Short Fuse...

One thing I have noticed and unfortunately others around me is my attitude. It is beginning to sour. I don't know if it's the Chantix that I've taken for a few weeks now with no effect, Food Withdrawls, or a combination of the two. It seems I've been quick to snap and I'm usually a person with a lot of patience, and slow to anger. I fussed at my wife for not eating all day, got her some food, then fussed at her because I couldn't have any. Then I began to question my surgeon. Saying, other get real food on their pre op diets, why not me? Others only have 2 weeks, why does mine have to be a month? Then when my sweet wife out of concern offered me a small bite of chicken, I turned to her and said, No, I'll just get my nutrition from a Hi-C Box. She apologized to me and all I could say was no, you're not sorry just stuff it up and enjoy your meal. I really didn't mean to hurt her feelings, and have been very repentant since, but this is not like me. I'm beginning to have second thoughts like if losing weight is going to change me into a person I'm not.... ahhh you know. I reckon I just need to take a deep breath, pray, and press on. Thanks for letting me vent.

Are you seeing a therapist? This process can be a real mindfuck. Having a therapist can help significantly. 

My therapist is Jesus, plus I have no extra money to pay a therapist. I know it's most likely the battle with my flesh manifesting itself outwardly. Just going to pray and settle down. Posting this thread has already made me feel better, just needed to blow off some steam I reckon. I will overcome this, this too shall pass.

You have the best therapist...you just need to talk with Him...constantly!!  Praying for you...it will get better.

Are you able to talk to a clergy member?  That might be useful if you can't afford a therapist. 

Absolutely, Pastor is always good at helping me out.

Those are all classic symptoms of Chantix. 

U was thinking the same at first, but it hasn't affected me until now. I really think it's an inner fight with the flesh manifesting itself outwardly. I'll get through this, reckon I just needed to blow off a lil steam.

Good luck to you.  I quit smoking myself a month ago in anticipation of my surgery.  Hang in there. 

Check out OA -- it can be a good avenue for finding support w/o the cost of a therapist.  

You are bound to be cranky starving on your pre-op diet and quitting smoking.  Maybe you can leave the room when others are eating.  This is the hardest part!  You can do it!