Kelly B.
Still waiting for dream day!!
Jun 12, 2007
Still waiting for Dream Day!
May 12, 2007
I am not sure what is going to happen with my surgery. There are some things in play right now that I didn't expect to come up and am not sure what is going to happen in the end. I can't talk about it right now, but should know something in the next few weeks. I am learning to have to trust in God and know that HE has the ultimate plan for me. LIfe is very unpredictable.....I cannot wait to find out what HE has in store for me. Keep losing out there and God Bless YOU!
Almost 7 Months till Dream Day!
Apr 26, 2007
Well, I thought I would check in and update my stuff for April. All is good here. I really haven't gained any weight so far and I am now going into my 18th week preggers. I can still fit into my jeans and shorts. I have to say I am amazed. It is truly something when your body dictates what you can eat and drink. I think this is preparing me for my surgery more than anything could. I just can't eat what I use to! I can't drink cokes at all. I don't want anything fried or from a fast food place. I crave salads and fruit smoothies. It's so weird! I go tomorrow for my monthly doctor's appointment. I have to do a bunch of blood work. YUK! Hate blood work! Hopefully they will schedule my ultra sound so we can finally see the baby and know what we are having! I cannot wait for that! Then I can start shopping! (my hubby better not read this :-) We have had a pretty good month. Our cat had kittens this month. That was cool cause the whole family was home to watch and be a part of something special. Jaylen, our 3 year old, had a birthday last week. He has been with us now for eighteen months! Finally got that boy potty trained! And to celebrate we had a huge party at the park and redecorated his whole room. Well, I better go! I'll check in next month. Keep losing out there for me! Take care and God Bless YOU! kmb
Almost 8 Months to Dream Day!
Mar 27, 2007
I went to my OB/GYN today for my check up. I am 13 weeks preggers. We got to hear the baby's heartbeat and talked with the doctor. I was weighed in and actually lost a pound since my last visit! Yahoo! I so do not want to gain more weight! I am eating very well but only crave fruits and veggies. I have also been drinking a ton of water which is something I never do. This is probably good to have this nine months of limitations and stomache issues before gastric bypass. I am having to get use to less food, more water, some nausea, and uncertain taste buds! Great prep for the next couple of years! Now if I could just start walking....
Also, have to say --- Plus Size Maternity choices SUCK EGGS! Wow and I thought it was bad 13 years ago during my last pregnancy. At least at that time I was a normal size. Urghhh....only 6 more months...only 6 more months :-) I can deal with it.
I'll have a beautiful little baby and by the time his/her first summer comes, I'll be able to go to the pool and not be ashamed. What a different mom this kiddo will have! Love ya and God Bless. Talk with you next month.
9 Months to Dream Day
Mar 04, 2007
We have so much to do to get ready. The hubby and I talked last night about putting the house on the market this summer and building a new house. We have definitely out grown this one now! We didn't ever think we would need to move b/c of lack of room, but when you add two kiddo's it get's kinda small. So, we'll build a house, sell a house, have a baby, and have gastic by-pass! We are nuts.....
I did quit smoking, drinking, and lowered my coffee intake. The smoking thing wasn't that bad since I had already cut way back before I actually had to quit. We'll see what happens over the next month --Say some prayers! Love and God Bless!
10 MONTHS TO DREAM DAY!
Jan 26, 2007
Well, I was in CA yesterday at the airport waiting to come back home when I checked my messages. Dr. Dyer left me a message to call him back as soon as possible. I have to say I was a little scared thinking something is wrong with my EKG or they found cancer in my blood cells, it was none of that. I am preggers. Totally unexpected! I didn't know what to do! Anyway, I called the hubby and told him. He was so excited! I became excited as the day went on -- it was a total readjustment in thinking and my brain was having a hard time wrapping around the idea. I have to say that I believe God has a plan for us all! And sometimes our plan doesn't exactly match up to HIS. So, I am going to have a beautiful baby this September and have my surgery in December. WOW! What a lifestyle change this is going to be! If you are so inclined say some prayers please and I hope we will all keep in touch throughout this year.
PS - Look at the bottom of my story below and see the analogy that I used about the surgery! Ha! How funny is that? Love you!
8 Days till D-Day (Dream Day)
Jan 24, 2007
9 Days till D-Day (Dream Day!)
Jan 22, 2007
I drove last night to St. Louis. Had a blast! I sang my heart out. I was jamming. I know all the truck drivers were like "who is that crazy chick from TN?? " I have also discovered that once I crossed the TN state line, the drivers actually were very polite and knew to move over when a crazy lady comes up behind them unlike those TN drivers who actually get mad that you're in the fast lane on their bumper.
Anyway, today I will do two trainings and drive back. I think I'll stop at a Circuit City on the way out of town and pick up a few more CD's :-) Tomorrow I have all of my Pre-Op stuff and then I fly to California until Friday. I better run....it's time to go meet my client! God Bless!
Count down begins...10 Days till D-Day (Dream Day)
Jan 21, 2007
Rambling thoughts....
Jan 20, 2007
It's actually kind of funny now, but it wasn't last night! I could not stop crying at all. Finally my hubby had to pay the bill, get me a napkin, and during a break in my crying jag, get me to the car. I cried all the way home. I cried in the garage. I cried in our room. Then I fell asleep from all of my crying!
I know what started it. I had my hubby take pictures of me right before we left and I made the mistake of looking at them. I haven't looked at my backside in years and was horrified to see what it looked like. By going to our favorite place and seeing all the women dancing and having a good time, it overwhelmed that I looked so bad ----- it was awful. I actually thought to myself how much I hate food and what it has done to me. I hate my reliance on food --- I hate my weakness when it comes to food --- I am so ready to change that reliance and weakness.
Another thing that troubled me was that I read a blog about a person who had this surgery several years ago and her after pictures are AMAZING!! I read her blog from beginning to end and the part I most admired about her was her belief in God. She mentioned her faith and belief in every entry over the years. It spoke to me b/c I, too, have a strong faith and belief. God has been with me through so much in my life and I cannot image HIM not being in my life during this change as I become a more complete person. I really felt like I knew her by reading her journal. Towards the end of her blog though I noticed she hasn't brought God up at all in the last year and it bothered me FOR HER. I almost wanted to ask "Why?" -- "What changed????"--- And, what bothered me, for me, is I don't want that to happen to me.
The other "issue" I am dealing with is I think that overweight people are special. And I think we come to depend on parts of life or who we are that "normal" people never really explore. We have to develop our personality, our sense of humor, and have many coping skills that other "normal" people don't. I think about the people I know who have never had a weight problem or are extremely beautiful from day one, and how in our society, those people get the easy smiles, the flattering compliments, the appreciative looks, the doors opened for them, and everything else because of the way they look. As an overweight person, those things are never taken for granted - they are appreciated and savored, remembered b/c it's such a rare occurrence. I know I am bumbling through this, but I guess as overweight people, we have a better appreciation for the small gifts in life and that in itself is a big gift. I never want to lose that or take it for granted.
I guess that is why I am writing my blog. So I can remember these days and have a constant reminder of what I believe is important. Thank God we have this site to do that. Well, better go! God Bless!