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June 3rd is my first appointment of 6 for my revision surgery. I'm excited but scared they will change their mind about giving me the surgery. THere are so many new things going on with me I hope this works. My husband is going through the process too. His first appointment is the 17th of June. He's also opting for the bypass surgery. We are determined to get our weight and our health under control. I'm also looking for a new job so that's kind of scary with this process as well. I have an interview this morning. I'm nervous but excited. it's a good job and I would be happy to be able to work with the company. I'm in school again as well so lots going on.

It was nice to not be judged for wanting revision at 2 yrs out. I'm really trying to get this weight off and now on top of all of my other health issues (sleep apnea, high blood pressure, prediabetes, and now GERD and Fibromyalgia) Almost all of these are new since surgery because I never got to a healthy weight and the weight is taking it's toll on me. With the fibro I'm having a difficult time learning what kind of exercising I can do. My one doctor told me to do Tia Chi but there are no classes anywhere near me. I've looked everywhere in a 20 mile radius. I can't swim and am terrified of the water, don't even get my face wet when showering. I'm up to 202 lbs and need this revision. I need advice on exercises that isn't going to hurt me. I just need to be healthy. I will be 40 this year and don't want to die before I hit 50. I feel like this is a life and death situation. I mean when I had my surgery two years ago (wednesday the 13th is my surgiversary) I had slight high blood pressure and sleep apnea, now my sleep apnea is worse and I now need meds for my blood pressure, I'm prediabetic, I have GERD for the first time in my life and well the Fibro I can't blame on anyone or anything except bad genes. I am calling the hospital Monday to find out if the hospital that I LOVE does the revision. If not I will go back to the original doctor and hospital that I had my first surgery. Wish me luck everyone and thank you for letting me update you all. Thanks for sticking by me.

i havent writen in quite a while but things have not gotten any better. i'm making an appointment on monday to see my surgeon to discuss having bypass surgery as a revision surgery. my surgeon doesn't do DS surgery but will do a revision from sleeve to bypass. I'm hoping that they will do it I'm hoping that i can get in quickly. I'm up to 204 lbs and just keep gaining. I've been eating clean and I'm still gaining. I'm just a cow. I can't stand it any more. I feel awful about  myself and my health is getting worse. I'm now prediabetic and my sleep apnea and my blood pressure are outrageous. I need this surgery, i need to save my own life. 

my exercising has come to a screeching stop. I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia after I had a flare up and couldn't walk or bend or sit or anything for three weeks. I'm only one day out of the flare up and I'm just starting to feel semi normal. The night time pains became 24 hr pains. Any way my weight loss is going to rely strictly on my eating. I cut my coffee down to only one or two cups a day and I lost a pound in a week. I'm hoping this trend continues. I'm also being very strict and careful with my eating. My portions are always appropriate just like I have been all along but I'm not grazing and I'm making healthy choices so I'm hoping that I continue to lose. I'm working on getting my pain under control with my doctor then I'm going to ask him if we can work on trying to find out why I'm either not or slowly losing weight. I have a feeling I'm just going to be a slow loser and it's going to be a long and difficult haul.

I feel amazing. 5 of the last 7 days I have done week one couch to 5 k and though I only finished the whole work out three of those days I am so proud of myself. Tomorrow I start week 2 and though I am anxious about the increase in time for jogging, I'm excited as well. I know I can do it. I'm not even sure how long the jogs are and I'm not going to look until I'm done with week 2 because I don't want to psych myself out. I just know that I was able to do the 1 min jogs easily and usually was surprised they were over so quickly. I hope week 2 goes as well as week 1 did. I will take as long as I need to move from week to week. My goal is three days of finishing the work out for that week before I move on. If that means I have to od the workout 15 times so be it but I am NOT moving on until I hit the third time of finishing the workout. I have 11 weeks and counting until the 5k as of today and I'm not giving up until I hit the finish line. Hope I'm inspiring others to do the same. Stay happy Stay healthy folks. And be safe with your workouts.

