BoxerGirl08
Another Update, 3 months post op
Jun 19, 2009
Hey guys,
Well i just got home from my second fill. I had 2CC's put in, Dr.Roye did it so this time it went very smoothly so i am now at 6CC's. I am now eating some chicken noodle soup. I always feel sleepy after a fill lol. Well i am 3 months out and down 39lbs as of this morning. I am super happy. I am not depriving myself, but i now know what moderation means. I definitly need to work out more, thats something im slacking on. I am happy to report that i have had no issues with my band so far. (Knock on wood). I dont really come on here all that often anymore so if it takes me a little while to respond to you im sorry but i will most definitly get back to you :)
-J
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Well i just got home from my second fill. I had 2CC's put in, Dr.Roye did it so this time it went very smoothly so i am now at 6CC's. I am now eating some chicken noodle soup. I always feel sleepy after a fill lol. Well i am 3 months out and down 39lbs as of this morning. I am super happy. I am not depriving myself, but i now know what moderation means. I definitly need to work out more, thats something im slacking on. I am happy to report that i have had no issues with my band so far. (Knock on wood). I dont really come on here all that often anymore so if it takes me a little while to respond to you im sorry but i will most definitly get back to you :)
-J
4 CC's
May 08, 2009
OK so i went in for my first fill. The nurse practitioner asked me if i was hungry, i told her starving LOL. So she was like OK I will "try" to get this in...If I dint Dr. Roye will have to do it and if he cannot get it you will have to schedule another appointment to get it done under Xray. So I prayed someone would get it right. lol Wellllllll she put this surgical yellow cleaning stuff on my stomach and then placed this cover over my stomach then she felt around for my port. First of all I think he feeling around for my port hurt enough...Then out came the needle, I swear it was 10 inches LMAO. She put it in and started moving it around, she kept hitting the corner of my port, so after about 5 mins of her moving this thing around and hitting every organ she finally gave up LOL. Dr. Roye came in and he tried it took him about a min to find it and he did it!! YAYYY So i now have 4CCs in my band. It wasn't a nice experience and I'm pretty sore but at least he filled her up! lol.
-J
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-J
6.5 Weeks out with Goals
May 06, 2009
Well I am almost 7 weeks out from surgery, boy how time flies. This has already been quite a rollercoaster for me, I have lost and gained. April was a bad month for me :) This month I am rocking my band. I am not eating after about 5:30-6pm. I find that if I don't eat after this time im usually a lb lighter the next day. So ill keep it up. I'm still getting in a lot of protein and water. I have been eating shaved chicken(boars Head) my fav! It keeps me full for HOURS. I will have some melba toast and some reduced fat cheese with it. Awesome meal right there! I have been having 2 Pure Protein bars during the day so all together right there is about 85b of protein and its not hard and its yummy. I'm down 29lbs. I have such a long way to go but im excited. I have set mini goals for myself: 1st Goal: 250 2nd Goal: 225 3rd Goal: 200 4th Goal:175 5th Goal:150 6th Goal: 140 Doesn't look like much when I write it out like that lol. I'm excited that I hit my first goal, now im trying to kick ass getting to my second goal. I'm having my first fill on Friday. I'm not really all that hungry but I fight the hunger. I NEVER cheat. I want to be successful at this. I don't see how chips, sweets, bread or pasta will make me successful, so I just stay far away from them. I really hope that my Dr will give me a fill though. I know I need one, but im losing weight. So I don't know how he is going to take that...Well ill let you guys know how my first fill experience goes. :)
-J
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-J
Time to give you an update...
Apr 16, 2009
I am writing this now because i want to be able to look back and know that what i went through was worth it, I am also writing this to help people in the same position as me. I am 5 weeks post op...I lost 23lbs the first 3 weeks, i have gained 3 lbs since 4/4/09. I am on the soft solid stage and i have to admit I am starving. I even ate a brownie the day after Easter. Not at all like me cuz I'm not into sweets or pastries. I have been eating A LOT of chicken salad, Tuna salad, cottage cheese, cheese, beef jerky, protein shakes, baked beans. That's pretty much it. I am totally staying away from carbs and I'm still not losing, i also joined a gym that has a POOL!! So I'm excited. I have to admit i am extremely surprised that i have gained 3lbs but I'm hoping its water weight(wishful thinking eh) lol. I move onto full solids on 4/27/09. So I'm hoping that i will stay fuller longer. I'm seriously trying, i have not cheated(except for my brownie) since i went in for surgery on 3/17/09. My parents don't seem to understand how i am gaining weight either. I'm not eating cookies, chips, crackers, bread, pasta, sweets. Its just not making sense. Well i go in for my first fill on 5/8/09 (Hopefully i will actually get one or i will throw a complete hissy fit) I did not have this surgery to live exactly the same as i was living pre band. I'm not having doubts but i am determined that i will lose 130lbs by my bandadversary. With or without my surgeons help. If i have to pay out of pocket to go to another surgeon then so be it, I'm not looking for a quick fix i am just looking for some help. Well now that i have vented, I'm going to go home and go to bed cus i have a cold. TTYL
-J
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-J
5 Day Pouch Test
Apr 02, 2009
The 5 Day Pouch Test should never leave you feeling hungry. You can eat as much of the prescribed menu as you want during the day to satiate hungry and prevent snacking on slider foods and/or white carbs. You must drink a minimum of 64 ounces of water each day. A reduction of caffeinated beverages is suggested, but do not stop caffeine cold turkey.
Weight loss is not the intent of the 5 Day Pouch Test, however, many who have tried this plan report a significant drop in weight. More importantly they celebrate a renewed sense of control over their pouch and eating habits and easily transition back to a healthy post-surgical weight loss
way of eating.Below you will find a brief list of the menu for each day. Please click the "Read more" links for further detail and hints and tips that will enable your success with the 5 Day Pouch Test.
Days One & Two: Liquid Protein
low-carb protein shakes, broth, clear or cream soups, sugar-free gelatin and pudding. Read more. Day 3: Soft Protein
canned fish (tuna or salmon) eggs, fresh soft fish (tilapia, sole, orange roughy. Read more. Day 4: Firm Protein
ground meat (turkey, beef, chicken, lamb), shellfish, scallops, lobster, fresh salmon or halibut. Read more. Day 5: Solid Protein
white meat poultry, beef steak, pork, lamb, wild game
Days 1 & 2: Liquid Protein
low-carb protein shakes, broth, clear or cream soups, sugar-free gelatin and pudding. The first two days are all liquids. You can have as many low-carb protein shakes as you like to satisfy hunger or cravings. In addition drink at least six 8-ounce glasses of water each day. The purpose of all liquids is to break any snacking, grazing or processed carbohydrate habits. In addition the liquids will work to cleanse your system and prepare you for the following three days. Try to reduce your caffeine intake as well, but do not stop caffeine cold turkey or you will feel sick and frustrated potentially losing the desire to continue with the pouch test.
It is very important to drink a minimum of 64 ounces of water each day. This will prevent dehydration, will help curb cravings and will flush your body of toxins and fat. Sufficient water intake improves kidney function and cell processes.
