Just a vent...no response needed!! Seriously!
I told my husband of almost 15 yrs tonight....I'm done fighting, if the only way to stop the fighting is to end it...fine! Well, its over!
I'm sad. We couldn't come to a compromise. He doesn't want to change, I don't want to change! I've come out of my shell and this hole I've put myself in. If I've changed, then I have accepted responsibility for the end of my marriage. I feel I've been controled and manipulated for the first 12+ yrs of marriage. I now see that I've GIVEN to everyone but me...now I want stuff for me. Maybe I'm selfish (so he says), so be it! He's changed his FB status to "single", so have I!!!! We (my mom, sister, nephew, me, son & daughter) did a trip to Disney. He went to Talledaga Race track in April with my dad....figured he'd have more fun..(he didn't seem to have fun 5 yrs ago when we went to Disney). Been ALL BAD since. I mentioned the weather was nice (just like Fla), he got all pissed off!!! I'm sorry, but I'm done!!! There is a much deeper story here. He has never trusted me and has always said (from yr one) that I was doing stuff behind his back and cheating on him! It took me 45 mins to get home from my work, it took him 30 mins to go that same route.....but I was stopping somewhere after work!!! Needless to say, he did the route at 3pm, I did it at 5:30pm!!!!!! Hello, traffic!!!! I guess I've finally wanted for me now!!
I'm sorry again for taking up a posting space...but I had to vent and I felt there was NO where else I could do it but here!!!! I know I don't post much, but I Always lurk!!! Thanks for letting me get that off my chest!!!! You guys are the best!!!!
I do have to say...this surgery has giving me the confidence to realize "I AM A PERSON!"!!!!! Before I wasn't (not in my eyes).
There are never any problems, only solutions. quoted by a dear and special friend!!!
My stats:
Starting weight 234 lbs Height 5 ft 6 in
Goal in 7 months (127 lbs)
Currently: 120-123 lbs
Tops Small Bottoms size 2!!!! UPDATED: 11/11
HW - 225 SW - 191 GW - 132 CW - 122
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I didn't see it before, but I see it now! This past weekend I understood how "beaten" woman return to their abuser. I felt like that on Sunday! Its amazing. The AHA moment.
Thank you again!!
There are never any problems, only solutions. quoted by a dear and special friend!!!
My stats:
Starting weight 234 lbs Height 5 ft 6 in
Goal in 7 months (127 lbs)
Currently: 120-123 lbs
Tops Small Bottoms size 2!!!! UPDATED: 11/11
We are all here for you. WLS is our common bond, caring is what keeps us together.
You're right, it is impossible to thrive! He says "I've never denied you". No I admit, he didn't. He just made me feel I needed to deny myself anything! Manipulation! And he is continuing to do it!
I LOVE the LW Board...no matter what, we all seem to be there for each other!
Thanks again!
There are never any problems, only solutions. quoted by a dear and special friend!!!
My stats:
Starting weight 234 lbs Height 5 ft 6 in
Goal in 7 months (127 lbs)
Currently: 120-123 lbs
Tops Small Bottoms size 2!!!! UPDATED: 11/11
I'm swinging you have the power and energy to make what you need to happen, happen.
66 yrs young, 4'11" hw 220, goal 120 met at 12 months, cw 129 learning Maintainance
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He says now he will change. But supposedly he/we were going to change over the last 3 yrs or so. No change happened on his part!! I'm taking this time for ME and our son! My son is #1, I'm #1.5.....no longer #5 (there is only 3 of us)!
Thanks again!! Everyones support really helps!!
There are never any problems, only solutions. quoted by a dear and special friend!!!
My stats:
Starting weight 234 lbs Height 5 ft 6 in
Goal in 7 months (127 lbs)
Currently: 120-123 lbs
Tops Small Bottoms size 2!!!! UPDATED: 11/11
--gina
5'1" -- HW 195/SW 187/GW 115 July 08/CW 121 Dec 2012
******GOAL*******
Starting BMI between 35 and 40ish?
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DS on Aug 9, 2007 with Dr. Hazem Elariny
I love the LW Board! You are the reason I came over here! Thank you!
There are never any problems, only solutions. quoted by a dear and special friend!!!
My stats:
Starting weight 234 lbs Height 5 ft 6 in
Goal in 7 months (127 lbs)
Currently: 120-123 lbs
Tops Small Bottoms size 2!!!! UPDATED: 11/11
