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February 7th, 2007...ON THE OTHER SIDE!

Well hello everyone, this will be short since I just got home. I'm doing really well. They took me off the morphine last evening which made all the difference. I was walking lots of laps today. Most of my pain right now is gas...it's soo great to fart, I never thought it would be soo wonderful. 
Anyhow, I'm blessed to have such a beautiful friend in robin, I can't tell you how amazing it's been to have an angel like her. The entire staff at Holy Cross was just wonderful. Don't care to go back anytime soon but they were soo great!

Keeping everything down and starting to pass some gas so things are looking up...keep me in your prayers,
until then...

February 5th 2007

Today is the day my life begins...healthy! Thank you all who have offered support and prayers, its making this day a lot more peaceful already.

I have surgery around 2p.m. but have to check in at 11:45 this morning. I stepped on the scales this morning and during the last two weeks I've lost 17lbs on the "Super Liquid and Bowel Flush" diet. Not my favorite way to lose weight but hey, I'm keeping everying victory I get my hands on!
Hopefully I'll be able to jot down a little note by Weds. night or Thursday but my beautiful friend and Angel robin will be able to offer an update.

Talk to you all on my warmed up seat on the loser's bench!

Until then...

February 1st 2007

Well folks today I started the first two medications pre-op. Well one is the soap stuff and the other is Nystatin. Yuk with a capital Y-U-K!! 

I'm thinking that getting through taking that junk four times a day should be a major achievement pre-op. 
Yesterday and today I felt like I had gone trick or treating at the pharmacy...man what  a bag of stuff I came out of there with. Makes me feel like dumping thinking of all the junk. 

I can't believe I'm only a few days out now. I'm getting scared and very nervous. I'm ready but yikes in preparing my daughter it's really been hitting me. It would be really nice to feel comforted by my husband right about now. He hasn't talked about how he's feeling about this whole thing so I really don't know what to think on where his head is. I just wish he would hold me and make me feel safe right now. Man I feel alone but I must press on, this is my life we are talking about and those who choose to participate are welcome to but I can no longer wait for those who aren't. I haven't told anyone in my family back home because they gossip and like to embellish stories or undermine and dramatize things so here I sit...very alone...well, I know God and my daughter are holding each hand but I really could use my husbands love right now.
Oh well, I guess all my questions will be answered through this process and I will be good either way.

Until then...
Love you all,
Darcy

January 29th, 2007

I can't believe I'm here. I'm halfway through my pre-op liquids, down 8.5lbs...yeah!! Next week at this time I will be on the loser's bench it's soo weird how fast this has gone. I feel like I don't have enough time to finish a lot of my projects before Monday. Oh well, while I'm healing up and losing weight I'll have time to work on them. 
I had my final pre-op with my PCP today and got final clearance for surgery. Everything looks great even my huge list of "before and after" meds I will be dealing with this week. I've been nervous and scared and I'm sure I will be more anxious as the week wears on as will my husband and two oldest daughters. (The youngest doesn't know, she's 8 and has a hard time keeping things to herself and I don't need her mom and jerk of a step-father to make any big deal)
I'm sure I will post again at least once before next Monday but for now I need to keep on with the house work and squaring things away. I've been teaching the older girls more about doing laundry; they have the rest down.

Until then...

January 24th 2007

Hello everyone, well here it is Wednesday, day three of liquids pre-op. I weighed in Sunday night at 280lbs and this morning I was at 273.6 so I'd say that's cool. 
Yesterday was all my pre-op testing and final appt. with Dr. Cantor before surgery. He's soo cool, I'll have to say thanks to my wonderful friend robin and all her words of support and encouragement I think this is going to be awesome. I'm glad I talked to her before making my final decision on a surgeon because I couldn't be happier with Dr. Cantor. 
I had the blood/pregnancy test, ekg, chest x-ray and then my appt. with Dr. Cantor where I received my giant list of pre-op meds and instructions...yikes! Oh well, it's soo worth it!
Everything looks great and the next time I see him I'll be moments from having my inerds exposed on the OR table. 