Day 3: Soft Proteins The next three days you get to eat as much as you want as often as you want! Ahhh, but there's a catch: it has to be solid protein and you only get 15 minutes each time you sit down to eat. No drinking 30 minutes before or after meals and no drinking with your food. A dry pouch will hold your soft protein longer helping your to feel full and fed longer. Protein Recommendations: canned fish (tuna or salmon) mixed with lemon and seasoned with salt and pepper, eggs cooked as desired seasoned with salt pepper and/or salsa, fresh soft fish (tilapia, sole, orange roughy), baked or grilled, and lightly seasoned. This starts your program with "soft" protein. Measure your portion (1 cup volume or 4-6 ounces weight) and eat only until you feel full, not overfull. Remember, no water for 30 minutes before or after you meal, and no fluids with your meal. We are going back to the beginning and fluids will prevent you from feeling the pouch. If you need to add a moist condiment ( Miracle Whip or mayonnaise) to the canned fish I understand, but keep it to a minimum so the meat is not too moist. One reason we lose the sense of tightness in our pouch is that we eat "slider foods" - foods that are too moist and do not stay in the pouch very long, they slide right through the stoma. Day 4: Firm Protein Protein Recommendations: ground meat (beef, turkey, lamb) cooked dry and lightly seasoned, shellfish, scallops, lobster steamed and seasoned only with lemon, salmon or halibut steaks, grilled and lightly seasoned.
By now you should be experiencing that familiar tightness that will reassure you that your pouch is working. Remember to drink plenty of water between meals. Take some time to meditate and rediscover the wonder of your pouch. Often we don't like that uncomfortable tightness of the pouch, which is why we gradually move toward slider foods that don't make us uncomfortable. It is always my preference to eat moist protein so I don't get uncomfortable, but doing so allows me to consume more than I should. Rediscovering the pouch with this 5-day plan reminds me of how the tool really works. I hope by now you are rediscovering your tool and enjoying the hope and excitement because your pouch still works. Day 5: Solid Protein
Protein Recommendations: white meat poultry cooked dry and lightly seasoned, beef steak (if tolerated) grilled or broiled. Remember to chew chew chew. Measure your portion (4-6 ounces) and eat only until you feel your pouch tighten. Remember, only 15 minutes per meal, so you'll have to work fast to chew your food completely. By now you should be out of any carb cycle you were in and perhaps you have lost a pound or two. You will have new confidence in your pouch and your ability to work the tool for your health and emotional well being. Don't go hungry! Remember, you can eat as often as you want as long as it is solid protein, consumed without liquids and measured in 4-6 ounce portions.
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low-carb protein shakes, broth, clear or cream soups, sugar-free gelatin and pudding. Read more. Day 3: Soft Protein
canned fish (tuna or salmon) eggs, fresh soft fish (tilapia, sole, orange roughy. Read more. Day 4: Firm Protein
ground meat (turkey, beef, chicken, lamb), shellfish, scallops, lobster, fresh salmon or halibut. Read more. Day 5: Solid Protein
white meat poultry, beef steak, pork, lamb, wild game
Days 1 & 2: Liquid Protein
low-carb protein shakes, broth, clear or cream soups, sugar-free gelatin and pudding. The first two days are all liquids. You can have as many low-carb protein shakes as you like to satisfy hunger or cravings. In addition drink at least six 8-ounce glasses of water each day. The purpose of all liquids is to break any snacking, grazing or processed carbohydrate habits. In addition the liquids will work to cleanse your system and prepare you for the following three days. Try to reduce your caffeine intake as well, but do not stop caffeine cold turkey or you will feel sick and frustrated potentially losing the desire to continue with the pouch test.
It is very important to drink a minimum of 64 ounces of water each day. This will prevent dehydration, will help curb cravings and will flush your body of toxins and fat. Sufficient water intake improves kidney function and cell processes.