I just did it!! I did the entire 30 min with only one 15 sec pause through the whole thing. By Monday I should be more than prepared to start week 2!!!! I'm stoked. I feel like I've accomplished so much today by finishing the entire work out. I know for some this is no big deal but for me it's HUGE. I'm so happy and I feel amazing. I can't wait until I'm jogging the whole 30 min and working on my speed not my endurance. This is amazing. If anyone out there is ready to get fit and doesn't know how try the couch to 5k you could be a runner and not even know it. I would have never thought I could do it and I would have NEVER thought I would love it. I've always been a walker. I've always loved walking but now that I'm jogging and I see how many calories it burns and I know how wonderful I feel afterwards I can't get enough of it. If my legs and lungs could handle it I would be doing it twice a day. Maybe by week 4 or 5 I can do twice a day. We shall see. :D Keep wishing me luck, I love the support. you guys are the best.

Tomorrow is day three and I can't wait. I'm doing it. I have a plan so that I'm not being so hard on myself. I have two flat parts in the area I live. I'm going to walk up the hill for my walking part then jog on flat then walk up or down the hill for walking part then jog again. I want to get through the whole 30 min tomorrow. That's my goal. I made it longer than half way yesterday so I'm hoping and praying that tomorrow I kick butt and get an even better time or distance or whatever you want to call it. I want to finish the first week to move on to week two but I need three days of doing the whole 30 min the way the program goes until I will move on to week two. I think I'm ready for the second week but know that I won't be able to get through the whole 30 min So it's very important for me to get through week one the whole way.

As of right now, the plan is to take a break today and not do any jogging. Because I saw the scale move downwards it may be hard not to jog today. I'm kind of worried about how I'm going to be able to stick to a schedule once I start working. I have an interview today and could be working as early as Friday 12 hr shifts. I have to find time to jog or I will not be ready for 5k in May. I know I'm not going to want to do it in the evenings after work so some how I'm going to have to get my butt up before work and get moving. Depending on when I get home today I may jog today as well. we will see. I'm addicted to the feeling I get after I jog. It's amazing. It's like a drug, I can't get enough. I only wish it didn't make me tired or sore because then I would be doing it all the time. The burned calories are making a difference because I've lost two pounds plus I'm eating  a LOT less. I am not hungry for most of the day after I exercise which is amazing. It feels good to be able to think that I am now an active adult. I'm moving and doing things. It's wonderful.

I did my second day of c25k. I lasted 8 min longer today than I did yesterday!!!! I'm so proud of myself. I'm addicted and can't wait to do it again tomorrow. The 5k is going ot be here in no time and I'm determined to be ready. The best part of the whole thing is that the last time I did the program I could only jog for 30 sec at a time then would have to walk for 2 min. THis time I'm starting out jogging for a whole min at a time and only walking a min and a half. It's wonderful. I do not think i will have any problems transitioning to week 2 but I'm not sure what the run time is for week two. Because of my asthma I have to take longer on each week but that just means i do it more than three times a week. I'm hoping when the week is up I'm ready to start week two. I refuse to give up. I can see myself crossing that finish line with a smile on my face and my family cheering me on. I look forward to beating my last 5k time of 48 min. I want 40 min this time. I can't wait until I'm doing this all the time. I'm a runner. I can't believe it, I AM A RUNNER. who would have thought fat girl here would ever be called anything athletic! I'm an athlete. The words do not sound real but I'm training like an athlete, I'm in the mind set of an athlete, and I'm working towards and athletic goal. 

I did ok the first third of the running/walking I had a panic attack that was real bad on my way to my half way point. I made it 11 min of running walking and walked the rest of the 30 min. It could have been a lot worse. at least i made it home. I'm happy to be back on track and working towards a fitness goal. I'm still excited about the 5k. Oh and I quit smoking. Today is my first day of no smoking. :D Yay me.