Adrianne_Dawn
Pre-Op nervous!
Apr 13, 2012
Where do I begin? I guess I'll start with I'm Adrianne. I'm 31 years old and I've been "Fat" my entire life. Well let's face it no one calls you fat but rude people and little kids. Everyone else calls you "chubby", "big boned", "plus size", "That big girl". What's worse? I'm not quite sure....I think if someone called me "FAT" instead of "Plus Size" maybe I would have paid attention to the fact I just kept getting bigger and not ignored all the horrible signs.
I remember once watching TV when I was around 230lbs and I thought "OMG how do those people get so big?? 300 lbs just shoot me if that happens." Not that I was happy I was 230 but I felt 300+ pounds was never going to happen.
Jokes on me! Fast forward through my 20's and into my early 30's - I went to the doctor for a check up and got on the scale......."320 lbs"....I almost started crying. What had I done with myself? How in the world could I let myself get to this point? BTW this is the first time I've ever even admitted to anyone that I once weighed 320 lbs. I think even my license says I'm 100 lbs lighter then I really am, but like there about to question my weight. hahaha
Anyways back to the story - My weight in was about a year ago at 320 lbs. Dramatic, heartbreaking and utterly devastating but maybe the wake up call I finally needed. I had looked in surgery years earlier when I was in my early 20's but no company I ever worked for approved the surgery. I had given up on the thought any insurance company I ever had would pay for the surgery. Then one day while on my insurance site (for a company I had been at for about a year) I found they did in fact offer to pay for the surgery if you had one of their major qualifiers. It was about 4 or 5 items one of which you had to have and as I went down the list slowly saddening...I saw it "Sleep Apnea" - YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! Well not that having sleep apnea is something to cheer about but in this case it was.
I filled out the online form and sent it in almost immediately and then within the month I had to go to my Doctor weight in and have him send over paperwork to my insurance. It was then that I was accepted into the first phase of the program - which sadly meant a 1450 dollar nutrition program - oh and insurance doesn't cover this. I also had 6 months to lose 5% of my weight which at the time of weight in was at 317. I didn't start losing weight right away because honestly I wasn't sure if it would count if i hadn't paid the 1450 dollars - Plus it was the holidays and I can be a bit of a procrastinator. Once I paid for the program I had exactly 1.5 months to lose my 5%. Talk about waiting until the last minute Adrianne.
Even so I began, with the guidance from my nutritionist I worked out 4 days a week, ate 1200 calories (which was super strange cause at first it was ok but man the 3rd week in I was starving!) but slowly the pounds started coming off, 2 lbs here and 3 lbs there. I was 5 days shy of meeting my goal and sadly about 5 lbs (306 lbs) off needless to say I was FREAKING OUT! I talked to my nutritionist and so began 5 days of a liquid diet and 1100 calories. That Saturday I went into the doctors office and jumped on the scale and I was at.....Drum roll.....303!!!!! I yelled "YES" and the nurse laughed and said "I don't think I've ever heard someone say that after getting on the scale" - I laughed back and said I'm only 2 lbs from my goal. So, with 3 more days to go I went to the gym every day but the day before weigh in (per nutritionist instructions), limited my water in take and come Tuesday morning I weighed in at 298!!!! I had to look at the scale like 3 times before I realized I was UNDER 300 lbs!!!
I then realized I had done it....I was now on the next step - I was bad and I celebrated with the Brownie my cousin had made for our weekend dinner that I couldn't eat. Ugh my stomach was not happy that night. Apparently you can't go from eating 1100 calories, mainly liquid and veggies and then eat something high in fat and sugar. Note taken. haha
Since my weigh in I've slacked...it hasn't been bad but some of my bad habits are still lingering. I'm very disappointed with myself in this matter because I've worked so hard. I've barely been to the gym but luckily I'm fluctuating between 2-3 lbs. I weight in at my Surgeon's office at 301. Still....I was disappointed with myself that I let myself get back above 300. Everyday it's a struggle and I'm positive it won't change even after the surgery.
I met with my surgeon this last Thursday April 12, 2012 and at first I was leaning towards the Lap band but because I also have PCOS he told me that honestly my best chance of losing weight and to control PCOS if not make it disappear completely was to get the Gastric Bypass. This scares me - it's so permanent...but it's surgery. I've never had surgery and I'm scared regardless. Needless to say after thinking it over I've realized it's the only thing that makes sense. I'm 31 years old...I want my life back! This body has been controlling me far to long.
I set up my psychologist appointment for the 26th and my GI scope May 2nd. I still need to set up a Ultrasound and Chest X-ray as well as blood work and physical from my doctor but once those are all completed...well it's time to submit paperwork to my insurance. "OMG". hahaha
I will also be starting a "Atkins" High protein low carb diet for the next 4 weeks starting Monday. I'm going to start Monday because I'm having a "Girls Night" tomorrow and I want one more night of bad choices before I step into my future.
Earlier I was reading about how hard it is for some people to give up certain things like eating their favorite junk food. I'm sure I'll have this issue as well but the reality is losing this weight will be the best thing that has ever happened to me. It's not me...this body is not me. It controls who I am, who i want to be and what i can be. I won't let it do that anymore.
