Vinasu
Month 2
Oct 10, 2016
One the down side:
This month I lost 8 pounds. I have been a bit disappointed. I was really hoping to lose more. I know that 8 pounds in one month is great. I know that as long as I follow the program it’ll be fine. I know that this is completely normal. I know that my surgeon is very happy. I’m still disappointed with my progress.
I’m also pretty emotional right now. It seems that I’ve had my period ever since the surgery. I have a Mirena, so there is almost no blood, but I’ve been spotting nonstop. The hormones are torturing me. I’m weeping constantly.
If hormones are torture, constipation is murder. I’m taking fiber, Colace, milk of magnesia, enemas, everything. Constipation is winning. It’s totally TMI, but I even had to glove up. I have hemorrhoids for the first time in my life. It’s agonizing.
On the up side:
I love Tae Kwon Do! Who could have guessed? I am doing it four days a week, and it’s really tough, but I’m having so much fun. I’ve worked out with a trainer before, but I’ve always been ashamed of exercising in public. I’m doing pretty well, and I’m having a great time (although I am sore as hell!). I do look a bit silly in the uniform. However, the uniform she pulled out of the drawer fit me, first time.
I’m now a size 14! That’s crazy. I was a 14 in high school. I have three pairs of pants. One is a bit loose, one is perfect, and one is tight. My 16 jeans are too big, but the slacks still fit. To reiterate, I’m a size 14! I can’t wait until they’re all too big.
I have lost a total of 60 pounds in the last 5 months. That’s more than half way to my personal goal, and 21 pounds from my surgeon’s goal of 166. I have bones in my hands and feet. I have hip bones as well. My pajama bottoms fell off. Before, I didn’t have to unbutton my jeans to take them off—my waist was so much larger than my hips. Now, though, I have to pee the old-fashioned way J
I’ve been losing fairly slowly for the past couple of weeks—only two pounds, but I was shocked and thrilled to note that I lost three inches around the waist!
I had to meet some of my husband’s work group. Before this, I would be ashamed. My husband is very good looking—muscular body, perfect features. I have, for many years, always been hurt by people’s reactions when they see us. It’s always a bit of a shock at the “mis-matched” couple. I can see in their eyes that they are certain he married down—way down. People even sometimes stare when we go on dates together. However, though I’m still fat, I am much, much more socially acceptable now, and I am not ashamed to be with my man.
I am so happy I’ve done this. Everything is not perfect, but everything is so much better than it was 60 pounds ago.
I definitely look better dressed:
