Good morning... We won't discuss this weekend... just know it wasn't good.... Here's today's plan: Breakfast: Tilapia Applesauce Snack: AchievOne Lunch: Chicken Breast Lettuce Lite Dressing Dinner: AchievOne Snack: AchievOne SF Popsicle Nutrition: 944 Calories 21 Fat 25 Carbs 110 Protein Have a great day!! Denise Exercise: 75 minutes - water aerobics 1 hr - walking 25 minutes - Pilates

Irene, no I already had the hysterosalpingogogram (HSG). It showed that my fallopian tubes were open, but that there was a growth of some kind that was extending into my uterine cavity. My doctor thinks it's probably polyps or fibroids, both of which usually don't affect fertility. In my case, the doctor thinks the growth (or growths) are taking up too much room...a baby won't be able to grow properly and will result in miscarriage, if it's able to implant at all. SO...I have to have an operative hysteroscopy. Same access as an HSG, except this time, they use a telescope and very tiny tools to surgically remove the growths. I was told by the nurse that because these are inside my uterus, there's only a 0.1% chance that it's cancerous. Mostly, I'm just afraid that the doctor will decide that there's no way I can ever have another child. I know that's pretty much worst-case scenario. Chances are, it's all going to be just fine. Polyps and fibroids are quite common, and women have them removed and have babies all the time. I just always assume the worst! ANYWAY...I'm off to the treadmill! Pamela

Bobby, You are right! It often is us. When I was in the weight loss phase, I thought I looked soooo good and slim! Now I look at those pix and say - What the HECK were you thhinking???!!! And even now, I don't have an accurate picture of what I really look like - although no one is calling me scrawny... LOL! I'm buying clothes that are size 8 and they look big to me... What the heck is wrong with ME? I would have killed to wear a size 16 when I was preop - 16 was SKINNY to me back then. So how in the world can I think 8's look big? One thing that someone told me that was very helpful - ask someone who never knew you as a preop if THEY think you're scrawny... Bet they'll tell you that you look NORMAL... My sister told me that I was looking sickly and that my face was "sunken looking". I work for my surgeon and told him. He said that she is just not used to the change - that I don't look sunken or sickly. And the mail carrier that comes to the office - she never knew me preop - she just thought I was a normal, thin person... Guess it's gonna take more time for the head to catch up... Irene

Ouch!!! Hope you are doing better!!! I haven't jumped off of that bridge yet. Still trying to figure out what I want to do, how to PAY for it (ouch), and get my labs better first.

Emotionally, I'm doing better. I'm kind of nervous about my upcoming hysteroscopy (a surgery) because they're going to use light anesthesia to perform the procedure. I'm hoping that they don't find anything that can't be easily dealt with. I'm hoping for uterine polyps or one type of fibroid which are easy to remove and won't affect my fertility. I'm so afraid I'll wake up and be told that I'll never have another baby. Instead of focusing on what I can't control (the baby issues), I'm going to fixate on my weight loss (at least, that's the plan). Since it will be, at the very least, another 4 weeks before I will be allowed to try having a baby, that's 4 weeks I can use to try getting my body into better shape. I really need to get back into my exercise routine and focus on healthy foods. Here's my Sunday's plan (some of which has already been eaten): B: chicken wrap L: tuna salad (healthy way), 2 slices of bread D: ravioli lasagna (portion controlled, homemade) S: string cheese, 2 crackers, cottage cheese Exercise: 30 minutes on treadmill, weight machine Vitamins are in, and I'm working on water. It's going to be okay... Pamela