Ok that's enough for now...hahahaa I'll blog next week and let you know how all my protein fun is going. hahaha
Adrianne
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I remember once watching TV when I was around 230lbs and I thought "OMG how do those people get so big?? 300 lbs just shoot me if that happens." Not that I was happy I was 230 but I felt 300+ pounds was never going to happen.
Jokes on me! Fast forward through my 20's and into my early 30's - I went to the doctor for a check up and got on the scale......."320 lbs"....I almost started crying. What had I done with myself? How in the world could I let myself get to this point? BTW this is the first time I've ever even admitted to anyone that I once weighed 320 lbs. I think even my license says I'm 100 lbs lighter then I really am, but like there about to question my weight. hahaha
Anyways back to the story - My weight in was about a year ago at 320 lbs. Dramatic, heartbreaking and utterly devastating but maybe the wake up call I finally needed. I had looked in surgery years earlier when I was in my early 20's but no company I ever worked for approved the surgery. I had given up on the thought any insurance company I ever had would pay for the surgery. Then one day while on my insurance site (for a company I had been at for about a year) I found they did in fact offer to pay for the surgery if you had one of their major qualifiers. It was about 4 or 5 items one of which you had to have and as I went down the list slowly saddening...I saw it "Sleep Apnea" - YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! Well not that having sleep apnea is something to cheer about but in this case it was.
I filled out the online form and sent it in almost immediately and then within the month I had to go to my Doctor weight in and have him send over paperwork to my insurance. It was then that I was accepted into the first phase of the program - which sadly meant a 1450 dollar nutrition program - oh and insurance doesn't cover this. I also had 6 months to lose 5% of my weight which at the time of weight in was at 317. I didn't start losing weight right away because honestly I wasn't sure if it would count if i hadn't paid the 1450 dollars - Plus it was the holidays and I can be a bit of a procrastinator. Once I paid for the program I had exactly 1.5 months to lose my 5%. Talk about waiting until the last minute Adrianne.
Even so I began, with the guidance from my nutritionist I worked out 4 days a week, ate 1200 calories (which was super strange cause at first it was ok but man the 3rd week in I was starving!) but slowly the pounds started coming off, 2 lbs here and 3 lbs there. I was 5 days shy of meeting my goal and sadly about 5 lbs (306 lbs) off needless to say I was FREAKING OUT! I talked to my nutritionist and so began 5 days of a liquid diet and 1100 calories. That Saturday I went into the doctors office and jumped on the scale and I was at.....Drum roll.....303!!!!! I yelled "YES" and the nurse laughed and said "I don't think I've ever heard someone say that after getting on the scale" - I laughed back and said I'm only 2 lbs from my goal. So, with 3 more days to go I went to the gym every day but the day before weigh in (per nutritionist instructions), limited my water in take and come Tuesday morning I weighed in at 298!!!! I had to look at the scale like 3 times before I realized I was UNDER 300 lbs!!!
I then realized I had done it....I was now on the next step - I was bad and I celebrated with the Brownie my cousin had made for our weekend dinner that I couldn't eat. Ugh my stomach was not happy that night. Apparently you can't go from eating 1100 calories, mainly liquid and veggies and then eat something high in fat and sugar. Note taken. haha
Since my weigh in I've slacked...it hasn't been bad but some of my bad habits are still lingering. I'm very disappointed with myself in this matter because I've worked so hard. I've barely been to the gym but luckily I'm fluctuating between 2-3 lbs. I weight in at my Surgeon's office at 301. Still....I was disappointed with myself that I let myself get back above 300. Everyday it's a struggle and I'm positive it won't change even after the surgery.
I met with my surgeon this last Thursday April 12, 2012 and at first I was leaning towards the Lap band but because I also have PCOS he told me that honestly my best chance of losing weight and to control PCOS if not make it disappear completely was to get the Gastric Bypass. This scares me - it's so permanent...but it's surgery. I've never had surgery and I'm scared regardless. Needless to say after thinking it over I've realized it's the only thing that makes sense. I'm 31 years old...I want my life back! This body has been controlling me far to long.
I set up my psychologist appointment for the 26th and my GI scope May 2nd. I still need to set up a Ultrasound and Chest X-ray as well as blood work and physical from my doctor but once those are all completed...well it's time to submit paperwork to my insurance. "OMG". hahaha
I will also be starting a "Atkins" High protein low carb diet for the next 4 weeks starting Monday. I'm going to start Monday because I'm having a "Girls Night" tomorrow and I want one more night of bad choices before I step into my future.
Earlier I was reading about how hard it is for some people to give up certain things like eating their favorite junk food. I'm sure I'll have this issue as well but the reality is losing this weight will be the best thing that has ever happened to me. It's not me...this body is not me. It controls who I am, who i want to be and what i can be. I won't let it do that anymore.
Ok that's enough for now...hahahaa I'll blog next week and let you know how all my protein fun is going. hahaha
Adrianne
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WA
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33.0
BMI
Surgery
05/21/2012
Surgery Date
Apr 13, 2012
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