It's been an interesting past few years. Lots of pain, both physical and mental. A revision and facing of demons tucked away in my brain. I won't lie, there are times I regretted doing this. BUT it passes. I knew it'd be hard and I was right. I've read a few people saying it's the easy way out of obesity. They have no clue what goes into WLS. It is ignorance. Plain & simple.
I write all this as I am one pounds away from 100 pounds lost since the beginning of this whole thing. I never really thought before this journey that I could do that. That I'd be on insulin for a shortened life span. Not that insulin means an earlier death but the life I was living was. I'm in counseling for an eating disorder, I'm actively seeking to help myself instead of showing myself putrid hate.
It's been weird to see myself through this thing. My mom has put up with a lot through this as well. I thank her more than I can put into words. My nieces & nephew are the true drive for me to be around longer. But above all I did this for myself. I was tired of 5 shots every single day, metformin and the other meds!
i don't regret the surgery, my only regret is not doing it sooner before I had the complications of diabetes. Retinopathy is no joke!
Obligatory before & after.
VSG - 3-14-18
Revision to RNY - 5-29-19
One day at a time!