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Hey OH fam. I just had to share this.  Today I went in to one of my favorite stores to pick up a simple outfit for my daughters to wear today.  While I was looking for something for them I came across this sweater that looked like it could fit me.  So I threw it into my cart and proceeded to shop.  When I got home I decided to try it on and guess what it fit.....and guess what it was a size medium   and guess what it was on sale for $2.99.   I am just tripping.  I have never been the skinny girl in the group always the cute fat one.  One of my besties a (Skinny B....I say that with love) Would always show up in an outfit  that she paid $25.00 for.  And I am talking about the shoes, the bag, the dress and ascessories because she was always able to find things on the cheap  cheap.  Well guess what now I can.   I am so excited I could scream.  Ok actually I am screaming.  But anywho let me share some of this weeks Ah Ha Moments.

1. Got on the elevator with a girl that I work with.  Were not friends or anything but when we see each other we say hello.  Well on this particularly day she did not say anything.  Then she was like "is that you?  I didn't recognize you.  You look so different.  Did you loose weight.  I was like "Yeah I lost a few pounds"  She was like "A few"

2.  Put on one of my classic black skirts that I have owned for over 15 years this week and guess what It fit.  I have not warn it in over 13 years because I couldn't fit it.

3.  I bought this cute tan skirt last year.  It was a little tight but I have been know to buy things thinking "I will loose weight and fit it .  Well this week I wore it and it was a little big.

I am loving my RNY
 

A couple of years ago I worked in the city.  While there I met this women that would later become a good friend.  She was always introducing me to different foods.  One day she took me to this Thai restaurant and it has been on ever since.  In addition to the Thai food there was a bagel joint that I went to but not for bagels.  They sold the best Lake Champion Chocolate. MMMM talk about good dark chocolate with honey in the middle (Sorry OH fam I am digressing)  Though its been years since I worked in the city whenever I am in there I make sure to hit the Thai joint then get me some chocolate.  Well yesterday I had a meeting in the city and being the foodie you know the old me (Not the new and improved reconstructed me the old me) decided that I was going to hit up my favorite joints while in the city.  I got down there (sweating bullets) thinking..... what if they are no longer in business.  Needless to say I was so happy to find they were still in business.  I walked up and ordered my meal....Pad Thai noodles with Grilled Chicken.  O.k. so I know that I am supposed to be staying away from carbs but this Thai food restaurant is my all time fav.  Would you'll believe that I left the office early so that I could make it to the restaurant.  So there I am got my food in hand...... and I look across the street...and there it is bagel joint.  The next thing you know that little voice in my head was saying "GO GET THAT CHOCOLATE" and I proceeded to get it.  Only 3 pieces (Which I am not supposed to have) but I got it.  Guess what....the Thai food was not that great   .  Just was not what I remembered.  ...I ended up throwing it away and put the chocolate in the refrigerator after I took a small bite.  What was so amazing to me was how fast I resorted back to my old ways.  Even though I didn't end up eating the food I was open to it.  I mean if it had been as good as I remembered would I have thrown it away?  IDK. Even though I have no hunger pains I still want to eat.  So it's like my Doc changed the insides but not the mind. So I have got to work on making better food choices.

Current Weight: 219

Why is crossing ones legs such a big deal?  I have noticed that since I have lost a few pounds I have been crossing my legs often. I agree with one of my fellow OH Fam Members it is so sexy.  Prior to my WL I was not able to cross my legs.  Well Things are going well.  I finally found a few shakes that I like and a am getting in all of my protein in.  I gave up trying to eat breakfast and lunch and just try to have something for dinner.  I have been surfing the net for Protein high meal ideas.  I am also working out about 3 to 4 times per week. 

Current weight: 222

Well I went to see my WL Doc. today.  Finally got on the scale.  I was surprised to see that I had lost 7lbs because I did not think that I was loosing anything.  I was excited but he was not.  He jumped down my throat "What are you doing? what are you eating? Are you working out? I was like dam I was trying .....  well o.k. I will be honest.... up until about 2 weeks ago I was not getting in all of my protein but I have resolved to get in 100grams of protein if I don't do anything else in a day.  So I have to go back and see him in 3 weeks instead of 6 weeks.  The pressure is on once again.

Current weight: 225

Yesterday was my 1 month surgerversary.  I still cant believe that it has been a month already.  Over all I my doing very well.  I've got my energy back and have started working out consistently everyday for at least 30Min's.  I have received a few "Are you loosing weight " questions and I have even been able to fit into a jean skirt and dress that I had not wore in years.  But the weight loss is coming off very slow.  I know that I said that I was not going to get on the scale until I see my Doc which will be next week but guess what? My curiosity got the best of me and this morning when I got up I got on the scale.  I was happy at what it read but sad also.  I have lost another 6lbs (Happy  ) but I was also (Sad ) because I was hoping for more of a loss.  The sane  side of mw was  jumping for joy and doing the happy dance but the crazy side is a little down because I was hoping for more of a loss.  But why should I be sad I mean come on the scale said 229 lbs....I have not seen that number since since well I cant tell you the last time I have seen 229lbs.   O.k. so the weight is coming off a little slow....is this a race? Rejoice right? Nope not me Ive got to beat myself up first.   I think that what I have been doing is comparing my weight loss to other people who have lost much faster.  But I am not them and I know that weight loss has always been a struggle for me. I just have to work harder.  One thing that I know that I am not doing is getting in all of my water and protein.  So for the next 2 weeks I am going to aim for the following:

45 minutes aerobic activity 7x per week
2 bottles of water (40oz)
2 Protein shakes (100grams)
Take all of my vitamins

I'm so excited and I just cant hide it I'm about to ..... oh sorry OH Fam I am dancing  and singing  because I finally found a protein shake that I like.  It's Vanilla Whey and it takes like a Milkshake.  I am happy because I have been struggling with getting my protein shakes in. 