Day 3: Soft Proteins The next three days you get to eat as much as you want as often as you want! Ahhh, but there's a catch: it has to be solid protein and you only get 15 minutes each time you sit down to eat. No drinking 30 minutes before or after meals and no drinking with your food. A dry pouch will hold your soft protein longer helping your to feel full and fed longer. Protein Recommendations: canned fish (tuna or salmon) mixed with lemon and seasoned with salt and pepper, eggs cooked as desired seasoned with salt pepper and/or salsa, fresh soft fish (tilapia, sole, orange roughy), baked or grilled, and lightly seasoned. This starts your program with "soft" protein. Measure your portion (1 cup volume or 4-6 ounces weight) and eat only until you feel full, not overfull. Remember, no water for 30 minutes before or after you meal, and no fluids with your meal. We are going back to the beginning and fluids will prevent you from feeling the pouch. If you need to add a moist condiment ( Miracle Whip or mayonnaise) to the canned fish I understand, but keep it to a minimum so the meat is not too moist. One reason we lose the sense of tightness in our pouch is that we eat "slider foods" - foods that are too moist and do not stay in the pouch very long, they slide right through the stoma. Day 4: Firm Protein Protein Recommendations: ground meat (beef, turkey, lamb) cooked dry and lightly seasoned, shellfish, scallops, lobster steamed and seasoned only with lemon, salmon or halibut steaks, grilled and lightly seasoned.
By now you should be experiencing that familiar tightness that will reassure you that your pouch is working. Remember to drink plenty of water between meals. Take some time to meditate and rediscover the wonder of your pouch. Often we don't like that uncomfortable tightness of the pouch, which is why we gradually move toward slider foods that don't make us uncomfortable. It is always my preference to eat moist protein so I don't get uncomfortable, but doing so allows me to consume more than I should. Rediscovering the pouch with this 5-day plan reminds me of how the tool really works. I hope by now you are rediscovering your tool and enjoying the hope and excitement because your pouch still works. Day 5: Solid Protein
Protein Recommendations: white meat poultry cooked dry and lightly seasoned, beef steak (if tolerated) grilled or broiled. Remember to chew chew chew. Measure your portion (4-6 ounces) and eat only until you feel your pouch tighten. Remember, only 15 minutes per meal, so you'll have to work fast to chew your food completely. By now you should be out of any carb cycle you were in and perhaps you have lost a pound or two. You will have new confidence in your pouch and your ability to work the tool for your health and emotional well being. Don't go hungry! Remember, you can eat as often as you want as long as it is solid protein, consumed without liquids and measured in 4-6 ounce portions.
9 Days Post OP
Mar 26, 2009
Alrighty then, I'm now 9 days out into Band Land. I'm doing pretty good. I'm not in too much pain just more discomfort than anything else. I'm finding it very hard to get in all my liquids for the day, It says that i should be having between 48-64oz of liquid a day. I'm lucky if i get half that. I'm not a big liquid person. I love water but i like it ice ice cold, with the Victoria(My band) in me now when i take a sip of water she freezes up and its hard to swallow. I know this will all pass, I'm still thrilled i have had this surgery, I have not had one doubt since i got it. I had an episode kind of like a stuck episode the other day, I must have drank my cream of potato soup and V8 too fast and felt wayyy overly full and had an insane pressure in my tummy, It was just gas in my tummy. I burped(which i didn't know i could do until this day) and i felt 10000 times better. But holy crap that was painful.
I have been putting a list of healthy food and meals that i want to have once i can start on solids in May. lol I guess its my way of wrapping my head around the fact that i cant eat right now. I love turkey bacon and eggs so i know that will probably be my Breakfast for the rest of my life lol and there is this powdered peanut butter that i just bought from Bellplantations.com. that will go great with mashed banana on a slice of weight watchers whole wheat toast lol. Trust me i have thoroughly thought this through. I just really hope ill be able to have white rice again. I hate potato's mashed, baked etc etc, they make me feel like crap and don't taste very good. All i ate before my WLS is chicken, shrimp and white rice. It will be good if i can still eat that but a 1/4 or less of my previous portion. I think that's what I'm missing the most is the chicken, shrimp and rice. LOL
Well any-who enough about food hahaha. I'm on my full liquid stage, I have to tell you it sucks. I'm looking forward to next week when i graduate to baby food LOL. I'm such a picky eater, my parents always said they have no idea how i reached the weight i weighed before WLS. I always knew i over ate, i never really ate unhealthy foods, i never ever went to fast food chains. I just ate too much at one sitting. So this was def the perfect surgery for me. Now i cant over eat and i will learn to know when i am full.
