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“Stay committed to your decisions; but stay flexible in your approach.” ~Tony Robbins

Releasing Those Pesky, Negative "Truths"

Are you aware of the habitual thoughts that keep your excess pounds firmly rooted in reality? Most people are not aware of these thoughts, but discovering what they are can be incredibly helpful in transforming them for the better.

Resistant thoughts go something like this:

- I'm so sick of being tired.

- I'll never lose this weight.

- Why can't I be naturally thin?

- I'm cursed with a slow metabolism.

- No matter what I do, I can't lose weight.

- It's really hard for me to lose weight.

- I'm powerless to do anything about this.

- I'll never get back to my college weight.

As you can see, none of these thoughts are really horrible; they simply reflect a solid set of beliefs that keep reinforcing the reality of an overweight condition.

The problem is that these kinds of thoughts will keep running through your mind, over and over again, all day long. They are like a constant recording playing in your head, and as long as they are running the show, you will remain "stuck" in the reality of being overweight.

To discover your own dominant resistant thoughts, consider the kinds of things you say to yourself on a regular basis regarding your weight. "I'm getting old; exercise is too hard; food travels straight to my hips . . ." Make a list of the most common "negative" things you say and think about your body and your weight.

Then, create a few contradictory statements that you can recite throughout the day.

- I find it easy to achieve my ideal weight

- My metabolism is fast and efficient

- I love moving my body

Be sure to say the statements with a sense of excitement or other positive emotion. Saying them flatly without feeling won't change anything - speak them with conviction, as if they really are true.

Remember that at first, you will not believe your new statements - you will feel like you are lying as you speak them. But over time that disbelief will fade and you will start feeling better about it and eventually, come to believe it - which means your physical circumstances will shift to reflect your new belief! :-)





Today's affirmation:

Perception is EVERYTHING!

I never got into wonderland.  I never was the 170 that I was was hoping for when I first had my surgery.  But the weight came off and I was moving into the smaller lbs and I was happy.  I felt beautiful.  People saw me as beautiful and I stopped worrying about my weight and thought I didn't need to worry because the band was there to control me. But then I realize something If you don't keep focused old habits return. Inch by inch, pound by pound.  I stepped on the scale and I was back into the 240's. If I didn't do something the 250 260 270 and so on were just around the corner.  I knew I needed to stop myself before it got too far.  I up 29lbs from my lowest.  I came back to the boards.  I started to journal food and thoughts.  I made that dreaded doctors appointment.  I took out the pamphlets that I received when I started this journey.  Got back to basics. So what did I learn... I learned YOU CAN NEVER EXPECT THIS BAND TO DO ALL THE WORK.  You have to participate because who are were is who you will always be. You just pushed it into a smaller size and it is waiting for the moment when you take you eye off of the job to step up and cause trouble.  I am proud that I got back on track before I gain 50lbs 75lbs or even 100lbs.  Back on track and helping myself to a healthy me with my band. 

"What are you willing to do differently this year in order to have what you want next year?"

July 23, 2012

A note to myself…

 

I'm drowning in a sea of forgetfulness
The chains of yesterday surround me
I yearn to accomplish success
I don't want to end up where You found me 2009
I know I thought that I would never be here again. 
But today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from losing my way

I can't bear to be the woman that has been rising up in me again

Let me build on my successes and achieve the goals I feel slipping through my hands.

I start the day and the war begins, Time and time again

I try and fail.  Success is drowned out by the storm I'm in
Today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from losing my way
 
I know that it is in my actions that the truth is revealed

I can't live the way I have.

 

I need to focus to get me through 

 

I have to work to achieve my plan.
So now is the time to step up

Take the right steps and do what is needed to do.

Nobody said it's easy.
It's do or die, only the strong survive

 

SO TO FORGETFULNESS OF SUCESS
I’m getting ready to stand up and fight.

Hear me scream like I want it
Hear me yell like I mean it
If I’m going to go down I’m
going loud, going strong, going proud, going on, going hard.

THERE IS NO GOING HOME.

 

I'll pull and push myself right back into place
I'll take you down and wipe that smile right off your face
I'll watch you break, you're mine to take.
It's all or nothing, nowhere left to run

Time to turn the tide

There is nowhere left to hide.
I’m ready for the fight

 
I know it is hard, but what I need to do is….

    Get help because old habits have rising up in me again.

         Get focused and think of me first again.

       Stop sitting on my past achievement of success, by letting them wither and die.

        Feel the pain I felt about losing this life

       Be accountable

      Be committed

      Be honest

        Move more!!!

         Journal food and feeling

         Burdening my husband with the limited ability.

 

Life is too short to wake up with regrets.
Believe everything happens for a reason.
If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. 
If it changes your life, let it. 
If you get off track, be kind to yourself, but take the necessary steps to get right back on track.
Mistakes can be stepping-stones to getting it right.
Nobody said life would be easy.
They just promised it would be worth it.
You only get one ticket so enjoy the ride, always be accountable to yourself.

This is so inspirting.  I want to play it all day and dance aroud!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QGJuMBdaqIw

Firework lyrics
Songwriters: Dean, Esther; Eriksen, Mikkel; Hermansen, Tor Erik; Perry, Katy; Wilhelm, Sandy Julien;

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting through the wind, wanting to start again?
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards, one blow from caving in?

Do you ever feel already buried deep?
Six feet under screams but no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
'Cause there's a spark in you?

