Vinasu
Month 3
Nov 11, 2016
Seventy-four pounds down!!! My BMI is 30.6, so I am really close to being just overweight. At the beginning of the month, I was certain that it was going to be awful. I lost about four pounds the first three weeks, so I was working hard to resign myself to a disappointing loss. Then, this last week, weight just fell off. I was losing 2-3 pounds a day! Now, it’s evened out a bit, and I end up month three with a 14 pound loss.
I’m wearing size 12! I can squeeze into 10s, but there is enough muffin top to supply a bakery, so it doesn’t count. Boobs are disappearing, though. My Ds are now Cs—and they look very sad about the whole affair. They keep staring at the ground in grief….I need to save for plastics. Last time I lost a lot of weight, things went back to where they should be. This time (granted, 15 years later) I am a Shar Pei. I have curtains instead of inner thighs, and though I don’t have full bat wings, there is definitely some flapping going on.
My calves are going nowhere. While the rest of me is shrinking, my calves are still 17”. I have linebacker calves. There is no fat on them (good thing), but I’m still so disappointed. I was hoping to wear sexy boots, but nope, I will be at goal in wide-calf boots.
Month three has been a whirlwind. I’m able to eat more and more things, so I’m really having to watch my calories because I actually can overeat. I ate a brownie three weeks ago. It was a piece of brownie cake, very small, about three tablespoons worth. And man, I was sick all evening. I wasn’t dumping per se, but I was nauseated for hours. I threw away the rest of the cake. I have not been tempted to cheat since.
I spend so much time focusing on poop. It’s always way too firm or way too loose. Every day, I check the poop. Poop, poop, poop, poop, poop, poop. I also poop a lot more than before surgery—I feel like I’m pooping enormous amounts—giant logs when it’s firm and giant piles when it’s not! And the stench…there’s not enough air freshener in the world. I suppose it’s malabsorption—more is coming out rather than being absorbed by the body. Says I, spouting pseudoscience with no basis in research…
I throw up about once a week, but with the PPI it’s not terribly unpleasant. I cannot handle beef and some raw veggies. Every once in a while, my tummy just says, “No!” It doesn’t matter how careful I am, sometimes it just won’t stay down. The worst was when I ate a slice of persimmon—maybe half an ounce. Then, half an hour later, I took my daughter to the orthodontist. While sitting in the waiting room, I was suddenly overcome with nausea and had to run to the bathroom. It was really embarrassing.
I just made yellow belt in Tae Kwon Do! It’s soooo much fun! I am kicking butt! I don’t like gyms. I don’t like going and I feel so self-conscious at gyms, but at the dojang, I’m just focused on my form. Man, it’s a workout too! We have to bounce constantly. It’s actually really hard to do.
I have been getting a lot more male attention. Guys are chatting with me all the time, smiling. For example, I’m in Oregon, so the law is we can’t pump our own gas. We have gas station attendants. The last time I filled up, the guy was practically hanging in my window trying to chat, and ended up asking for my number. I didn’t think my husband would appreciate me giving out my digits, though :-P I think it’s a combination of factors: 1) I’m not enormous any more—so that’s not a turn-off, and 2) Because I feel so much better about myself, I actually put a little effort into dressing (earrings, lipstick, etc). It makes a huge difference.
I’m still relatively fat, though. I know it’s crazy—I now wear a smaller size than the average American woman, but I live in an affluent, West Coast suburb with more yoga studios and gyms than churches. There are no fat people here. We went to the town harvest festival, and, no joke, at a size 12 I was still the biggest woman there. I still stand out, but not like before.
I’m feeling good and looking good. I’m seven pounds to my surgeon’s goal, but a long way to go to my personal goal. I’m pretty confident right now.
Once again, I definitely look better clothed :-D
