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So I've been having a lot of problems with my tonsils lately, and I decided to go see a specialist.  The Dr. Agreed my tonsils should come out.  I asked the Dr. when we could set a date.  He said that he wants me to loose some more weight before having them taken out for saftey reasons.  I was fine with that, expecting him to say I needed to loose 20 -30 more pounds.  Do you know what he said?  He wants me to loose 100 more pounds!!! I told him that could take a year!!  He wants me to suffer with tonsils that are so swollen they touch, I can barely swallow and I'm in pain most of the time.... for an entire year.  I was so disappointed.

On a good note, I had another fill Dec 3rd.  I'm proud to report I have lost 7 pounds since then!! I'm at a total of 46 pounds!! Yay, I'm finally a LOSER again!!   At the end of the month, I will post more Pictures.

Thanksgiving Weight Loss Challenge


Starting Weight :330 lbs  09/04/2008

Week 1:  330    Total Loss:       0      09/11/2008
Week 2:  332    Total Loss:     +2      09/18/2008
Week 3:  330    Total Loss:       0      09/25/2008
Week 4:  330    Total Loss:       0      10/02/2008
Week 5:  330    Total Loss:       0      10/09/2008
Week 6: _____Total Loss: _____   10/16/2008
Week 7: _____Total Loss: _____   10/23/2008
Week 8:   328   Total Loss:        -2    10/30/2008
Week 9: _____Total Loss: _____   11/06/2008
Week 10: ____Total Loss: _____   11/13/2008
Week 11: ____Total Loss: _____   11/20/2008
Week 12: ____Total Loss: _____   11/27/2008

!!HAPPY TURKEY DAY!!

Finishing Goal Weight: 301 lbs
Acutal Finishing Weight: _____
Total Loss Goal: 29 lbs
Actual Total Loss: _____



9/12/2008 :   I didn't loose ay weight this week, but I won't let that get me down.  I'm going to try that much harder this week!!  I haven't been able to work out this week, because my gym membership was expired.  I was going to do my walking with Leslie DVD, which I highly reccommend, by the way, but I couldn't find it      I have a very busy weekend, so I should be able to keep my mind of food and temptations. 
I'm going to do the Special K diet for two weeks, hoping to loose another pants size.  I squeezed myself into a pair of strech 24's.  It looked like someone painted them on.  I'm still wearing my 28's but they are very loose.  I'm going to go shopping tonight, possibly for a dress.  My bestfriend is turning 21 and I might look cute in a dress...with some Spanx.
I'm hoping on my nxt weigh in I will be at a total of 40 pounds.  I have to go to the doctor again on the 17th, and I don't want to be in the same position I was when I went for my one month. 

9/18/2008 : I gained two pounds this week.  I still don't want to get myself down about it becuase I've been working out so much.  I had my 2nd fill yesterday and according to the doctor I'm doing just fine.  I feel like I lost an entire month becuase I never really felt full.  I now have 6cc's in my band and I still don't feel a whole lot of restriction, but I guess until I have 8-12 cc's is going to have to be a mind game.  I'm trying to stay motivated.   I have 3 things I'm going to focus on weekly.  A few of the things are, make sure and get in 50 grams of protien, drink 64 ounces of water, workout for 45 minutes 4 times a week, watch my calorie intake, limit carbs, some weeks I won't have any carbs.  I'm hoping to loose 5 pounds every week. 
This is the first year as an adult i'm going to wear a halloween costume, and I want to be 300lbs when I wear it.  I think this is possible.  I have about 6 weeks.  We'll see.  If not, I will at least know I tried.
I'm still going to do the special k diet for 2 weeks, i'm just waiting until the 1st week of october.
 
9/29/2008: So I lost the 2 pounds I had gained, that's a plus.  I really want to get in the 320's.  I bought an AB Lounge, and I've been using it every night.  I really love it.  I haven't been going to the gym as much as I should, and there is nothing to blame but myself.  Work is getting really stressful, and we are having a lot of mandatory overtime, which leaves me no time for myself.  I just have to remember what is important.  My main focus should be myself.  It's hard for me to put myself first.  I want everyone else to be happy.   In a few days I will go ahead and start the special k diet.  By the way.. Special K ceral ; Fruit and yogart, is soooo good.  I could eat it for the rest of my life! 