OK well I'm going to get back to my job lmao. TTYL
-J
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I have been putting a list of healthy food and meals that i want to have once i can start on solids in May. lol I guess its my way of wrapping my head around the fact that i cant eat right now. I love turkey bacon and eggs so i know that will probably be my Breakfast for the rest of my life lol and there is this powdered peanut butter that i just bought from Bellplantations.com. that will go great with mashed banana on a slice of weight watchers whole wheat toast lol. Trust me i have thoroughly thought this through. I just really hope ill be able to have white rice again. I hate potato's mashed, baked etc etc, they make me feel like crap and don't taste very good. All i ate before my WLS is chicken, shrimp and white rice. It will be good if i can still eat that but a 1/4 or less of my previous portion. I think that's what I'm missing the most is the chicken, shrimp and rice. LOL
Well any-who enough about food hahaha. I'm on my full liquid stage, I have to tell you it sucks. I'm looking forward to next week when i graduate to baby food LOL. I'm such a picky eater, my parents always said they have no idea how i reached the weight i weighed before WLS. I always knew i over ate, i never really ate unhealthy foods, i never ever went to fast food chains. I just ate too much at one sitting. So this was def the perfect surgery for me. Now i cant over eat and i will learn to know when i am full.
OK well I'm going to get back to my job lmao. TTYL
-J
On my way! Lost 12lbs since Tuesday!! Woot!!!
Mar 22, 2009
Well I'm home and doing amazing! I'm not in any pain. I officially stopped taking my pain meds today. I cant really eat or drink too much. I'm sooo not hungry but my parents have been cooking curry and chicken. Last night they made seasoned steak with potato's and asparagus and now they are baking bread...I'm not sure if they are trying to get me to jump out a window. lol I'm not hungry but everything smells heavenly lol so far Ive been eating 1/4 cup of broth, protein shakes and jello. It takes me a while to finish the jello though. I'm walking a little bit, i probably could do more then i am but that's something for another day. I'm seriously looking forward to next Tuesday so i can start the full liquids. I want normal soup lol Ill write more later, I'm a little tired...
-J
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-J
Day of Surgery!
Mar 18, 2009
Well i hardly slept the night before, I was nervous but not too nervous. I woke up at 8am, took a shower blow dry ed my hair and walked upstairs where my parents greeted me in such a loving and warm way. We got in the car and headed off, i don't really remember much of the drive to the hospital i was in the zone thinking about a million and 1 things. We got to the hospital and checked in a 2 Dudley St....Wrong place...we have to check in in the Doval building in the adult surgery area. Well i got there checked in and they proceeded to watch every single person that was there before and after me go in and get prepped for their surgery, I checked in a 10:00 i was not taken into the back to be prepped until almost 2. Once in the back they started my IV then Dr. Roye and the anesthesiologist came to speak to me. They just went over the basics, I guess with these surgery's they put a breathing tube down your throat...not fun...you don't feel it cus they put it in after your knocked out and take it out before you wake up, but your throat sure feels it after wards. Well around 3 something they were ready for me so they wheeled me to the operating room, once in there they made me get on this very skinny bed, they propped my shoulders and head up, they i saw Dr. Roye and i said please take good care of me, and that was that, i don't remember anything except waking up in a lot of pain. But that didn't last long, They took me back to the recovery area and my parents got to come see me for a second then they told my parents that my oxygen was dangerously low and they were going to have to keep me over night to monitor me, so my parents had to leave, that was reallllllly sad. The nurse i had in the recovery room was a total tool, she kept coming in to speak to me then walking away while i was in the middle of a sentence to talk to her nurse friends at the desk. Just an FYI after anesthesia you get veryyyy snippy and moody so i was not in the mood to deal with her, then