Time flys by

Nov 26, 2017

It has been some time since I have been on the site. 

A lot has happend, some good and not so good... 

I am about 2 years 8 months post surgery and guess what I finally faced my first gain. I am SO SCARED... I need to work on the negative talk. I am telling myself that I suck and I knew this would happen etc... I need to face the facts and move forward and start today to make tomorrow better. 

I never thought I could eat a full sandwich again and I can. I never thought I would get hunger pains again and I do. 

I am going to do the pouch test to kinda reset myself and my thinking. 

Most of my issues are all mental... My thoughts are my biggest problem, I body shame or just plan ole sham myself for falling off track. Hello I am who I am and God made me this way, no one said I was going to have it easy all over. My cross for the most part to carry is my weight issues... I pray that I will find a friend to share the struggles with that understands what I am feeling and help me figure out my journey as I help them. 

Ok I could go on forever but I will end it here... I am saying for the first time that I messed up since surgery and gained weight... Time to push, crawl, cry forward ;)

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