Temptation

Feb 03, 2015

Well, last night I went out with the girls and I ate my cream soup and protein drink before I left so I wouldn't be hungry.

I even ordered water (at a bar and that doesn't make them happy)... Then once everyone was there they started ordering food. They started off with one of my favs... fried green beans ( Thanks TGIF for making this one of my vices, lol), then the pizza came and to finish soft pretzel sticks...

OMG, let me say that again OMG...

I didn't eat one thing but man it took everything in my body not to grab a taste of something, or scoop up some melted cheese on the pizza tray....

This is going to be the hard part for me (Temptation) after the surgery is going out with the girls. 

We play trivia at a local bar and I can't order water every week... Thank goodness trivia is done till Mayish. Food I think I could manage, its the beverage that is making me worry. You want to still live a normal life, but you don't want to offend the bar owner either. Not sure if that makes sense...

Today is day 7, after tonight only 7 more days to go ;)

I am still scared, overwhelmed, worried etc... Does this feeling ever go away???

Even the fact that I am keeping things to myself is starting to get hard. I am a person who feels she needs to share everything or explain myself. I know I don't, but it's hard to change your habbits over night.  I kept my diabeties a secret from everyone at work with the exception of 2 people and neither of them work with us anylonger. And I have had no problem for 11 years doing that, so why is this so hard.

I am talking to them about how I cut sugar, caffeine and carbs etc... Since that is something we talk about. There are a few of us that talk about working out and protein drinks and finding new foods that help with this journey etc... So they know I am working on losing more weight... So that helps me in my head think the plan will work lol...

Anywhoo.. I think that is it for today/now...

Quitting is not an option.

 

 

 

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