Julia S.’s Posts
QOTD- I took 3 years of Spanish grades 5-8, but I'm hopeless now. I can still recognize written words, but can't speak it to save my life. Since then I've tried many different programs to learn it but to no success.
The ones I always feel sorry for are the reporters standing on the edge of the road or overlooking the freeway. Look at how much snow, look at how I slide, look at the cars sliding by. The weather guessers are rarely right in the Portland area, too many variables but today they got it right. There is snow and I'm working from home. It's about an inch but I'm not taking a chance.
It's a good thing I'm home as my cat just puked all over the duvet cover that soaked through to the down comforter. So one is in the wash now, I couldn't imagine finding it tonight....
My friend is going to take me in for my biopsy tomorrow if there is still snow. He calls me a whimp, and I gladly agree. I will only drive in snow if I absolutely have to. I'm way past ready for winter to be over. More snow is predicted for tomorrow.
Have a great day everyone!
5'5" Age 67 HW 291 SW 275.8 CW 171.7
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5'5" Age 67 HW 291 SW 275.8 CW 171.7
QOTD- How do you get past diet fatigue? I'm so tired of it all, I haven't been logging my food and I know I need to but it is really hard to make myself do it. Do you just get to a point where you don't care if you get to your goal? I ask myself if I really need to get there? What if I didn't would it be OK?
I've been MIA for a few days. Snow on Monday so I worked from home, white knuckle driver so I don't drive in it if possible.
Accountability has been crap! Still stressing about my biopsy coming up on Thursday. Worried if it was going to snow etc etc... Sleep has been awful, thank God for lunesta, just worried about getting more from my PCP.
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QOTD- I try not the watch it often as I have the same reaction. Why in the world would you enable someone by providing them their terrible choices in food. I don't want to see these people in embarrassing situations. I want them to be successful, and even at the beginning of the show they say their success rate is 5%. It is a wake-up call to me to eat correctly, protein forward and limit carbs. The worst thing to see is their emotional issues, and to know by not dealing with them they won't be successful.
I'm thinking of going to the WLS support group tonight. It's been probably 8 months since the last time I went. It is not easy to make myself leave the house and go downtown at night, but I feel like I would benefit. So I'm going to try to make myself go.
Have a great Friday Eve everyone!
5'5" Age 67 HW 291 SW 275.8 CW 171.7
I am just over 1 year post-op and I have lost 105lbs. I do not feel mutilated, or that it was a mistake. I was at a BMI of 48.4 when I started. I'm now at a BMI of 30. I feel so much better, everything is easier for me. I can kneel down and get up without using any support. Walking up stairs is a breeze and all movement is easier. I have had an ulcer but it is not along the staple line, and is likely caused by excess acid and I will probably have to take omeprazole for life, but I don't have heartburn or GERD anymore. My blood pressure is low again. I have to take vitamins but I took them before, I'm just more consistent now.
I am surprised you haven't lost more weight. Do you measure and log your food? If you don't you need to start.
If you are not having success with your current therapist you need to find someone else.
It does you no good to regret or second guess your decision for surgery. It is done and you can't go back. As far as all of the other things you have listed, don't borrow trouble. If you are following up with your surgeon and PCP you can address any issues that arise. All of your pre-op conditions should resolve if you follow the WLS program and nutritionists' advice and get to a normal BMI.
My only regret is that I didn't have the surgery 20 years ago.
Be kind to yourself and stop obsessing over what you can't change.
5'5" Age 67 HW 291 SW 275.8 CW 171.7
QOTD- I drive a 2010 Prius, I bought it when gas prices were so high and I was driving a lot for work. It gets amazing mileage but I miss my Mustang. It's too much of an old lady car, and I have contemplated buying the Prius Prime plug-in mostly for the tax credit. But I am so spoiled not having a car payment. Last year I also bought a 1997 Ford F150 4WD truck and I love it! My commute is only 3 miles, but I need to drive for work at times. I would love to be able to walk or bike in the summer time, but I never know when I need to go out in the field. I am a car nut too, I love muscle cars and classic cars. My ultimate car would be a 1957 T-bird convertible with the porthole windows. But I also like the creature comforts, I would love to have heated seats and all the bells and whistles. What I really want is a Dodge Challenger or Mustang that gets Prius gas mileage. I know it will never happen, but I want a hybrid that actually looks good and has some get up and go!
Trying to get back on track, and struggling.
Happy Hump Day everyone!
5'5" Age 67 HW 291 SW 275.8 CW 171.7
QOTD- Someone I work with is always dieting, he eats side salads from Mcdonalds with ranch dressing and wheat thins for lunch every day. I try to steer him towards more protein, but he doesn't appear to be interested. He's lost 140lbs from when he had heart attack and open heart surgery but still needs to lose at least 40+ more. I try not to preach, but it is hard to watch someone making such poor food choices.