Still working at meeting my goals.  I have not got on the scale since my last entry and I have worked out both days.

I'm back.  I did 45 mins on my treadmill and I have consumed about 1/2 bottle of water already woo who.  During my workout I had time to think and I have decided to stop looking at the big picture.  I am going to settle for small accomplishments.  After all I did not gain this weight overnight.  So if I am able to drink 2 - 3 bottles of water, 70 oz of protein (2 packs of Proti-chicken soup 15grams and Isopure drink 40grams) and some tuna, cottage cheese or yogurt and work out daily for at least 45 minutes I will be happy.  I have to realize that this is going to be a way of life for me.  I guess I was really stressing about losing the weight fast but I have decided to sit back and enjoy the LONG ride.

Well I have 45mins of working out  for the day already clocked in and now it's time to get ready for work.  Oh by the way I put my scale under my bed.  I will not get on it again.  The next time I weigh myself it will be at my Doc's office.

TTYLB OH Fam.

O.k. y'all I am feeling really frustrated.  I hope that you all are not getting sick of me but I am trying to get this thing worked out so I can start loosing again so please be patient with me.  Since my last 2week check up I have not lost 1lbs.  I think that was 1/23/10.  I'm like WTF. Now y'all are fam so I told y'all I had a slip up last week with one of my alter egos but I have since put that chick on lock down.  I have taken every ones advice and I am working hard at getting my liquids in.  This week I choose to have either eggs 2oz (no sausage) or cottage cheese 1/4cup for breakfast. For lunch its been about 2oz of tuna  and for dinner a small piece of fish and cauliflower.  No more nibbling or taste testing while cooking dinner for my kids.  Cut out the apple juice not that I was drinking that much of it but maybe 6oz per day it seemed to be the only thing to quench my thrust.   I have been working hard at increasing my water and I am up to about 1 1/2 bottle and about 60 grams of protein.  I have worked out on my treadmill for an hour 3x's this week and nada.  That M F"n (sorry for my french) scale has not moved.  Now I said that I was going to stay off of that scale and only weigh myself 1x per week but dam it I walked by the thing and something said get on it.  Sure enough nothing.  Now I am pissed.  I am a slave to the scale and nothing makes me happier than to see it move.  I see my doc in about 3weeks and he wants me to be down 10lbs what if I'm not I don't want to seem like a failure.  Now don't get me wrong I have had some positive moments.  This was my first week back to work and everyday someone came up to me and said "Are you loosing weight you look good".  On Thursday I wore a skirt that I previously could not fit and I had  a lot of room in the waistline area.  I also took my girls shopping for a few things.  While they were looking for things they liked I came across a cute little outfit for me. I looked at it and it looked like it could fit so I decided to buy it without trying it on. Both the shirt and skirt were a large.  Later that evening I though let me see if this thing fits and sure enough when I put it on it got it fit..   O.k. o.k. I know all good things but I need that scale to MOVE.  Why is it not moving. AARRRGGG this is making me crazy I know that I am on my way to OCD land.  I read every ones blogs and they are like down 60lbs in 3months, down 40lbs  in like weeks, I'm like what is wrong with me.  O.k. fam I know that I am having a "Crazy Moment  Right Now"  I just need that dam scale to move.  

O.K. I am setting a goal. By March 1st I want to be 225.  To do that I must work out everyday for at least 1/2 of an hour.
Get in at least 2 bottles of water and at least 80grams of protein. I will not get on the scale until I see my Doc and as soon as I log off I am moving that dam scale.  

O.K. ranting session over.  Everyone be well and keep loosing

 It's 5:15 A.M. and I am going to get on my treadmill.

Hello everyone I want to introduce you to one of my alter egos.  Her name is Chewletta.  I call her Chewletta because if you let her she will chew everything in site.  I have been waiting for her to show her ugly face.  She was one of the voices that told me not to have the surgery.  I worked today and like the good girl I am I brought my own lunch 2 oz eggs & 2 oz Greek yogurt.  We had to go out in the field and while we were out he decided to get something to eat.  Now I'm just supposed to be ridding with).   We stop a this very nice Brazilian restaurant.  Before I could get into the place good and check things out Chewletta was at the register.  The restaurant is buffet style and there she is standing there at the register.  I just walked over and looked into her container (8 steamed shrimp, about a 2oz piece of chicken wrapped in bacon and about 1/3 cup of mixed veggies) Ok now granted her selection was not so bad but y'all know that I cannot eat all of that food.  This chick is just greedy.  And left to her own devices......she will be the end of me.  I did not come all of this way to let her ruin things for me.  However, she has always been the dominate force in our relationship.  My goal is to follow my docs instructions to the T.  I want to loose 100lbs to do that I think that I'm going to have to kill this chick.  

What happened to the food y'all may ask?  I ate it .....not all of it I took about 1 or 2 bites.  I stopped myself well before I got that full/sick feeling in my tummy but I cant do this impulse eating.  The rest of the food....was given to a co-worker.  I feel like WTF am I doing?  Am I a dam failure already?  I have to check myself on the small things because this is what got me in trouble in the first place.  So there I have confessed.  OH Fam please help me keep this chick under control. 

Ok so I forgot one of the most important things to report about my 2 week check up.  Doc said my blood pressure was good and that I can stop taking the meds.  Also my body fat ratio went from like 121 to like 111.  Uh huh you know that makes me happy because HBP, Diabetes and them (y'all know the other diseases that hang out with those two) I don't want to be friends with them no mo......