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Surgery Sept 17 2018 I start 3 weeks of optifast in 1 week.  I am freaking out!  I feel like in this week I am saying good bye to food forever.  I know I can do this I am just not sure how.  Menapause is fighting my will power with crazy cravings but I am hopeful

I was doing so well trying to eat sensibly about 1300 cal a day lost 3 lbs then woke up one day last week and gained 3.  Ate a club sandwich fro timmys and a med ice capp and bought 6 cookies that I ate over the last 3 days....Surprise Surprise I gained 2 more lbs....So I went out for dinner and shared a Sticky toffee dessert with my friend :( 268.4 ibs this am.  I dont know how I will get through the orientation and make it to surgery if I cant lose weight....I am so sore even walking for 20 to 30 minutes a day is hard.  I went to my sleep study and found out surprise I have moderate sleep apnia and need a CPAP.....Will they do surgery if I have sleep apnia?....I am so tired frustrated and know this is a hump but I will get over it and get back on track tomorrow

Today I awoke excited, Surgery date set for Feb 19 2018...Optifast ordered...Then at lunch I get an E Mail from Dr Malik's office saying Surgery is canceled as Kim at the Bariatric center said I did not complete the program.  I was so confused...What Program?  What had I been doing for the last couple of months, labs, sleep study, 3 trips to Victoria 5 hrs each time plus Dr's Visit or endo scope etc.....I had been logging my meals have been on this site reading daily.  I did see differences but the Canadian Forum is mostly about Ontario although there is a BC site but not much info there.  I had no idea I missed something.  I mentioned to the receptionest when Dr Malik first called that I was surprised the wait was so short and they assured me I was approved for surgery....Now I am told I have to wait and start all over, although the orientation has been moved closer, but I feel like there is not much info I will gain in the orientation that I dont already know from all the meetings I have done...I know about all the surgery's and Dr Malik's preferred Gastric sleeve...Being an RN I have a strong understanding of the biology and nutrient differences after surgery. I already have the surgical diet for day1- week 1to 2- week 3 to 4 week 4 to 8...I have sample menus as well.  I know I have to see a nutritinist and physician again to go over my logs and OK my as a candadite, (although I have been cleared by Dr Malik) I am on lose it to track food and fit bit to track exercise and fluid intake....

I am trying to not let this punch in the gut side track me too much but after the tears dried I am left feeling lost in BC's Health Care System once again and am afraid my health will continue to deteriate before I am offered the help I need to get my life back

I completed the endoscope today fentanyl didn't knock me out so I experienced the procedure concious. Surgeon said he was doing a sleeve proceedure.  He said my Neillson was intact from 2005...I am excited and nervous to hear a confirmation of the Feb 19th surgery date. I have been losing a little almost daily I was 266 last Sunday and 263 this am...Hope I can keep it up till surgical date.

I have been realizing that I eat alot of the time because I am doing what I thought was the right thing...Eat Breakfast its the best meal of the day...eat 5 to 7 servings of veggies and fruit 2 carbs and 3 proteins every day....If I ate all that I would weigh 300 lbs...clearly I dont need to eat even 1/4 of all that cause post surgery I will be eating an 1/8th of that and I will servive and get healthy.  This standard way of eating is not best practice for everyone then TV media etc says eat chia, hemp seeds almond milk etc etc....My battle to improve my health was buried in healthy foods,,,Crazy