i noticed that i was laying flat on my back and i wanted to sit up, she came over and put my bed up, 10 seconds later I was flat on my back again lol the bed was broken, she had this other guy come and look at it, and was making me sit up fast andi kept saying, i just had stomach surgery!!!!! So they got me a new bed lol...A couple of hours later a room was ready for my upstairs, they wheeled me up and came to find out that the room had been ready for me since i got out of surgery...I was a little ticked but the morphine was stopping me from getting angry with everyone. Well here comes the fun part...all of the doctors notes for me such as pain meds, catheters etc etc were not mine, they had me in for no meds which i quickly made them correct, and they told me that i had a catheter, which i didn't there were other things like I was allergic to latex and morphine which is totally not true. So any who we never really got to the bottom of all of that. Bottom line they let me go pee and i got the pain meds lol. Throughout the night my nurses name was Meghan...she was really nice. I kept having to remind the staff that i need my pain meds every 3 hours. I didn't really sleep much. This morning my nurse was different her name was Stephanie. she was soooooo nice. One of Dr. Royes surgical team member's came to talk to me this morning, Gosh was he dreamy lol He told me that i was going to be able to go home today! WooHoo!! So then Dr. Roye came to speak to me, he said the surgery went extremely well. I then got the first glimpse of my tummy (i will post photo's later) Wow i wasn't expecting it to look so bad but yet so good! There wasn't any gauze just glue, so i could see everything. He said the glue should last about 7 days providing i don't scrub it in the shower or try to peel it off myself lol. Well after that there was yet again a big debacle about my pain meds, I'm not allowed taking Hydrocodone and they were going to send me home with it, and even the nurse was like, "its written all over her chart that she is not to have Hydrocodone" So finally after a couple of hours they prescribed me Oxycodone. Then the Nut came to talk to me, she was also a tool, I think i knew more then her about her own job. So funny thing...they lost my checkout clothing, the stuff you put in a bag that you are going to wear out of the hospital...yea they lost it. So at 6am i told them they needed to find it, cuz it was all new clothing and shoes...not one update...my mum and dad came to pick me up and i told my mum that they still had not gotten my clothes and then she disappeared then reappeared about 20 mins later with my clothes in hand...It turns out that the nurses were too lazy to go to the locker and get my clothes. But all is well. I have a follow up appointment with Dr. Roye on April 3rd at 3:45.
In regards to food, When i got upstairs to my over night room i was SO thirsty, so they gave me ice chips, i was a little apprehensive at first, but when i took that first drink, i couldn't feel anything. It didn't even feel like i had anything in my stomach, so over night i probably went through 5 or 6 cups of ice chips. I was not even the slightest bit hungry. At about 10am this morning my first meal came to greet me, it was chicken broth and apple juice. I had about 1/4 of the broth and all of the 2 oz of apple juice. It was amazing to feel so full so fast on just liquids alone.
So I'm home now, I have had about 7oz or broth and 1/2 SF Popsicle. I'm still not hungry but my stomach is making a lot of weird noises. For dinner I'm having chicken broth and SF jello...My Broth is FF, low Sodium and only 15 calories, so i have to find a way to get in more cals.
Well i hope you enjoyed reading about my adventure as much as i enjoyed living it! :)
Ill post the before pictures and the after surgery pics.
-J
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In regards to food, When i got upstairs to my over night room i was SO thirsty, so they gave me ice chips, i was a little apprehensive at first, but when i took that first drink, i couldn't feel anything. It didn't even feel like i had anything in my stomach, so over night i probably went through 5 or 6 cups of ice chips. I was not even the slightest bit hungry. At about 10am this morning my first meal came to greet me, it was chicken broth and apple juice. I had about 1/4 of the broth and all of the 2 oz of apple juice. It was amazing to feel so full so fast on just liquids alone.