10/16/2008:  I suck at life.  Really.  This is just getting ridiculous.  I've had 2 fills and I have no resriction.  If it wasn't for these scars on my tummy,  I wouldn't believe I ever had the surgery.   I was supposed to get a fill yesterday, but I was going to be late and they asked me to reschedule.  Now I have to wait  until 10/27/2008 for my nexy fill.  Hopefully by then I will fill full faster and longer.  I want to loose weight so bad, but my will power is shot!!  I need motivation!!  I'm starting to feel like a failure.  I am glad, however, that I have not gained any weight. 
I went to the OBGYN yesterday, and he confirmed I do have P.C.O.S.  He put my on 3 medications that should help.  I should start seeing results in about 6 months.

10/29/2008:  Sorry, It's been a while since I have gotten online.  I got my third fill 10/27/2008.  I'm at 9cc's and I finally feel restriction.  I've never felt it before.  Now I finally get to use my tool!!  I've been eating soups and tuns and I have some eggs with cheese this morning.  I'm not hungry at all and it takes a really long time to eat.  I went down 2 pounds!!  I can't wait to start loosing again.  I tired to not get myself down about not loosing for so long, but it was either starve my self, or eat normally.  I choose to eat normally.  Now I get to eat like a band patient!!  I don't know when I will get online again, but I will post some pictures soon.

11/04/2008:  Shortly after I posted that last blog, i couldn't keep down the eggs and cheese i attempted to eat.  I also couldn't keep anything else down for 3 days.  Finally Thursday after not eating anything other than broth, i broke down at work and completely lost it.  They sent me to the docotr immediately and  i had a small deflation.  The nurse took out 1cc and instantly i felt much better.  When my band was that tight it was even hard for me to swallow.  Now I'm at 8cc's and I feel a good restriction without having to spit everything back up. 

11/17/2008: So, I know I won't meet my goal I had orginally set for myself, but I'm not going to let that get me down.  I still have 10 days to make a difference.  I would like to loose 5-7 pounds before thanksgiving.  I'm really trying today.  I'm having a meal replacement bar for breakfast, an atkins protien shake for lunch and i will have ceral for dinner tonight, and i might have sugar free jello or pudding for a snack.    I don't get another fill until Dec. 3 but I'm pretty sure i will be eating much much less and feel a the perfect amount of restriction.  The fill I have previously, i don't think i was mentally prepared.  I was still trying to eat like normal, and my band didn't like that.

It feels so good.  I started this process at 366 pounds and squeezing into my size 28 strechy pants!  I'm now down 36 pounds and squeezing into my size 24 jeans!!  In a few weeks those pants will be on with no problem!! I'm so exicted.  I moved all my size 26, 24, and 22 pants to the from of my closet for inspiration.  They were actually in storage.  Yeah, it's been that long!!  
My eating has been okay.  It could be better.  I kinda fell off the wagon.  I'm not eating out or going to restaurants and such, but my intake is more than it should be.  I get my second fill on the 17th, so I'm hoping I will have more restriction. 


My Goals:         - To be in my size 24 Jeans by my Best Friends birthday party. ( September 13th)
                          -  To loose 45 pounds by September 21st.
                          -  To loose 50 pounds by October 1st
                          -  To loose 65 pounds by November 1st
                          -  To loose 80 pounds by December 1st
                          -  To loose 90 pounds by Chirstmas

I'm still working out about 4 times a week =) 
I usually do about 25-30 minutes on the treadmill and then about 20 minutes on weights.

I had my first fill on the 18th of this month.  That was very easy, but i still don't have much restriction.  I can eat a decent amount of food, i just have to remember to chew really well.

I'm down 33 pounds.  I was hoping for more, but my doctor says i'm on track.  I will just take it one day at a time.  I bought a gym membership also and I try to work out 4 times a week. =)

My gosh, I've been forgetting to post.  I've been so busy!!

I went to my 1 week post-op appointment friday and everything went well!

At my appointment I was down 26 pounds.