You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, oh
As you shoot across the sky

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go, oh
You're gonna leave 'em falling down

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, oh
As you shoot across the sky

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go, oh
You're gonna leave 'em falling down

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, oh
As you shoot across the sky

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go, oh
You're gonna leave 'em falling down

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

I went to a meeting the other day, and once again I walk away with an aha moment.  We were talking about emotional eating...What a surprise... and I brought up the fact what do you do with night time desires for the food.  I know I am not hungry so why am I wanting...and how do you deal with it...One of the members Tom(OH member) brought up a great point.  He asks himself 2 questions. 
1-Will eating this (insert desire) get me to goal?
  Sometimes that stops him in his tracks and other time he says..Who give a F#$K and eat it anyway..I agree with this becasue sometimes I don't care and eat it anyway but the second thing he said was the aha..
2-How often have I done this...Meaning how many time in this month week day have I wanted and given in... If the answer is too many times then STOP...I found this interesting because it kind of put you face to face with the reality of your "cheating" We can say what the F#$k  and eat it because we aren't thinking of the who picture or facing the fact that this in not the first time but when you ask your self this question it makes you face it.  I think that would kind of stop look and listen.  It will for me anyway.  I am not saying this will work all the time but it certainly give you food for thought.  ok if shouldn't be food for thought just thought....lol 
Enjoy the ride....because sometimes you win and sometime the bear wins.  I'm betting on me winning this round.

I have always felt this way but sometime I need to remind myself....... I am not equated to what I look like-how much I weight or what I have accomplished. It is rather to the core of who I am as a person. 

 

When someone asks me who are you?  I do not answer I am Gina.  I weight 200+lbs I wear a size 18 and I hate the way I look.  I think about who I am.  What I have to offer the world.  What I have to contribute and I answer the question with ..I am a kind person who cares about people who love me and I love.  I am very responsible and I have wisdom beyond my years.  I may even say I am cute and adorable with a dark sense of humor and people love being around me and why wouldn't they!

 

As a person who is medical described as mobility obese I need to remember I am "more" then what I weight and what I look like. 

 

I want to make a list of the things I like about myself.  That is not weight related and put it in my wallet.  This way when I am feeling bad about how I didn't make the right choices this day and may have fallen off the wagon, I will take this list, before I start beating myself up and read it. 

 

What is on my wallet list?

 

q       Be grateful for all the people you have in you life that love you are worry about you. 

 

q       Feel blessed that we have a roof over our heads.  

 

q       Feel blessed that we have money to  pay our bills and a brain in our heads to figure how to get a
                           job done. 

 

q      Feel blessed to live in a county that has the technology to help us achieve almost anything we could
                       conceive and the freedom to do what we conceived, so if we choose. 

 

I could be that perfect weight/size but that does not guarantee me happiness.  I need to remember to be happy with my selves now.  At this size/weight to even think that I will be happy when we get to that magical place. 

I just wanted to but this out there because I know that sometime I get caught up on the scale or weight victory as a sign of success.  I don't think I will be denied excess to heaven if I am over weight but I will be denied if I am not a person who contributes to this world.  At least I hope that is true.  lol. 

 

I am having success with my weight. I don't weight 300+lbs anymore!  Am I were I would like to be?  No but that is the point.  I think I always will want something even if I was at that magic size or weight.  I can't imagine anyone waking up one day and saying OK I have everything I need or want. I don't want anything else from my life.

I'm good, thanks… 

That is why I need that wallet list for those times , I compare my self to others who seem to be doing  better  at the game of life.

Let me hear you scream!

I'm black and blue, beat up but still I take the blows
'Cause all I need is blood and sweat and skin and bones
I'll take this rage, rattle your cage
Nobody said it's easy
It's do or die, only the strong survive
Get ready for the last stand
Get ready I´m your hangman

Let me hear you scream like you want it
Let me hear you yell like you mean it
If you're gonna go down
go loud ,go strong, go proud, go on, go hard or go home

Let me hear you (Let me hear you)
Let me hear you (Let me hear you)
Let me hear you scream

I'll pull you up and push you right back in your place
I'll take you down and wipe that smile right off your face
I'll watch you break, you're mine to take
Don't blink; you just might miss it
It's all or nothing, nowhere left to run
Are you ready for the last fight
Get ready with the war cry

Let me hear you scream like you want it
Let me hear you yell like you mean it
If you're gonna go down
go loud ,go strong, go proud, go on, go hard or go home

Let me hear you (Let me hear you)
Let me hear you (Let me hear you)
Let me hear you scream

[Guitar Solo]

Let me hear you scream like you want it
Let me hear you yell like you mean it
If you're gonna go down
go loud ,go strong, go proud, go on, go hard or go home

Let me hear you scream like you want it
Let me hear you yell like you mean it
If you're gonna go down
go loud ,go strong, go proud, go on, go hard or go home

Let me hear you (Let me hear you)
Let me hear you (Let me hear you)
Let me hear you scream

The butterfly is going to fly high!!!!!

To quate a friend.....
"Achievement for me would be to have a major shift in thinking.
I want to start believing that I can do this, that I can do anything.
I want to start believing that the voices in my head that constantly make me doubt myself are just voices, nothing more, and they can be ignored and ultimately silenced."
OH Friend-big_Ideas

Life is too short to wake up with regrets.
Believe everything happens for a reason.
If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. 
If it changes your life, let it. 
If you get of track, be kind to yourself.
Mistakes can be stepping stones to getting it right.
Nobody said life would be easy.
They just promised it would be worth it.
You only get one ticket so in joy the ride.