Athinnermom
The Last Supper
Nov 27, 2009
Spent time with the family of course that meant taking pictures.....OMG.....wait until I post the picture of myself. Good God....I had no idea I was that big. Needless to say that I pulled out my Opti Fast. Initially I was not going to start until December 1, 2009 but no....I need to start the transition to my new life. I mean I am having a hard time fitting into most of my cloths.
Addicted
Nov 22, 2009
Not that I'm not loving myself but I just feel like my weight is holding me back from being the best that I can be. I'm kind like....my friends want me to go out with them and party but I feel fat. I know that I'm cute and I get hit on all the time but i feel fat. Inside I feel my heart racing as the weeks pass. It's so near and yet so far....its the unknown. How will people respond to me I what will my family think. What will it be like to go shopping with my skinny girlfriends and actually buy something.
The Girl Is No Joke!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Nov 19, 2009
So I just got my tentative surgery date today. MMMhhhh oh yeah go me ... go me .... go me.... Initially I thought that i just had one round of consults with my doctors but I actually once all of the reports have been sent to my surgeon I have to see the nutritionist, the cardiologist, the psychiatrist and the surgeon again before surgery. Once I have gone through that then I will be ready to start my new life. I am getting more and more excited everyday. I still have not told my family. They are just to negative for me. They never support any of my endeavors despite the fact that I am successful with everything that I set out to accomplish. The problem is that they always seem to think that I am coming up with some wild idea just out of the blue. A little know fact about me....I don't run around and announce what I am going to do. I don't involve other people in my decision making process. I am pretty good at weighting the pro's and con's before making a decision. so when I start to talk about it they just think that its something that I just came up with... uh uh that's not how it works with me. And I am really not in the mood to hear "Why dint you just diet" ....... "Why don't you just exercise" ......"I just do blah....blah....blah". I don't want to hear it.
So my tentative surgery date is January 15 2010. I was in the mall today and i started looking at skinny clothes. I cant wait until I can fit into regular sizes again. I feel so fat and it is such a chore to get dressed in the morning. But I don't want to buy anymore fat clothes.
Appointments
Nov 17, 2009
Consults
Nov 16, 2009
Surgeon Consult
Pulmonary
Nov 14, 2009
Pulmonary
Nov 11, 2009
Where Is Onderland
Oct 26, 2009
Onederland is somewhere between 199lbs and 160lbs. To get there you have to take Leave Fatty Foods Lane. From there you take a right on Lay off the Sugar Road. Then take a left onto Put Down those Potato chips Road then bear right onto I Know You Are Not Going To Eat That Whole Pizza Square. Then another left onto Get You Ass Off The Couch Dr ive go down about 5 miles onto Exercise Exercise Exercise Circle. It is along journey. It takes drive, determination and perseverance to get there. There are alot of bumps in the road but if you are committed to being the best that you can be you will get there. Stay tuned weight loss losers I'm on my way to the gas station gotta fill up for the road ahead of me.
Cant Wait Until I Reach Onderlande
Oct 26, 2009
OMG I can not believe that I have not slept all night. I have been surfing this blog all damyum night. I am so excited for my new life. Just thinking that in 2010 when I make my weight loss new years resolution there is a possibility that I will reach it. As I look back of the last 10 - 15 years of my life I must say I have been so successful in every endeavor that I set for myself. Everything except my weight. My school aspirations, my career, my home, my children, my marriage. My Marriage. Well when it was good it was good I was sssoo happy . Then everything changed and when it was bad it was bad . But when I decided to walk away from that part of my life......when I finally said ENOUGH.....I did what I needed to do (I done dam near lost my mind. We argue and fight at 6 in the morning. I look in the mirror and I cant recognize myself. I been through so much drama I took all I can but you leave me no choice) to close that chapter of my life. When I finally woke up from what became a nightmare I told him it was time to signed them papers . This ..... my weight has been my biggest failure. I dont blame myself for my failed marriage because I was doing what I needed to do the X was the reason for our demize and though it ended I love the strong women that I became as a result of it. But my weight is the one area of my life that I have not been successful in. I mean I have dieted and lost only to gain it back so I don't view that as true success. I cant wait. I scheduled all of my appointments on 11/17/09. Talk about Gods grace. One of the physicians workers told me that it would be impossible to get all my appointments on the same day. I decided that rather than schedule them randomly and have to take several days off from work I would knock them all out in one day and save my time for when I am in recovery. Boy I cant wait to recover from this life long addiction. I have also decided to start taking Bioton. My hair is already thin so if I can thicken it up before the WLS if I do have any loss maybe it wont be as bad.