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So yesterday was my first day to eat.  I was all excited. (Oh I forgot to tell you all that I went out and got these very pretty but small dinner plates.  I figure I am going to make eating a dinning experience).  So any who I set the table, get my glass of apple juice 2oz, and put my food on my plate. Scrambled eggs with a hint of cheese.  I sit down to eat and after two bits.....about 2 tablespoon fulls I am stuffed.  I mean stuffed like I just at thanks giving dinner and I need to unbutton my pants.  I was like damn Doc was not kidding.  So that was my meal .. small but good. Enough for me.

I have also resolved my struggle with my protein shakes.  I used to be a heavy coffee drinker.  A couple of months prior to starting my journey I cut back on coffee but I put the protein powder into my shake last Monday and could not even taste it so that is working for me.  Today I put my Greek yogurt in the blender with the protein added about 3 oz of  coffee frappe then added ice and had a protein coffee frappe.  Again...not the best but defiantly not as bad as drinking the protein by its self.

Going to do my 10 Min workout today & 1 Hour on the Treadmill

So I went to my Doc's office today.  Everything went well...I am down another 7lbs so that's a total of about 30 pounds.  Yeah me.... More importantly I am starting to feel like myself again.  Last week was hell.  I thought I was going to die.  I was so depressed however after chatting with a few friends I found that what I was experiencing was very normal.  So down about 30lbs.....I can kind of tell when I look in the mirror but no one is noticing yet which is fine with me.  I released to start eating food yeah....but guess what my doc said i can have 2 tbsp for a meal.  I was like what? He says yeah you wont be able to eat much more than that.  So tomorrow I start eating and increase my workouts.

Well I went to see my Doc. Everything checked out OK except my sugar level was really low (57).  Part of the problem is the shakes.  I am not liking them and since I am on a liquid diet still I'm not getting my nutrients.  He gave me some samples so we will see how it goes.  But the good new is that i lost 23lbs.

Today is a new day.  Im starting off fresh.  Gout my butt up out of bed and started getting my fluids in. I am also going to try to workout today. Im going to try to get on my treadmill for 30mins. I dont know how I will do but im going to try.

So I have been thinking about the things that I am looking forward to:

1. Not having to take meds for HBP or diabeties
2. Not having my thighs rub together.
3. Playing over the summer with my girls.
4. Going on a day trip and not getting tird from walking.
5. Buying cloths in a smaller size (of couse)
6. Work out for 1 hour a day.


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Worked out today for 1 hour on my treadmill ..... go me...   ............work that body.

Up until today I have been having good days today however was not a good day.  I woke up got my girls off to school then came home as I have been doing. I was feeling a little aches and pains and my shakes are really starting to gross me out. I got back in bed around 9 and stayed there until about 11:30 which means that I did not my sips of fluids in.  When I got up I just started crying for no apparent reason. I pulled myself together after about 10minutes then headed to the store. Mind you I have not gotten anything in so I start to feel very week. I run in and out of the store in less than 10 minutes, get back to my car and start to cry.....Again.   WTF is going on...im missing my energy.  I tell myself that I just had major surgery not even a week ago ......then I just sat there in the parking lot crying.

Once I got home I took some of my pain meds then started sipping.  About a hour later I felt better. Lesson learned feed your body. I have to say I am HATING this 2 week liquid only phase.
I WANT FOOD. ..... I WANT TO EAT SOMETHING.  But I wont I'm gonna follow my PCP's instructions  to the letter. Today was my bad day but I'm not gonna let it carry over  another day.

O.k. so it has been 5 days since my WLS.  Still on liquids and uuurrrgg it is getting boring. Cant wait to start eating.  I don't feel like I'm going to go crazy but it is hard being around people and not eating.

So what have I learned so far.
I am an emotional eating.  You see I have not been hungry.  No this is more of  visual thing.  I see potato chips and I just want them. That is my weakness. Excuse me for a minute..........Kettle Cooked Blue Cheese chips.....to die for.. o.k. I digressed.  I'm going to have to reprogram my brain to focus on activities without eating. I wanted to go to the movies today but I was thinking i cant eat popcorn.  What do you eat at the movies when your are not eating popcorn.

Oh yeah 247 today

I am home. All went well. As i said In stayed pretty busy Thursday trying to keep my mind occupied. I must have washed everything in the house. I even took the wallpaper down in my girls bathroom. Friday morning I got up early cleaned my girls bedrooms then my ride came. I was told to be at the hospital 9 am. So i was thinking I would have so time to just think. No they brought me right in. I changed my cloths they took my vitals,  Went to the holding room met the anesthesiologist and next think you know i was in recovery.  I'm not in to much pain just found it hard to sleep last night.

Finally the day has come.  I am going to start my new life. I have to admit i am a little nervous. I'm thinking what am I doing.  But I trust God and I trust my Doc. I have prepared and all that is left to do is do it. I will see you all on the losers bench

Feelings this morning. .... I pray all will be fine

Aggghhh cant believe that it is so close.  When I wake up in the morning it will be the start of my new life.

So I am home today doing my bowel prep bleck.  The stuff taste gross and boy when they said dont leave the house they mean dont leave the house.  I spent most of my day sleeping and watching TV and the rest of the day in the bathroom. Not really in the mood for bloggin. I am just ready to get this thing over with.