New Sizes...

Aug 15, 2010

So... this is all just soooo sudden and all... Its funny how you think you are one size and then after you wear it around for a while you realize there is too much room in you jeans or whatever... This happened to be yet again Friday night... The current size I had on was loose so I just assumed I would be the next size down.. Well trying that size on in the store I really didn't pay too much attention as I was just excited to be getting that size on!  But then again in some ways I still have my old mind set where I'm so used to buying clothes that are baggy and hide it all which in reality make you look even huger!  So anyways.. I got the jeans needless to say and wore them out that night... My friend had a fit when she seen how loose they were in my legs on me and told me they were too big... I though about it and was in denial of course.. lol  Anyways got up Saturday.. which was my bday! and decided what the heck I'll go back to fashion bug to try on the next size down... yeah I just figured I was going to humor myself or something... but oh wait.. could it be? I was able to get those jeans up and on! I was shocked!  Yeah they are a little snug... but hey last year my size 32 were snug....

and guess what???? Now I'm in a size 16!!! Woot Wooot!!!

My friends at the stores says I'm not allowed to buy anything anymore without them approving in size.. hahaha  Also discovered I fit into a 1x shirt... (which the night before I had bought a 2x and 3x..) what was I thinking right? So I returned them for smaller ones...

But be aware when you are dropping weight fast... don't get sucked into that old mind set.. Its such a hard habit to break! But I gotta tell ya.... I'm loving my jeans super tight! haha
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100lbs lost post op!!!

Aug 11, 2010

OH MY!!!

Today I have officially lost 100lbs post op!!!  Its only been 5 1/2months!!!

Grand total since July 2009 for weight loss is 157lbs!!!

This is sooooooooooooooooo AMAZING!!!

Today is going to be an awesome day!!!
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:)

Aug 03, 2010

Just wanted to say I feel GREAT!!!

***keep smiling***
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low hemoglobin

Jul 26, 2010

So tonight at school i got to go volunteer at the lab for vital signs, finger sticks, blood taken and more.. woo hoo!  Well it always isn't fun but whats great about it is being a rny patient its nice to be able to have somethings tested...  Such as tonight... I found out my hemoglobin level was 8.6   hmmmm pretty low so tomorrow I'll be calling my surgeons to see what dosage I should take...   My hemoglobin was always good so they wanted to wait to see if i would need an iron pill... No big deal... i won't let that get me down!!! haha I'm a trooper!

On another note.. lol I had 2 girls ask me my weight for their log for vital signs (guess they felt bad and didn't want to ask me to get on the scale.. lol they don't know bout my surgery) and I tell them 292lbs... well about an hour later I thought I would get on the scale just to see.. I was bored... So then I realized I had been giving them my weight from like a month ago... LMAO!!!  I'm really 272lbs..

Its so crazy... i guess since its coming off fast i have to stop and process what i actually am..  Oh well its either that or I'm just tired! 
Work + School = me very tired!!!


I hope everyone is doing great!!!  Keep up all your hard work and never give up on your goals!!!
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A Happy Feeling :0)

Jul 25, 2010

I have noticed for the past 2 weeks that I am just a happier person!

In the past I was miserable!  For the life of me I could never ever, ever wake up to an alarm clock... was always one who slept in like forever!  Never wanted to do anything fun and always dreaded going somewhere like the movies or out to eat (cause I knew I couldn't fit in the seats)

I still felt like this after surgery still for some time (I'm 5months post op) and never knew if it was ever gonna change and thought I would have that "fat girl" mentally forever!  I mean I knew I was loosing so much but still when I looked in the mirror I still saw that horrible person I used to be... 

....but then about 2 weeks or so ago I woke up one morning with a smile on my face and ever since then I have been so extremely happy!  Most mornings I wake up before the alarm clock! <---never seen that one coming.. lol!  and it seems that everyday since then I have the biggest smile on my face and I'm much more positive about things too... I don't mind going out even to eat cause I'm all ready to sit in the booth! lol... yup that's right, no more having to go places where the booth tables move! (yes my life used to revolve around me having to pic places that could accommodate my 6x load!

Anyways what I am getting at is even if some of you are still feeling down and worthless for months after surgery.. don't give up because you too will wake up one day unexpectedly a happier new you!


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new body.. same old mind?

Jul 25, 2010

So last Wednesday I bought my first pair of size 22 jeans and new work pants.  The work pants were a 22/24 and they are black, very soft with a draw string. (i work under a chef so wanna be comfortable) Anyways I wore them to work Thursday and Friday.  Well they were very comfortable and I thought they felt good.  By the time Friday came around they were bothering me!!!  I noticed since the pants are soft cotton and have alot of give they were loose! Like in the thighs and butt... So I didn't understand what was going on in my mind!!!  I was so used to how the fit felt (loose and baggy) that I failed to realize these were just too big!  Now I'm a size 22 jeans but I guess in pants that are soft cotton I'm not...