I'm ready...very nervous and starting to have "the" dreams.

Until then...
Darcy

January 18, 2007

Well my friends my date has been changed and I will be having surgery 2 weeks earlier than originally planned. My new date is Feb. 5th 2007.
TWO WEEKS....YIKES!!! I'm soo ready...soo nervous but here we go. I start clear liquids on Monday, have all my pre-op tests Tuesday, and have my final pre-op appt. with my PCP on Wednesday...now it's coming fast. I'm sure I won't feel that way while I'm on day 5 of sipping clear chicken broth! Anyhow, big deal and small consolation for my life finally getting started.

To my friend robin...I still need help with countdown and blingy blog stuff...

Love ya,
Until then...

...and there you have, the Facts of Life"
January 11, 2007

 That's how my week has been. Mostly devastating and sad but I at least got through my first "support" group meeting. (It was a waste of time though since it was more like an infommercial regarding nutritio) Seriously as long as I'm getting information I'm mostly OK with it but for my first EVER support group meeting I was very dissappointed.
Now for the part of my week that's been rotten. I spent several years being a Reserve Police Officer in my home town and I received a phone call Saturday night that my best friend and Field Training Officer had taken his own life. It's a long story and for sure my faith is guiding and comforting me but it's been a rough week. I've spent a lot of time on the phone with his family, his mom called me Sunday morning, and had a wonderful visit with the "famous" sister he always spoke of and admired. It's just very difficult because I can't get back there right now and it's heartbreaking. On the good side, yes I said good side within the confines of this tragic news, he was cremated and there won't be a service until later this spring and I hope it's around the time that I will be home. If not, I know I will be able to have a private service with just his family. 
I haven't been home because I didn't want to go home FAT, and because of my vanity, although I tried many times to reach him, I didn't get to say good-bye and all the other things I needed to say. 

My moral to this story for whomever reads this mess, DON'T WAIT! My heart hasn't changed just my shell and if people truly love you they won't care what you look like, just that you were there. 
So, I'm making peace and forging on because I need to for my family and most important myself so I can be there for my friends and family, healthy for a long time to come.

Please say a prayer for my friend Steve and his family.
God Bless,
Until then...

January 5th 2007

Hello everyone, isn't it a wonderful day?? I got THE call today and I will be having surgery on February 12th!!!
I can hardly believe it. At first it looked like there may be an opening on the 29th of this month (January), I was like "oh yes I can do that" then they called back and figured that it wasn't going to work so...
it will be a Happy Valentine's Day for me!

Until then...I'm too excited to write more I need to call a few people...

January 3rd 2007

Hello everyone and Happy New Year. I started out wonderful. Yesterday, January 2nd, I met my surgeon for my consult. I will have to say I really like him. Dr. Cantor is a very nice man and very thorough in explaining everything and  answering all my questions and my husbands.  The wonderful news is I've done everything I needed to and all I have to do now is go to 2 support group meetings, at least one at Holy Cross where I will have surgery. He said I was way ahead of the game with having all my medical stuff done and is putting in for a surgery date. January looks full but I will be having surgery sometime next month and should hear real soon what my date is. I can't even believe it. 
My daughter asked if I was nervous or scared. Yes and yes but soo ready. I'm not so much scared or very nervous yet but I know as I get closer to the day I will be. I'm just soo ready!
So...here we go...
Until then...

December 20th, 2006

Hello everyone,

I was just chewing a friend of mine out who had surgery last month and hand a check up yesterday and has yet to post, well I guess I better get busy and do something myself before the chewin' comes back.
The nurse at Dr. Cantor's office called on Monday and set my consult appointment for January 2nd and according to everything I've heard about this office, with any luck I will also get a surgery date that day and if not soon after. WOO HOO, talk about a wonderful way to start the New Year...guess the stars don't lie.

I hope everyone is having an amazing Holiday Season,
Merry Christmas and Happy Hanukkah everyone!
Until then...