The results of the mammogram is that I have to get a biopsy on the 28th. Not looking forward to it, as I've had too many of them. This one will be mammogram guided, so that is different. It's done with a local, and should only take 1-1/2 hours. Having had breast cancer before I really hope it isn't back, I'm having a hard time dealing with this, I let it get to me. I don't want to have to go through this again.
Accountability sucked yesterday, but I'll get back on track today.
Have a great day everyone!
5'5" Age 67 HW 291 SW 275.8 CW 171.7
I'm trying not very successfully to not freak out. Before lunch I got a call from the hospital where I had my mammogram and they wanted to make another appointment for 3 hours for tomorrow. The person making the appointment couldn't tell me anything other than they want to look at my right breast. This is the side I had cancer on before so I am scared. I did a 3D mammogram that is supposed to work with dense breast tissue, and it could just be the scar tissue that they see, or at least I hope that is what it is. They told me to call my PCP if I had questions, so I have a call into her to see if they have more information so I can be fore-warned. The answer from the PCP is that they see some calcification's and want to get a better look. It can be good or bad depending on what they see on the next one. Keep your fingers crossed.
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My B12 was high at 6 months and they had me go to every other day. It was also high at my 12 months so now I'm at taking it 3 times a week. I don't know what the issue is with high B12.
5'5" Age 67 HW 291 SW 275.8 CW 171.7
Uneventful weekend, watched some football on Saturday, read on Sunday. Sunday is laundry day, so I changed the sheets and did laundry. Went to dinner Friday night, food was good but shouldn't have had a drink, as I have an ulcer I should stay away from it, but not so good at it.
Today is contractor day at work, all the management employees have a holiday. So it's just us contractors and the union employees, so it's quiet here for a change. If I'd thought about it I would have worked from home today, but I needed Adobe Acrobat and I don't have it on my home computer, and I'm not willing to spend the $230+ for it out of pocket especially since I can't write it off anymore. I don't know about you but I'm not happy about the tax cut that was not for middle income people. I hate that they messed with the withholding's to make you think you were getting a tax break, but in reality with most of our deductions gone and less being taken out you end up with a much lower refund or having to pay.
Have a great Monday everyone!
5'5" Age 67 HW 291 SW 275.8 CW 171.7
QOTD- Nothing planned this weekend.
I was not expecting anything for Valentines day, but did get some flowers. The man is crazy about me, we were together before but I'm not sure that I want to do it again. When I was with him I was still hung-up on my Ex and I did get back together with my Ex for awhile. The Ex is the one I always believed was the love of my life. Ultimately he hurt me so much I don't know that I can ever let anyone close to me again. It's easy to fall in love, but so difficult to maintain a relationship.
Working from home today, I have so much work...and it was just added to from a phone call I just got. I guess it's job security.
Have a great Friday everyone!
5'5" Age 67 HW 291 SW 275.8 CW 171.7
QOTD- I really didn't have any health problems, other than my blood pressure that was low was heading to the high range. What I love now is being able to kneel down and not have to worry about how I'm going to get back up, and that I can move so easily through the world. I take the stairs with ease and am not winded, and just feel so light. I'm no longer trying to hide, I feel secure enough in myself to wear jewelry and actually be noticed.
I found a new football team the Arizona Hotshots in the AAF. It's hard to go so long without football and this team has some Oregon players and Nick Aliotti as their defensive coordinator also former Oregon coach. The games move much faster with only 35 seconds between plays and no kick-offs, so the games are only 3 hours versus the 4+ of the NFL. I'm enjoying watching the players and hoping that this league will succeed and some of the players will find their way back to the NFL.
Tomorrow is my mammagram, not looking forward to it. As a breast cancer survivor I always feel like I'm holding my breath, and worry as the cancer wasn't found by the mammagram but by the ultrasound and MRI. I have dense breast tissue, so I never really feel like I am safe if it's clear.
Have a great Hump Day everyone!
5'5" Age 67 HW 291 SW 275.8 CW 171.7
I'm 61 and I play World of Warcraft, so you're not alone out there.
I was supplementing my protein with Syntrax Nectar 23g protein & 100 calories. My favorite flavor is Roadside Lemonade. There is a sample pack you can purchase to find out what flavors you can tolerate. I am anti-protein shake but these are clear and not as sweet and made from Whey Protein Isolate- I'm lactose intolerant.
I know the water and liquid intake is hard, you just slosh for awhile.
Take care!
