HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN

Jul 09, 2011

OMG GOD I AM LITERALLY GOING CRAZY MY SURGERY DATE WAS THE 27TH OF JUNE AND IM STILL NOT THERE YET.  OK HERE GOES NOTHING. I FINALLY GET TO THE HOSPITAL AT 6AM. AFTER THE NIGHT FROM HELL (YOU HAVE TO TAKE A MAXIMUM STRENGTH LAXITIVE THE NIGHT BEFORE SURGERY). SO I GET TO THE HOSPITAL THEY CHECK ME IN THEY GIVE ME A MILD SEDATIVE SO I CAN RELAX, THEY GIVE ME A BLOOD THINNER THAT HURT LIKE HELL, THEY ASK ME EVERY QUESTION KNOWN TO MAN ABOUT MY HEALTH AND THEN THEY TELL ME MY SURGERY IS NOT SCHEDULED TO HAPPEN UNTIL 1PM (WTF). I GUESS THEY FORGOT TO PUT THAT BS IN THE MEMO. BUT THANKS TO THE SEDATIVE AND THE FACT THAT I WAS UP ALL NIGHT RUNNING TO THE BATHROOM A NAP WAS DUE.
SO OK IM AWAKEN BY MY SURGEONS PARTNER TO TAKE ME IN THE BACK THE ACTUAL SURGERY WAITING ROOM. OK NOW FOR THE BIGGEST CROCK OF BULLSHIT I HAVE EVER EXPERIENCED AS AN ADULT!!!  MY SURGEON WALKS IN THE ROOM AND SAYS QUOTE" I HAVE DECIDED TO TAKE THE LAPBAND OF LAPROSCOPICLY, LET THE AREA HEAL AND THEN BRING YOU BACK IN 6-8WEEKS AND DUE THE BYPASS THEN"
WHATTTTTTTT THE FUCKKKKKKKKK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT IS WHAT EVERY PART OF MY BODY WANTED TO SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  BUT MY PARTNER JUST GRABED MY HAND AS THE TEARS STARTED ROLLING DOWN MY FACE AND TELLING ME THAT IT MUST BE GOD'S WILL TO WAIT AND EVERYTHING WOULD BE OK. I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO DISSAPPOINTED IN MY LIFE!! NOBODY HAS EVER DONE ANYTHING SO LOW DOWN TO ME IN ALL MY DAYS I FELT LIKE A BUG AND HE TOTALLY SQUASHED ME.
SO 20 MINUTES LATER IM LAYING ON THE SURGERY TABLE TEARS UNCONTROLABLY RUNNING DOWN MY FACE AND MY SURGEON SAYS I PROMISE IN SIX WEEKS YOU WONT EVEN REMEMBER THIS IT'S A SET BACK NOT A FAILURE AND THIS IS BETTER.
SO THAT IS MY STORY SO FAR AND I AM STILL FAT AS EVER PROBRABLY GAING AS I TYPE THIS BECAUSE IM SOOOOO DEPRESSED I'M EATING EVERYTHING IN SIGHT.  AND TO TOP IT ALL OFF MY PERIOD DROPS AND I BLEED LIKE A PIG BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN SHOT WITH A BLOOD THINNER FOR A SURGERY I NEVER HAD. NOBODY EVER SAID IT WAS GONNA BE EASY BUT GOD DARNIT NOBODY SAID IT WAS THIS HARD EITHER. 

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