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So yesterday I weighed 238.5 all day!  Then today I hoped on the scale (without clothes) and I was 236.5!!  I weighed myself 5 times just to be sure that it wasn't wrong.  With my clothes I was 237!  I hope this sticks!!!

For the past 2 days I have weighed 239.5 but only with my pants off.  With my pants on I weigh 240.5 to 241.  So do I go by the weight with my pants on or off?  Anyway, today I weighed 238.5....we will see how long that last.....

I'm still hungry most of the time and I really miss chewing food!  I can't wait to get to eat real food again so I can CHEW!  I am so sick of soup, I have never been a soup person at all.  I have one more week of full liquids and then I am on to pureed mush for I think 2 weeks. 

On Weds. I have my first follow up appointment.  I'm looking forward to it to see for sure what type of band I have and to see when I should be able to get my first fill. 

Oh and I am nearly painless, I just have the occasional port pain when I lay on the left side or if someone bumps me.  Other than that I feel normal again!

That's all for now.

My attitude is much better today.  I am still around 242 and that's OK.  Any weight lost during this time is just a bonus anyway right?  I'm still hungry a lot but I think it is mostly head hunger.  I am not eating very much still but I am drinking TONS, I NEVER want to be dehydrated again, not hat SUCKS!  I am feel MUCH better physically aside from some occasional port discomfort and when I wake up I feel really tight in my chest like I'm full.  I think I read that that's normal?

OK that's it for now!

So I have been between 242 and 244 for the last 3 days and it SUCKS!!  WHY did I gain weight???  I am hungry all the time now too and eat what I'm suppose to.  I just don't get it.  I can't wait to get to that right fill, I just hope I do get there.  It just feels so far away.  *sigh*

Each day I just keep getting better and better!  I am still sore in my stomach but it gets better each day.  Today I was able to clean my house, go to the mall, go to the pumpkin farm, and hang out with friends!! 

Also I am down to 238.5 but I'm just going to wait and see if it just wasn't a weird day before I change my ticker....

I am feeling better and I am drinking, drinking, drink.  I did wake up with my stomach hurting SO bad though.  It was really tight feeling and just weird, so I took some pain medicine and it went away instantly and I felt better the rest of the day.  I'm not sure what that was all about?

I also go on the scale today and weight 239!!!!!  YEE HAW!!!  I keep feeling scared though that as soon as I start eating solids and real food again I will just gain it all back. 

It's so weird to me that I have researched and read about Lap Band for two years and now that I finally have it I feel like I don't know anything.  I guess I'm just so afraid of messing this up.  I don't know, it's like my mind is blank.  I have to keep re-reading all my papers I got from my NUT and the doctor just to make sure I'm doing every thing right.

OK, I just wanted to check in before bed.  Night! =)

I posted on the forum yesterday how I was feeling sooooo crappy since my surgery.  I found out I was dehydrated, I was fatigued, dizzy, nauseated, I couldn't stand long with out feeling like I would pass out.  So after my husband called the doctor I started focusing on drinking much more water and drinking hot tea to ease my stomach so I could get the water down.  I started to feel better for a while and even went for a walk with my husband (even though it was a short one because I got out of breath easily).

Before I go on I want to add that around 3 am that same morning I woke up with my leg tingling and it would go away.  So I got up and walked around a lot and it just didn't stop.  Later during the day it was still there and I kept worrying if maybe it was a blood clot.  I just waited it out because I was more focused on getting hydrated and I felt so crappy all day I just didn't really think to act on it yet.

So fast forward to 11:45 pm last night...

The tingling in my leg was still there so I looked in my Lovenox book of what the symptoms of a blood clot were.  And I had almost ALL of the symptoms for a blood clot in the lung.  So my husband took me to the ER and the second I said blood clot I got seen right away.  My heart beat was 133 (SUPER high), my blood pressure was 169/97 (I have always had really good blood pressure).  I told them my symptoms and they started doing the tests for blood clots right away because they agreed and said that I did in fact have many of the symptoms.

I was scared out of my mind and I started crying.  There was a WONDERFUL nurse there who helped me to be rational and was very kind to me.  I was still scared though and I thought I was going to die.

