2 days till surgery.... anxious... scared... nervous...

Jun 26, 2012

I am so ready for this entire process to be over with. It has been about 9 months of work leading up to this point. It has been so worth it but I am ready for this anxiety to be done. My daughter is scared that I am going to die and was crying and hugging me today. Surgery is only 2 days away so now my preparation is beginning.. Tonight I drink my milk of magnesia to clean out my tummy. Tomorrow I am on clear liquids all day and then nothing to eat or drink after midnight. I know that every surgeon is different and I feel blessed I was able to have my last few weeks of food funerals. I feel more ready now that I have eaten most of the things that I wanted to. I know that I will miss the food but like I have heard from a wise person before.. nothing tastes as good as being thin feels. My challenge now is to keep myself hydrated after surgery and to try and keep the variety there with my fluid intake as to not get bored.. I have the powerade zero which I now love.. the mixed berry is great and you get 32 oz for $1.. two bottles a day and I am good to go for the next 3 weeks.. ha ha.. I will need more variety but I'm just saying.. thats much cheaper than food.. 

Emotions have been crazy the last few weeks but feel like I am more emotionally centered again. I am starting to relax and finding peace in knowing I will be fine and in good hands. Its normal for all of the things that I have gone through in the last few weeks to happen and I just don't think I was ready for it but now that its over I know it really wasn't so bad and I only gained 2 pounds which I will probably lose in the next two days. I am happy with myself and the dedication I have put forth thus far.. but it doesn't stop here.. 

If you have questions about my journey thus far please feel free to shoot me an email. People on this site have helped me so much and I am ready to pay it forward. No question is a stupid question. I PROMISE. 

Amber  

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