candydish4u2
life got in the way :(
May 29, 2009
Well...I'm not sure where to start,, the last 9 days have been a big cluster F***,,, I was soo excited to become a loser and sit with everyone on the losers bench but right now i am feeling like a failure. I'm not writing this for any ones sympathy , just to get my feelings out and let you all know how fast life can change , and how fast mine has changed . My life changed when i started the liquid diet, I didn't tolerated the high protein whey very well which in turn caused a bad case of gastritis ,,, some how that turned into a kidney infection which turned septic on me in a matter of days,,, probably the sickest i think i have ever been in my life ,,,but i guess either i was sick b4 and didn't know it or my immune system was compromised for some reason ,,,,, any way i was in the hospital for 6 days . I had lot of tests done and I thought everything was fine and i could go on and have the WLS and go on with my life ,but things started happening soo fast ,,cat scan showed left adrenal kidney fullness ,, found a spot on my left kidney they told me nothing to worry about , MRI showed "spots" or lesions on my left kidney again was told nothing to worry about probably just shadows but needed to do an MRA ,,, well,,now i was told i had left adrenal carcinoma, I am now in a stage of numbness ,,, all i wanted was to lose weight and be healthy ,I guess i am feeling sorry for myself cause I'm trying to figure out what the hell I did ,,I cant cry I'm too numb,But i know whats ahead of me and maybe some day i will still be able to have the WLS or maybe i wont need to or hell ,, i dont know what the hell ,, too many maybe's at this point ,,,I guess ill turn it over to God. i will know more next week and whats next . I'm not sure where i fit in with everyone but i feel theres some that i have made friends with and i just wanted to let them know I didn't chicken out or any thing ,,LIFE got in the way. Hummmmm,,,, if i have to have surgery ,,, maybe i can talk them into doing WLS at the same time ,,,doubt it but what the hell !!!!!
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About Me
st. charles, MO
Location
46.3
BMI
Surgery
07/10/2009
Surgery Date
Aug 20, 2007
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