cutepuppy
I don't know why this is happening, but there's a reason...
Feb 19, 2010
There are no words to say how I feel at this moment. I've just returned from UCLA Medical Center where I met with a thoracic surgeon to discuss my esophogeal dismotility. The bottom line turns out to be that the surgical "cure" for this is not something that can be done as there is no fundus left to the stomach to wrap around the esophagus. She guaranteed me that it would not get better until I lose the weight. Mmmmm Seems like it was just about 1 year ago when I undertook this journey to lose the weight so that these issues would be only a memory. Here we are a year later and not where we anticipated being at all. She is recommending a revision to RNY. I had reasons for not wanting that particular surgery and still have huge reservations about it. I'm pretty bummed. I've tried to hang in throughout this extended time with the hope that someone would figure out a way to make the VSG work. I guess that's not going to happen. I thought at 2 months the surgery wasn't working, but no one wanted to talk about it. I had to wait a year while the insurance company issued this or that referral, then wait for appointments, then wait for tests, then wait for more referrals, more tests, and on and on. I feel I'm starting over, and I'm certainly not looking forward to another surgery, and that is conditional on it even being approved. Now the what if's....what if it doesn't work and I'm still sick. What if I'm as miserable for months and months as I've been with the VSG? What if my surgeon and I don't get along and here we go down a road to more surgery? What if I die? What if .... what if.....I know there's a reason for everything that happens, but I'm so perplexed as to what it might be. I'm so weary of all of it. Days marked by illness and I just don't see the light yet.
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About Me
Manhattan Beach, CA
Location
41.8
BMI
Surgery
07/02/2009
Surgery Date
Feb 23, 2009
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