Tia T.
Head Swirling
Aug 05, 2012
Ever since the doctors visit I have not been able to sleep much or concentrate on anything, but weight loss. I remember little 8 year old me wishing to not be fat. That little 8 year old girl feels like this is my genie in a lamp that has come true. I have the opportunity to be less than fat. This Little voice is motivation in itself to be successful! When I have tryed to lose before, I was striving to lose enough to get out of the "so fat that I can't find clothes that fit right" range, but never a normal weight.That brings me to the BIG question at hand: what is my normal? While talking to Oakley, he asked me what my goal would be and I told him 145. He seemed to agree with that number pretty easily. It seems unreachable but I look at other profiles that end up around there from my starting range. So as my train of thought changes to the end goal, I am trying to decide what to do for my "before" pictures. I want them to really show where I start, so that as I am losing I can really see the changes. I think that I will do some in little exercise shorts and sports bra. I know that gasping came from your mouth because your thinking how embarrassing to show bare midriff as a "morbid", but I think it is important. Now, whether I get the nerves to post them anytime soon is a whole other fat-free-enchilada.
The other goal-oriented item that I can't stop thinking about is buying a "goal outfit". I started looking around in the JcPenny clearance (dresses for $10!) but I am unsure what size to buy. Do I go the easy way and buy a size 11. It's the only non-plus size I have worn since I graduated from girls clothes. It would seem that it's a good goal considering that I am starting at a size 24, but what if I am able to reach it before I am done? Should I aim for a size 9? But what happens if I never reach a size 9? This is the stuff that is all-consuming right now.
The last thing that keeps me from concentrating on the present is a Pinterest board that I was going to make. I decided to create a board of clothes that I would like to wear when I am out of the cursed-to-ugly-clothes plus sizes. But in trying to find clothes to pin, I discovered that I don't know how to shop as a skinny girl. I have no idea what I would like to wear if I was not concerned with if it comes in a size 24, or if it is to clingy around the waist. I know that it is any ones guess as to how my skin will be, so I am sure that there are still questions about where the clothes cling, but I couldn't even decide on a few things that did not resemble fat-girl clothes.
I hope that I can look back on this in a year and laugh about how I got all worked up over the little things.
Down another 2 pounds on my 6 month supervised diet.