So I'm home now, I have had about 7oz or broth and 1/2 SF Popsicle. I'm still not hungry but my stomach is making a lot of weird noises. For dinner I'm having chicken broth and SF jello...My Broth is FF, low Sodium and only 15 calories, so i have to find a way to get in more cals.
Well i hope you enjoyed reading about my adventure as much as i enjoyed living it! :)
Ill post the before pictures and the after surgery pics.
-J
Surgery Moved to the 17th
Mar 11, 2009
So my surgery has been bumped to the 17th...AHHHH I'm wicked nervous now!!!!!! On a side note my co workers are all A-Holes. They have been trying to figure out what i am going in for surgery for. I told them stomach surgery and to get my Gal bladder removed. Now I had to send out an updated calendar request to let everyone know when i'll be out. I have been lying my brains out. They only person at my work that new I'm having the Lap Band was the Director of Sales and I specifically told her to not breath a word to anyone. If she did, that's got law suit written all over it! I hate lying but i don't think it is any of their business! Soo anywhooo I'm very excited and very nervous!! Ill write more later :)
-J
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9 DAYS AND COUNTING!!
Mar 10, 2009
OK so I'm being banded in 9 days and I'm wicked excited, but at the same time I'm wicked nervous. I have read some horror stories on here but I'm ready to make the life change. I am going to try doing a liquid diet 4 days before my surgery just to prep myself for being on liquids for the next 6 weeks. Its not required by my surgeon but i think its a good thing to try. I also gained 7 lbs since my initial visit with Dr. Royes office, so i want to try and get a head start on the weight loss. I am hoping to be down 40lbs in the first two months...unrealistic...maybe but its worth a shot. I know if i work out and make the right food choices that the weight will just fall off me. In the past i have always lost weight extremely fast but i put it back on even faster, so i think this will be awesome! I have decided to cut sugar and white carbs out of my diet completely. Those are my two weaknesses. I am a sucker for Lays baked chips omg i can eat a whole bag in one sitting. So that's a no no from now on. I have also read that if your a junk food eater that the best WLS would be the gastric bypass. I am a Junk Food eater and I'm having the band...So did i make the wrong decision in regards to that? I seriously hope that's just a myth. My parents have gone away to Florida to give them a little bit or relaxing time before i enter band land lol...I'm not good with pain at all, so they know the stress is coming lol. I had knee surgery when i was 15 it was laparoscopic and shouldn't have been too painful and i was screaming in agony lol my poor parents. Oh what i have put them through. I hope the recovery and pain wont be too bad for this. So i went out and bought all the liquids i will need. Wal-Mart has chicken and beef broth in those big containers for $ 2.50 so i bought a TON of them lol. I also bought sugar free jello and i have to pick up sugar free Italian ice's i heard that the size of the container is very useful for portion size after the surgery. I also bought my goal dress and my goal pants...both a size 8. I'm sooo going to enjoy shopping after this is all over. I bought a pill splitter and crusher, I was told to bring Chap Stick into the hospital because my lips will be sooooo dry. I still don't know exactly which protein shake I'm to have, so ill have to look into that this weekend. Ohhh and i found an awesome recipe for when I'm on pureed foods...Its re-fried beans (low fat) with Low fat sour cream and a tiny bit of shredded cheese then you put it in the food processor (which i also bought lol ). The protein in this is amazing and it very low in sodium and cals. So that sounds yummy!! My dad seems to think because of my history of losing weight as fast as i do that i should reach my goal to lose 130lbs within 1 year. lol I seriously hope he is right.
