cinaflower
so slow, but 62 pounds gone!
Apr 04, 2012
My weight loss has been so slow the last three months. I know it's because I've just done whatever- not exercising regularly, not taking vitamins, not making sure I have extra protein-consistenly- I do all of it sometimes. Not doing what I'm supposed to do. I'm happy with what has happened so far, I really am. I can barely keep up with my clothes and size changes as it is. I just got all my old stuff out in 18s and I have so much! It's hard letting go of the bigger clothes but I have a friend who wants then who's going to try to lose weight, so at least I know where they're going. I think I may be a clothes hoarder! I cleared out almost an entire closet upstairs and have a full closet downstairs too AND plastic space bags and rubbermaid containers full of stuff! If I was going to be fat, I wanted to at least dress well- and wow- I don't need to shop anymore for myself until I'm in 14s!I have a a check-up today and I just feel disappointed that my weight loss at this point won't be more impressive. I keep wanting to cancel but I'm making myself go and face the music.
I had to have my gallbladder out on March 2nd. I didn't even know I was having gallbladder attacks- it just hurt! So, I had a few attacks and went to the emergency room one day and finally found out my gallbladder is kaput and I had gallstones and it was time to get it out. The surgery was a breeze. I wasn't ever in pain, my little incisions healed quickly and a week later I was as good as ever. I had my gastric sleeve doc do the surgery. He's cool and I knew he'd be the best surgeon for the job that I knew. I should've asked to see my gallbladder and stones- but I was so out of it after, I don't know that it would've mattered.
Now, I don't need anymore surgeries for a very very very long time. THAT'S ENOUGH!
About 5 years ago I started running, a hobby that ended when I moved houses and sprained ankles and had a hysterectomy, etc. etc. BUT I still get a subcription of Runner's World although I haven't renewed in years! But I get it, and every month I get inspired to want to do it again. I have to start again. I loved to run. I wasn't good, I was so slow, but I loved pushing myself farther, faster, longer- I loved the time alone and making my body do something that I never thought I could do. Now, I'm 216 and I think it's time to start back up. I need to kick the lethargy that overtakes me, the sitting and doing nothing. I need to be proactive and active, I have to pick up some new habits and change my life. This surgery has changed my life for the better, but it could work miracles if I let it. I need to stop getting into my own way and let the good happen.