So after they tested me and 4 hours later I found out that I did NOT have a blood clot and I was "majorly dehydrated" (my nurses words).  They already had me on two IVs and while waiting for my test results I started to feel instantly better after my first bag like I never even had surgery!

Turns out that dehydration and blood clots have almost identical symptoms.  Oi vey!

Today I have been doing MUCH better and I just feel like the day you start to feel better after having a really bad flu.  You know like you're not sick anymore but your body is still recovering and tired. 

I'm so glad that we went to the ER to find out that I didn't have a clot (so I could stop worrying about it) and that I was able to get some fluids in me because now I just feel so much better.  It was a really good experience though because every one was so nice to me and even one of the nurses had Lap Band surgery!!  I was worried because I always read about people on here who go to the ER and no one working on them even have heard of the Lap Band.

Anyway, it's all over and I'm feeling better except I'm still a little nauseated and totally drained from the hard week.  I'm just going to focus on drinking more and feeling better.

So after a long hard week of feeling like crap and dealing with dehydration I was shocked to learn that I lost TEN pounds!  We didn't own a scale and tonight my husband just went out and bought me one so it's the first time I weighed myself since surgery!  I can't believe it!!  WOO HOO!!  OK, gotta go I'm still feeling nauseated, but I was so excited I just couldn't hide it!!

My stats...

261/251/241/160 (highest/surgery/current/goal)
BMI = 37.7

PS I was dehydrated but I am drinking more and feeling better except for the being sick to my stomach part. 

I feel nauseated and weak all the time.  Once in a while I will get a little energy boost for like 2 mins than I'm dizzy and sick again.  I can barely eat anything (I'm still in the liquid stage) without feeling full after like 2 sips.  Except for yesterday I was able to eat like 4oz at dinner and lunch.  Today just the thought of eating makes me sick BUT at the same time I miss food so much!!! 

Does this sick feeling ever go away?  Will I ever feel "normal" again?  I wasn't prepared for this I thought the recovery would be quick from what I read.  Since my surgery I have been bloated (that finally started to go down yesterday), I can't sit up by myself, I can only lay on my back and I'm dizzy and nauseated all the time.

And how do you eat when you feel so sick but you know you need to eat something?  I have no idea how anyone gets 60 grams of protein in during this stage, I think I would throw up if I did and I don't want to do that.

I don't mean to complain I just need some encouragement and to be told that it WILL get better and I WILL feel semi-normal again.  I will won't I?

Gosh I'm such a baby!  I'm really sorry, I just need some encouragement.

Oh and THANK YOU EVERYONE who replied to me when I came home from the hospital and for everyone who sent me messages and encouraging comments on my blog!!!  I have been trying to take care of me and haven't had much time to comment back to everyone.  I am so glad to have this forum!!!

I posted the other day when I got home and I got sooooo many responses and it felt great!  I had a ton of messages and surgery support comments too!  I haven't had time to go and comment back to everyone because I have been REALLY sore and bloated and it hurts to sit up at the computer too long.  I really do appreciate EVERY one's comments so much though.

I have to change my ticker because when I was weighed right before surgery I was 251!  YIKES!  I think, no I know it's because I was enjoying myself and eating all my favorite foods the weeks before surgery.  So I have to change it so I can keep track of my weight starting from my surgery date.

I'm still really uncomfortable and really hoping that this bloating thing goes away soon. I only get up to walk because I have to other than that I lay on the couch all day because I hurt so much. 

I have also been having serious head hunger!  I know it's head hunger because I feel full from the few ounces of liquids I get a day (other than water).  I know that the full feeling is there because I'm still swollen but it's weird to feel full and hungry at the same time.  Plus I feel full differently than before it's like I'm full up closer to my chest than my stomach.  I think that I read that's normal too.

Well I just wanted to check in so I can look back and remember all of this.

Oh I wanted to add that I have the BEST kids in the whole world!  They have been amazing with helping me and taking care of me while my husband has to work.  I have a almost 3 year old that is pretty physically demanding (taking her potty, going up and down the stairs to put her down for naps and bed, making her food and drinks....) and my two older kids (11 and 9) have been doing all of the hard work for me!  I am so blessed to have such caring and wonderful kids!  Yay me!