5'5" Age 67 HW 291 SW 275.8 CW 171.7
QOTD- I have a programmable and internet accessible thermostat. I have an app on my phone. At night I let it get down to 64 degrees, during the day it's at 69 when I'm home, but sometimes that just isn't warm enough. So depending on how cold I feel I crank it to 71, my cat gets cold so he hogs the vent when it comes on. My whole house is vaulted and the larger part of it the living room, dining room, kitchen and family room tend to be much cooler than the bedrooms. I close down the dampers on the vents to prevent the bedroom from getting too warm. I sleep under an electric blanket, a wool blanket and a down comforter year round. I ditch the wool blanket and comforter if it gets too hot in the summer time. But as I have AC that rarely happens. I also use a heated blanket when I watch TV. Probably TMI.
I didn't even realize but today is my surgiversary. I didn't weigh myself because I've had a sinus infection and haven't left my house for the last 3 days. I tried to make an appointment with my PCP last Thursday but there was nothing until 3/11/19. I should have called instead of looking online, so Saturday night I was in so much pain I ended up at the emergency room, and got a prescription for augmentin. But it was a painful experience, and I only had a NP who kept trying to push antihistamines and decongestants on me. I know when I have a sinus infection, it is one of the most painful things I've ever experienced and I've had lots of them. So since I felt so crappy I used it as an excuse to eat horrible things. I almost wish that I did dump, but since I don't I just need to correct my behavior and move on. The only things I wanted to eat was salty carbs and sweet carbs. I wasn't that horrible, but definitely not within my plan.
Snowpocolypse didn't happen, the most we got was 1/2 inch of snow at my house, there was more on the east side of the river and in the gorge but here nothing. You would think the world was ending it took me almost an hour to get yogurt and kleenex at the grocery store. I've never seen it that packed not even before Thanksgiving. It was a nightmare. I had rescheduled my EGD on the chance of snow, but with the sinus infection it's probably just as well I didn't have the EGD today.
It looked like they were predicting more snow for the rest of this week, but now I see it's revised to rain, lots of rain....
I need to get back on track and quit snacking. It is amazing to me that I can only fit 2-3oz of dense protein in my pouch, but seemingly unlimited quantities of carbs. Not good.
Have a great day everyone!
5'5" Age 67 HW 291 SW 275.8 CW 171.7
QOTD- YES! I live in the PNW and the gray and clouds drive me crazy, they really shouldn't as I'm a 3rd generation Oregonian but I get so depressed in the winters. I've tried the light and it does help, and I also tan, even though I know it isn't good for my skin. But while I'm laying their in the warmth I pretend I'm really in Maui. It doesn't always work but I try.
Snowpocolypse is postponed until tonight, now saying 6+ inches down to the valley floor and that it will stick around for the next week. So I need to get yogurt today, but I will be able to see my counselor. I'm also going to verify if the EGD will be done if it snows.
Working from home today, so much lower stress. Lots of projects to work on, but no inclination. If it does snow I will also work from home on Monday, so I should be good.
Have a great Friday everyone!
5'5" Age 67 HW 291 SW 275.8 CW 171.7
QOTD- I avoid, not a confronter it is really hard for me to speak up for myself. I avoid confrontation unless I have no other choice. But I also internalize all of it and that is not a good thing. I had a coworker that really hurt me with some remarks. I didn't talk to him for a few days and then I finally confronted him and he apologized-it was difficult for me to do, but I'm glad I did it.
Depending on what weather you look at snowpocolypse is coming. One says up to 14" through the weekend, and others don't give an exact amount. This is the PNW specifically the Portland area and it will shut down with just a few flakes. I'm not sure why people that are unable to drive in snow venture out in it. I can drive in it if I absolutely have to but would rather not. There are tons of people in rear wheel drive cars that attempt it and fail miserably. One winter it took me 3 hours to go less than 2 miles. I am working from home tomorrow, the snow isn't expected until late I hope, as I have a counseling session and don't want to reschedule. I need to get some yogurt tonight just in case I can't get out this weekend.
I ordered a white noise machine and it will be here tomorrow. I was so tired last night I didn't hear a thing. Thank you Artchikk for the suggestion.
I have another EGD scheduled for Tuesday, I'm not sure what will happen if the snow really comes. My friend loves driving in snow and he's taking me to the hospital so I should be OK.
Have a happy Friday Eve everyone!
5'5" Age 67 HW 291 SW 275.8 CW 171.7
QOTD- Definitely an evening snacker, I crave something sweet before bed and have been giving in lately which I need to stop doing.
Went to the movies last night so popcorn and a few milk duds, but I planned on it. Still not logging my food and I need to start, so I promise myself I will today.