On a more depressing note...I have had no desire to go out to the bars with my friends or out to dinner. I haven't even wanted to hang out with my boyfriend. I just feel 100% completely unattractive i think I'm at the heaviest i have ever been and its taking its toll on me. Hopefully these feelings will go away when i drop a couple of lbs. My best friend is not being supportive at all. When i try to talk to her about my concerns or if i just want to talk about the surgery she immediately starts talking about herself like i didn't even say anything, and I'm finding her to be very selfish. Her issues are silly, when i say silly its like her roommate doesn't like her and my best friend broke her lease and moved out and got another apartment and didn't find a replacement so she is now paying two rents and she doesn't make much money. So she brought that on herself and i feel no empathy for her. Sorry I'm venting, i just think he is being a total B*itch right now. Like I'm going in for a major surgery next week that is going to change my life and she could care less. She has been hounding me for months asking me when my surgery is and i have constantly told her that i wont find out until the surgeon tells me a couple weeks before the surgery...It was almost like she didn't believe that i was actually getting the surgery. That is the most she has contributed to my support, which i took as stress rather then support. My boy friend also thinks that she is being ridiculous and she should be wayyy more supportive then she is. Like when it comes to your best friend having surgery you put your issues on the back burner until you know she is ready to support you. I cant even believe how rude she is being. Hopefully once this is all over i will be able to talk to her and tell her how much she hurt my feelings knowing what i was going through. I'm not one to drink and go to bars all the time and she is, she is incapable of staying home which bugs me, i don't need to be out and around people 24/7. She thinks people that stay in on a Friday or Saturday night and watch movies are losers. I hate that about her...and she is really critical about other people, like if they don't have a good paying job she sticks her nose up at them or if they don't come from a good family or if they don't live in the best area. She thinks people from Fall River are all trash. I want to hit her when she says things like that. I'm not a fan of people who think they are better then everyone. I want to tell her to stop doing that but i don't know how. Well now that i have vented, I feel so much better.
I am compiling a list of all of the things that need to get done before my surgery and so far i have 2 pages so I'm going to be veryyyy busy in the next week. Ill write more when my surgery date is closer :)
-J
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On a more depressing note...I have had no desire to go out to the bars with my friends or out to dinner. I haven't even wanted to hang out with my boyfriend. I just feel 100% completely unattractive i think I'm at the heaviest i have ever been and its taking its toll on me. Hopefully these feelings will go away when i drop a couple of lbs. My best friend is not being supportive at all. When i try to talk to her about my concerns or if i just want to talk about the surgery she immediately starts talking about herself like i didn't even say anything, and I'm finding her to be very selfish. Her issues are silly, when i say silly its like her roommate doesn't like her and my best friend broke her lease and moved out and got another apartment and didn't find a replacement so she is now paying two rents and she doesn't make much money. So she brought that on herself and i feel no empathy for her. Sorry I'm venting, i just think he is being a total B*itch right now. Like I'm going in for a major surgery next week that is going to change my life and she could care less. She has been hounding me for months asking me when my surgery is and i have constantly told her that i wont find out until the surgeon tells me a couple weeks before the surgery...It was almost like she didn't believe that i was actually getting the surgery. That is the most she has contributed to my support, which i took as stress rather then support. My boy friend also thinks that she is being ridiculous and she should be wayyy more supportive then she is. Like when it comes to your best friend having surgery you put your issues on the back burner until you know she is ready to support you. I cant even believe how rude she is being. Hopefully once this is all over i will be able to talk to her and tell her how much she hurt my feelings knowing what i was going through. I'm not one to drink and go to bars all the time and she is, she is incapable of staying home which bugs me, i don't need to be out and around people 24/7. She thinks people that stay in on a Friday or Saturday night and watch movies are losers. I hate that about her...and she is really critical about other people, like if they don't have a good paying job she sticks her nose up at them or if they don't come from a good family or if they don't live in the best area. She thinks people from Fall River are all trash. I want to hit her when she says things like that. I'm not a fan of people who think they are better then everyone. I want to tell her to stop doing that but i don't know how. Well now that i have vented, I feel so much better.
I am compiling a list of all of the things that need to get done before my surgery and so far i have 2 pages so I'm going to be veryyyy busy in the next week. Ill write more when my surgery date is closer :)
-J
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03/17/2009
Surgery Date
Jan 09, 2009
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