kwinkleman
Pursuit of Happiness
Jul 13, 2011
There is only one person who could ever make you happy, and that person is you.--David Burns, Intimate Connections
There is only one way to happiness, and that is to cease worrying things which are beyond the power of our will.
--Epictetus
I always think back to the move The Pursuit of Happiness....Will Smith made a very valid point....why do they say we can only pursue happiness? Is it even obtainable, or is pursuing it all we can ever do? What is true happiness? Does it stay around very long? And how is it related to weight loss? If I get to goal will I be happy or will I want to lose more? Will I want plastic surgery? Will I want to tone up? Will I like the way that I look when I get to goal? Will the struggle be worth it? Questions, questions, questions. I think I will be happy when I get to my original goal of 180...but I also think that I will want to lose more, tone up, and have plastics. What about happiness in our surroundings? Our everyday life? Our job? Should we be happy at our place of employment? Should we enjoy at least some aspect of our job? Or do we simply go, and work through the days waiting for payday?
Gaining confidence has made me question just about everything in my life. Am I happy at my job? Do I really want to be in the legal field? Am I going to school for the wrong thing? Do I want to be in a relationship or would I rather spend sometime alone just me and my son? How do I get over and move on from a bad relationship....or am I even ready to move on? It is so funny how weight loss/gain has so much control over every other part of our lives. Losing weight has made me want to go out and be more active, do outdoor activities, go out on the water, go swimming, go to the springs, waterparks, amuzement parks, the whole 9 yards. I truly want to enjoy every aspect of life....but to do that we have to let go of the things that are keeping us from being happy. Be it a person, a situation, a group of people, etc... but how do we do that? Where does that inner strength come from? I remember almost cancelling my surgery because I found out my BF couldn't be there for me....but I didn't. I pushed on. I had surgery anyway...where did THAT strength come from? How did I do it, because I was scared to death?!?! How is it that I can do that but continue to stay in a bad relationship? These things make no sense. The day I was released from the hospital I had to hunt for a ride home LOL, I kept my son out of school for a week because there simply was no one else around to help me. So if at a time such as that I can make it (with just me and my son) then why do I feel so dependent on others in my everyday life? What is wrong with being alone? And since I do have a child....I won't really ever be alone right?
Clearly I am full of questions today, and I am not really looking for an answer just releasing my thoughts.
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11/29/2010
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Oct 01, 2010
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