Me and my husband have been together for 4 years now. When we got together I weighed 195. I know this is over weight but it did not look bad on me. My husband has never liked really skinny girls, he likes curves. When I had my son in 2010 I gained about 17 pounds, which is not bad. After I had him I went on the Depo shot. I was on it up untill a year ago. I did not like it at all. It had me an emotional mess and I gained alot of weight with it. I felt I didnt have many birth control options since I was breast feeding. I got up to 274lbs, I know even saying that number sounds bad. When I got off the shot I started weigh****chers and began to loose. I got down to 238lbs. My husband wanted us to start trying to have another baby. So I stopped with the diet and we got pregnant. During all this we got moved to a new base. I have been here for 8 months now and havent met any friends. I am in the house all day taking care of the kids and dont know how to meet people here. I also had to give up a great job that I had had for 6 yrs; where i brought home alot more money then my husband. So we have also had a financial struggle since the move. Which feels like its all on me, I have to figure out how to afford everything. So I am now 6 months pregnant and have not gained alot of weight I am now 243lbs. I have not been able to afford to buy any maternity clothes so I am just trying to make my clothes work, which probably doesnt look to great.....But to get to my main reason for blogging today. I have notice lately that my husband has been on the internet alot lately watching porn. It was starting to bother me. Especially since we have only been intimate 3 times since I got pregnant. So I asked him about it, Why he was so into the porn now and not me. He told me he is not attrected to me anymore, that I gained too much weight. It felt so bad to hear those words come out my husbands mouth. I feel like I have givin up everything for him and now he says this... I am so hurt and do not know where to go from here its not like I can do anything about my weight right now. I told him we should go to counseling and he says no. So I told him that I was going to go then, I need some type of support, and he said no. That I was just going to get him in trouble. I just dont know what to do. I did not mean to gain the weight and I was trying to loose it. I cant do anything about it till after the baby comes. How am I supposed to deal with knowing my husband is disgusted by me while my stomach keeps growing with the baby.. im sorry if this is long. i just feel lost right now and I am all alone here except for my children.

I should be getting the "eat to live" book today my mom ordered it from Amazon for me so my daughter and I could do it together (she is only 10 but she gets cronic headaches) Im so excited to get started, I have a feeling though it wont be too too much different then the way we already eat, but I need the structure, I have let sweets become a daily habit again

 when you're a thick woman such as myself people like to to say yeah she's cute in the face or she has a nice personality as if being full figure is such a disgrace. Honey i'm cute in the face and thick in the waist. I look good in cotton or lace. I'm beautiful vibrant sexy and above all smart and there is more to me than my weight. I also have a huge heart. Yes my clothes may be a bigger size but that just means you have access to a bigger prize. So dont think your small frame gives you more pull. I'm a ******y curvy woman with a figure that's full. 

I checked out his website. Looks pretty good, I think i am going to get his book, Eat to live, it is cheaper on amazon though, do you have any of his books?

3 years ago I was pursuing surgery, I had Dr. appt's and referrals and was on a waiting list, but like you I wanted to make sure I had tried everything and thats when I started to explore more natural and healthy alternatives, I did a lot of research and study and really found a love for natural and clean eating, also cleansing and detoxing, I lost a magority of my weight using a program called isagenix, and to this day I still use the products, I am looking into going back to school to become a certified holistic health coach, my heart is to help people become healthy in all area's and nutrition is a huge area that I have learned a lot in and am still learning! Good luck to you on what ever path you choose to take!