... In 2003 I was in a 28 - 30 plus... And they weighed me at the doctors and I was at 328 lbs when I started having back problems. Now I am 22 lbs away... feeling better than I ever have and gaining more confidence each day. I LOVE MY SLEEVE..........
195 lbs today... 133lbs from my highest recorded weight in 2003
Apr 22, 2012
big goals... the best decision I have ever made for me
Apr 14, 2012
90 lbs gone.... 1lb from my first goal (lowest weight)
Apr 14, 2012
3 lbs in one day...
Mar 10, 2012
Weight training has been a big boost. so far I have lost 7 lbs in 10 days.... i love my sleeve.........
76 lbs gone today...
Feb 29, 2012
Its kind of funny, ever since the weight loss slowed down I was kind of thinking that I was stalling. I would go a week without losing a pound, then bam... lose a pound each day for two days then nothing for about 3 days then lose another pound. I started writing down each day what I lose and the date. Over the month of Feb. I have lost 11 lbs... Why do I think its going slow?... My expectations are too high, like I am not doing good unless I lose a pound a day like the first month... boy oh boy... Now I think... When have I ever lost 11 lbs a month? I would have been ecstatic and doing a happy dance before surgery to lose that much in a month... I have to work on my head... I am going to tell myself these three things: I AM DOING GREAT, I AM GETTING STRONGER AND I AM LOOKING BETTER EVERY DAY... Go me!!!.. woo hoo...
70 lbs gone today, size 24/26 plus to 18/16... woo hoo
Feb 06, 2012