Cold for us in the PNW mid 20's this morning, and they are saying more snow Friday into Saturday. I could do without it. Most of the precipitation evaporated off the roads, and they put down de-icer so the commute was good this morning. But a bad night sleep wise. I have a friend that I am now sharing my house with, and I am not used to the noises and having someone else in the house. I'm a really light sleeper and have a really hard time with noise, so I'm not sure how this is going to work. I have tinnitus so earplugs are not a solution, hoping I will just get used to it. But it was 1AM before I got to sleep and I have to be up at 6AM, so I'm dead tired today. There really isn't enough caffeine that my stomach could tolerate that would help today. I need to find a way to make this work as I have invested a lot of time and money to accommodate his moving in. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated.
Have a great Hump Day everyone!
5'5" Age 67 HW 291 SW 275.8 CW 171.7
I get my nails done every 3 weeks, I alternate between pink, purple & blue and I've got to have sparklies. LOL
They're a little long and grown out I get them done on Thursday. It just makes me feel good.
5'5" Age 67 HW 291 SW 275.8 CW 171.7
I would recommend Syntrax Nectars. They are whey protein isolate and 23g of protein in 100 calories. They have 17 flavors, so try the sampler pack and figure out if there is one you can tolerate. My favorite is Roadside Lemonade, then Fuzzy Navel and Twisted Cherry. They are not too sweet and go down well. It is the only way I got all of my protein in for awhile. I'm lactose intolerant so these worked for me. Good luck, I know this can be difficult. Be kind to yourself.
5'5" Age 67 HW 291 SW 275.8 CW 171.7
I loved the Marvelous Mrs. Maisel, binged it and am waiting for the next season. I hate it when that happens...
5'5" Age 67 HW 291 SW 275.8 CW 171.7
We got your snow last night Daisy, but not too much of it. I'm more worried about ice. I even drove to work with no issues, trying to pretend there is no snow, but took it slow anyway.
QOTD- I don't eat until I get to the office around 7, I usually have Greek yogurt for breakfast and then wait 30 minutes and have a coconut milk mocha made with unsweetened Ghiarardelli cocoa and truvia. I miss the sugared version and this is the best I can do, much lower in calories and no sugar.
I'm jealous of all of you who can drink tons of coffee, I've cut back to just the mocha and about 8oz of coffee mid morning. It just seems too acidic to me the negatives of dealing with an ulcer.
Yesterday was a bad pouch day, I had Greek yogurt, 1oz of mozarella cheese and 2 small clementines for lunch and that set off bad nausea and a headache. Not sure if it was really food related, but I ended up having to go home. I miss ibuprofen! Trying not to think about having another EGD in a week. If the ulcer is gone I can quit taking the carafate, yay! But this time not stop taking the omeprazole.
I'm supposed to meet with a contracting company today, but I'm going to cancel. If they don't have an immediate job, there doesn't seem to be a reason to meet. Plus the weather worries me, if it warms up all of this will melt and then refreeze tonight. Hopefully it will evaporate, but I'd rather not drive in it.
Have a great Tuesday everyone!
5'5" Age 67 HW 291 SW 275.8 CW 171.7
QOTD- I have too many apps on my phone, but have deactivated my Facebook account so that is not one of them. The 3 I would pick that I use the most are Fitbit, Twitter & Mango Health for all my meds.
The weather had me nervous we are under a winter weather advisory and I was expecting snow this morning. So far it hasn't materialized. But we are expect lows in the 20's for the rest of the week that could make the commute difficult. As it is expected to get above freezing during the day and then freeze at night. I avoid driving in snow if possible. I'm so stressed out by the time I get there it isn't worth it to go anywhere. If I see a snowflake I'm heading for home.
I didn'****ch the Superbowl and sorry to say for you Pats fans I was hoping they would lose. Oh well you can't have everything. There is a new league starting up next Saturday so I may watch that if I can't hold out for another 6 months. I was told there are only 2 sports, Football and waiting for Football. I honestly don'****ch any other sports, except for Horse Shows like FEI, Show Jumping, 3 Day Eventing, and sometimes Horse Racing as my horse came off the track and I like to see some of the races occasionally.
Accountability was not good, still need to get back on track.
Have a good start to the week everyone!
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I have a bunch in my garage that I haven't opened in years. Since I now have a pickup truck my goal is the go through all of them and donate what I can and take the rest to the dump. It is overwhelming at times, so I will try to do a little at a time.
5'5" Age 67 HW 291 SW 275.8 CW 171.7
I too am lactose intolerant but I can eat Greek yogurt and hard cheeses as they have no lactose in them. I would never make my protein totals without the yogurt. My favorite salad is spring mix with cherry tomatoes, sliced baby carrots and crumbled goat cheese with no-fat balsamic vinaigrette. I could eat it at about 6 months but everyone is different. Listen to your body. I still have things that don't sit well and cause me nausea. It's all about seeing what works for you.
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