thursday update

May 14, 2009

hey ya'll

i know i havent postd in a while but there was my birthday, and mothers day, and working lke crazy and getting ready to move plus working out and yadda yadda im busy you get the point :) heheh

so i went to the doctor this past tuesday and ive lost 14% of my body weight so far. which to me doesnt seem like a big deal but the nurse practioner was orgasmic about it! to me i still have 152 pounds to go, so not a biggie.

the first 50 pounds gets me so mad, and i think ive said this before cause ive only gained it in the past year. i keep thinking what if that wasnt in my way? but whatever it was, and i just now am 2 pounds shy of being back under 300 and in the 2's and that makes me very happy.

i can feel my hip bones again, my face is slimming out, sex is fabulous again (i dont care if its tmi, but after gaining that 50 pounds my sex drive went from 110 to none and now its back to sizzzling!), what else? i have more energy, some of my shoes are big on me, lots more things i cant think of but id do this all over again if i had to!!

im on the fence about--protein shakes (i spoke to my nut and nurse about this on tuesday, i got some unjury samples which are so far so good, and bought some muscle milk lite mocha latte drinks , eh the after taste sucks and now i have a stomach ache blech) i get the point of them and all but ive tried so many and am still struggling. must keep on truckin with them.

im scared to even think about this next 100 pounds lost. i guess im sorta even in denial that it could even be possible. i CANNOT picture myself smaller. i keep saying 'oh ill believe that when it happens' sarcastically. i know the purpose of wls but at the same time, just cant imagine it. the last time i was 150 pounds, crap i was in middle school? ive never ever ever been that small in my adult life.

i keep on hearing emotional issues during wls is normal. hopefully i can find a therapist in ok.

have a great thursday everybody!

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