Bexster
Almost there!
Jul 23, 2008
Oh well, so now I'm set up to meet with these 2 people on the 4th of August. THEN I should be on my way to meeting with the surgeon and scheduleing my surgery as soon as September or October! IT seems like so far off, but when I think about it, the time's gonna fly. I mean, I can't believe it's already the end of July! Before I know it, I'm gonna be working my way through recovery and trying to keep what little food I can eat down. Oh the price we pay for beauty, self-assurance and self-confidence (not to mention a really sexy pair of jeans!) =)
Media bias
Jul 14, 2008
Honestly! The sad thing? I'm guilty of it myself. However, I always try my darndest not to judge people. I can sympathize with people b/c I'm so unhappy with myself, it's all I can do to get out of bed in the morning sometimes. I worry everyday that I won't find anyone to love me. That i'll end up alone and even more unhappy than i am now. The problem is, what do I do when I get the surgery and if I'm still alone? Granted, I'll be happier with me and that's what I think is mainly holding me back, but I'm still scared. I don't know..I guess I just get so frustrated at every little thing...it makes me sad b/c even some of my favorite bands put it in their songs. ::sigh:: i don't know. I guess the world is superficial and always will be.
Starts & Beginnings
Jul 04, 2008
To be honest, I'm scared. Not just of having the surgery, but of what will happen. Yes, I'm scared about all the potential complications, but I'm also scared of the reactions I'll get post-op. I want too feel better and look better, but I have a lot of heavy friends. I don't want to be shunned or looked at differently b/c I decided to go through with the surgery. Does anyone else feel this way? I just don't want to be a 30 y/o weighing 300+ pounds. I know I'm headed in that direction - towards morbid obesity and so many health problems. Thank God I'm quite healthy actually, but how long will that last while I'm heavy? I need this surgery - not just for my body image, but for my emotional and mental needs.