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So, at my work nearly everyone is supportive. My boss is encouraging, my supervisor is with me, but the one person I expected To get some support from, another friend of mine, seems to be giving me the cold shoulder. Some background information she went (rather hastily it would seem) about 6 months ago, to get the balloon. Whilst on it (and after paying a fairly hefty sum of money) she only managed to lose 15 lbs or so. To the credit of the balloon surgery itself, she was not eating very well. (A bag of chips and a pop for lunch? Footlong Subs drenched in Mayo?) So when SHE ASKS ME, “How much have you lost”, and I tell her, she gives me the obligatory “cool” and leaves me alone for the rest of the day. Yesterday, we went to Subway together, I got a salad, she got a footlong sub extra cheese…   See where this is going??   I guess I shouldn’t expect everyone to just embrace the new me…

I have my first follow up with Dr. Reed and staff tomorrow am, I am looking forward to seeing the team and see how they feel I am doing.

My energy is coming back bit-by-bit and I am looking forward to seeing the mental and physical changes progress.
I have uploaded a picture of me that was taken about two weeks before I had surgery. I am almost 50 lbs lighter now and am STILL afraid to take an "After" photo as this picture made me almost cry. My fear is that I don't look any different...I know what I am going through mentally and if I look about the same, I don't think I can take it.

Thanks for taking the time to read.

*hugs to all*

Ok, admittedly, I read the OH forum to feel some normalcy with my current circumstances. Today I logged on to find someone wantting to gain wait so she would continue to qualify for WLS. Is it me or does this seem like a very stupid thing to post?? I know what I went through to lose weight before being approved, during the qualification stages and now post surgery. This girl is "going to have a McDonalds Milkshake everyday for a week" so make sure she still qualifies. To me this is a slap in the face. I worked my tail off to make sure that I didn't gain more than 5 lbs between the time I met the surgeon and surgery because I would be back with the dietician / Nurse, surgery postponed. This person wants to gain weight so she can still qualify...WLS is a last resort, period...it takes determination and respect for the process...if you can lose weight on your own, why would you want this invasive lifestyle change??? I really want to post this on the board, but I don't want people to think that I am a raving bitch. Thank you for listening...comments are welcome, maybe I just don't understand...

I don't know if anyone reads my rants and vents but I want to say thank you. Thank you all for your support. Even with my hubby being behind me, there are days I DEFINITELY feel alone. Whenever that happens, I log onto here.
 

 Looking forward to getting back to work. If you can believe that. I just want to get active. I'm not hungry, not craving food as bad as I was. Hope to attach some pics soon. 

Tomorrow I start my Optifast...Hold your nose because here comes the cold water...

My last real supper is tonight....

February second is coming very fast. I am excited. I was doing some reflecting last night and I don't think I have seen under 200 lbs in over a decade. Baby steps...I would be thrilled to get to 200, and everything after that is a bonus.

Does anyone out there have any advice on what kind of pain I will be looking forward to after surgery?

I'm terrified. In a good excited way. Dr. Reed and I met on Tuesday and he told me a lot of things that re-enforces that I am making the right decision for myself. I have booked the time off and I am set to go on February 2nd.

Ok, 2 things...first, my meeting with my surgeon was moved, not by much, but it really hammered it home that I need to be good...and being good over the Christmas Holidays....

I think I can...I think I can...I think I can...

I just got off the phone with the clinic have formally booked my appointment for Jan 3rd. Will purchase my Optifast for that day as well...Nervous, psyched...got to get to the gym.

In that order.

Eep...