cinaflower
55 pounds gone
Dec 27, 2011
I'm down 55 pounds, yay me!!!! I'm pretty flabby but I'm getting smaller so I have to accept whatever it looks like. I've been walking 3 miles with my friend when we can, but I had a horrid cold the last week and Christmas on top of that so we haven't gone in a week. I'm still losing depite it being Christmas time because I still can only eat what I can fit in this tiny stomach. I got a stomach virus for a couple of days and it was really horrible. It was unlike anything I'd experienced before when I had a "normal" stomach" the gas pressure in my stomach was unbearable- any time I ate anything- it was the worst pain I'd had, worse than post surgery pain. Crazy-I've lost a lot of hair. LOTS. Every time I touch my hair- to wash it or fix it- handfuls come out- it's scary and I can tell when I tough my hair it's thinner but thank the lord that I have thick hair- because I would have bald patches otherwise. It's annoying more than anything- finding my hair all over my sweaters and shoulders and floor and countertops. I'm probably going to have to cut it differently because I can't imagine how it'll look when the rest starts growing back- I just hope it doesn't come back gray!
I was expecting to be smaller by this time this year but I'm glad it's gone slower- I don't have enough clothes for one thing- I had some smaller sizes but things don't fit the same or they're out of season. I bought a pair of skinny jeans at old navy- 18s yay! Well, last week someone told me my jeans were too big and that I needed to wear more fitted clothes to show off my new size. I don't want clingy- I still have a back roll and a tummy roll- and if pants are too tight a muffin roll too- so I need to work on that part. I haven't done any strength training or yoga or weights in a while- I need to incorporate that into my routine and tone up some.
I'm amazed and so thankful for this, 55 pounds gone- I couldn't pick up that much if it was in a bag- how did I carry that on my body and function?
Now- I can bend over to tie shoes, or shave my legs without grunting. I can walk farther and faster. I don't get in my own way, I feel lighter and bouncier. I can get into some 16s. I can do things around the house for longer periods of time- more stamina- sex is better- I feel better about myself for sure- feel sexier and more confident. I have 63 pounds to go to goal. I can do that by the summer. Could I possibly wear a bikini? That would be insane! I want to wear cute little flowery sundresses and flip flops all summer. And I want to run- I want to be able to run a mile by the summer. I want to embrace the freedom that I'm being allowed to enjoy by having this opportunity to change my life.