So I ended up returning them to fashion bug that Friday night after work.  It was horrible going all day at work with those on!  Every time I walked in front of a mirror or window I was so disgusted with how those darn things looked on me!  I didn't like that look of "loose" fitting clothing!  Needless to say the 18/20 are perfect... now I'm not really that size in jeans or shirts yet just these pants cause they have give... and fit nicely around my thighs and butt without being loose!  Love em now!

So here is what I am getting at... I started off a year ago being a very tight 32w jeans/6x shirt!  I always, always, always bought close that were loose fitting everywhere!   So in my mind when I'm shopping and trying things on when they feel loose my mind registers it as being a perfect fit... Its like even thought I'm this newly size 22 my mind is still at that size 32... Its so strange.. I guess its going to be a while before my mind catches up with what size I am..

lol but I will say this.. I HATE LOOSE FITTING CLOTHING NOW!!!  I love for my jeans to be snug fitting in all the right places and for my shirts to be just right and not baggy!!!  I never ever would have thought that I would ever wear clothes so snug (and not just snug cause the store don't make a bigger size!)  I like em snug now to show it all off.. haha!

Now when I go shopping I'm gonna have to remember not to listen to the "old me" but start listening to the "new me."  All I know is I feel so extremely fat is clothes are hanging off of me now...

I look good and feel good and I want to show it and show off what I got now!!!
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Down another size :0)

Jul 24, 2010

Well its official..

I'm in a size 22 jeans and 2x shirt!!!

Woooo Hooooo!!! Its soooooooooooo exciting!!!

I feel so great about myself... I started out in a very tight size 32w jeans and 5x shirts just a year ago...

Life is Good... God is Good!!!
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I'M HALF WAY TO GOAL WEIGHT!!!

Jul 24, 2010

so feeling good today... when i was making a protein shake i decided to weight myself and lost more!  i love days like this!  i weighed in at 268!

Total weight lost from july 2009 is 142lbs!!!
Total post op weight loss from feb 2010 is 85lbs!!!

and ya know what i just realized??? I'm HALF WAY to GOAL!!!

July 2009 I set my goal with my surgeon to weigh 125lbs... crazy I know considering my starting weight was 410lbs!

Now that 142lbs is GONE!!!  I have another 142lbs to go!!!

This is so amazing!!!  I can't believe i'm half way there!!!

Woooo Hoooo!!!
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5 months Post Op Today!!!

Jul 21, 2010

So since 2/22/10 I am 80.6lbs lighter!!! & Since last 7/15/2009 I am a grand total of 137.6lbs!!!

Woooo Hooooo!!!

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Pre op + Post op = 1year

Jul 18, 2010

So... wow this is exciting!

The first time I seen my surgeon was July 15, 2009!!!

It was love at first sight.. lol he explained everything to me and decided I was a great candidate.  I weighed 410lbs!!! <--omg!

I had to wait a few weeks for the NUT visit which was August 7, 2009. (my insurance required 6months.. not too bad and so worth the wait)  I was so nervous that I had lost a few pounds and weighed in at 405.7lbs.. (I was really nervous)  I was required to do 12 weeks on optifast!  That included 4 shakes a day, 1 optifast bar and 1 diet frozen entree.  That took a while to get used to but after the first week just seeing the results I knew I could make it through to the 12th week... After the 12 weeks I gained some weight back being on real food full time... I was told that is expected.. So by the time I knew it February was here and I was doing all my last minute things trying to get ready for my big day on the 22nd!  The morning of my new beginning I weighed in at 353lbs at the hospital.. I had maintained a total pre op weight loss of 57lbs!  Which was a huge deal to me!  Dr Peters was very pleased how well I had done those 6months!

So in a few more days I'll be 5months post op!  Exciting how time flies by so fast!  So far my POST OP weight loss in this almost 5months has been 79lbs! Wooo HOooo!!!

What I'm so excited about it that from this past year from my first initial visit I lost a total of 136lbs!!! (pre op + post op weight) I couldn't be happier right now with my results!  I started in  a TIGHT size 32w.. and now I'm going into a size 22!!! (my 24s are falling off me!

If I ever went back in time and had to do this again I would defiantly!!!  I can't wait until my 1 year post op date to see how far I have come... I have my days where I don't get enough in.. I am not perfect and nobody is... But if you are ever feeling down or regretting your decision.. Just take a deep breath and look how far you have come!!!  We all have our days and they will pass...

Good luck to all of you and keep up the great work!!!
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