2 days after my appointment I was up one pound.

3 days after I was down that same pound.

4 days after I was up 3 pounds.

I don't know what the deal is.  I know my BM's are irregular and I have also started working out daily.  I hope everything is back to normal tomorrow and I'm just in a funk. 

I will post tomorrow with my weight.

Any suggestions would be great!!

I don't get my first fill until the 18th of this month.

My grandma is  coming to see me  today :)  She came  and saw me Friday  evening and brought  me a beautiful orchid!!

Something is wrong  with the TV and I can't figure out how to work my borhter's PS3 so I can watch PS I Love You on Blu-Ray.  So I'm stuck.  All I have  is  the  computer  and  music.  OMG. 


**by the way, I'm not a retard.  I don't know what's wrong with OH today, but half of my words are coming together.  I know how to use a space bar!**

I'm doing really well.  I'm not in too much pain. I'm trying to get in as much water and protein in as possible.  I'm scheduled to go back to work August 4th, and that's the same day as my post-op appointment.  I'm trying to re-schedule it right now.  It would probably be a little easier if they wouldn't put me on hold for 15 minutes at a time. Grrrr.

I Arrived at The Specialty Surgery Center in Hurst this morning at 6:00 am.  I was nervous, but I held it together quite nicely well into pre-op.  I did however find out I only lost 14 pounds on my pre-op diet.  My scale was messed up.  I'm still happy, that's a pound a day!  I'm down to 352.2lbs.  I'm excited to watch that number drop over the months.  I did take before pictures (full body) with no special angles.  I'm really confortable right now, or else I would get my camera and upload them. 
I did start crying before they gave me my IV, and the nurse brought my mom in and talked me throught the entire surgery.  She said I won't remember hardly anything.  She was right.  The IV was scary, only because as soon as she poked me blood started going everywhere.  I felt it run down my arm and actually heard it drop on the floor.  She assured me everything was okay, and my mom was there to hold my hand.  After the IV I asked if I could see my bestfriend before I went into surgery.  She came with me, becuase she loves me .  She got up at 3:55 this morning with me and kept me strong.  Soon after , they gave me the good stuff.  I vaugely remember rolling out of the pre-op room and getting myself on the operating table.   It took me a  while to come off the anetheisia.  I was very confused and could only make noises.  My throat hurt a little and my mouth was very dry.  After moving to a recliner for a minute they took me back to the X-Ray room.  The radiologist made me drink this nasty chalky drink.  I told him I didn't feel well, and I also asked him If I was going to vomit.  He assured me that I would not.  Ha,  shows what he knows.  Right after the X-Ray was checked, I threw up.  It was so nasty.  Finally I was able to have some water and ice chips.  Then before I knew it my mom had pulled up the car and I was on my way home.  Walking was a challange, and it felt best to walk hunched over so my stomach was not scretched out. I cam home and took a nap then walked around a little bit.  After a few hours and a second dose of pain medication, I felt much better.  Walking is not a problem really.  I still keep it at a slow pace, but I can stand straight up.  The gas pain is really what bugs me the most.  Everytime I stand up I beltch really loud,and then I feel a little better.  I also took some Gas-x to help.   I've been drinking water,and apple juice with no sugar added.  I had some chicken broth and a sugar free popsicle. My family and friends are taking really good care of me.  My puppy is really sad and doesn't understand why she can't sit with me.  She weighs 17 pounds and she wants to be in my lap and on my chest, and right now I just can't risk it.  
Well, I think that's all for today, I'm going to get some more rest.

So yesterday I remembered I left my scale at my apartment, so I went back to go get it and brought it back to my moms house and set it in the bathroom.  This morning I got on the scale as i usually do...and It said I had gained 5 pounds.  That can't be possible becuase I have followed my diet.  I got on a new minutes later and it said I gained 3 pounds.  My mom said the scale is confused from the move, and I should let it settle.  I'm just not going to weigh myself until I got for surgery.  They can tell me the truth.

Yay!!! 

With atkins, I had diarrhea for 7 days pretty much, now its just the opposite .  I'm very frustrated.  Any thing I can eat to make it come out?! Haha, I know grose, but seriously, any suggestions?