One Week Post Op

Sep 04, 2011

I have been healing very nicely since home.  I have heard some post op patients get drainage tubes, but all I have are six semi-tender incisions.  I had a huge breakdown on thursday.  I felt hungry, not real hungry I guess, but I had stomach rumblings and hard core cravings for any food other than what I have been eating for the past week and a half.  The knowledge set in that there was no way I would ever be able to do this without surgery and even with it it was HARD.  What made it difficult was coming home to my famly and watching them be able to eat normally.  I cried and yelled, it wasn't pretty.  My husband felt so bad for me that he decided to stay on my liquid and puree diet with me for the next 3 weeks.  I don't expect him to stick to it, mostly because I know without this tool I can't, but it feels so good to finally have his total support.

I am looking really forward to eating paste in another week.  I think I am down to 263 already, so 11 pounds total so far.  Not enough to get excited about but at least it is a start.  Although the first few days were up and down, other than the tenderness and the gas EVERY time I eat, (and bowel function has returned but I would hardly call it normal), I am feelng pretty good.  

I have realzed this week that it will be my attitude that determines my succes.  I have this awesome tool that makes significant weight loss possible,   It is still hard though.  Its hard to watch your kids woulf down burritos and candy bars while you are eating a protien shake and cold broth for the 16th time,   I think the breakdown is normal, and probably not the last one.  I am hoping that more positive experiences are on the way to balance it out.  For now I just have to remember WHY I am doing this and most importanly learn how to be patient.  That has always been a problem with me where weight loss is considered.  Right now I am grateful to be nearly off my pain meds (I still take them first thing in the morning and at night) and feeling pretty close to normal so soon. 

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