CynthiaLouisaJane
Alli...friend or foe?
Jun 20, 2007
I am very happy with it so far. Believe me, if I wasn't I would be the first one to rant and rave over my "clear the halls, mama gots to go potty" experience. Or the pull over on the side of I-12 or whatever tragedy had befallen my favorite white crop pants.
But none of that has transpired.
The reason I am even taking it is because I am lo-carbing it and sometimes I have trouble with my fat grams at night. So, I pop one of those babies and lose them in the morning. It has helped with the weight loss, so I will leave it at that.
Now, when I do have my "oh, crap" moment, I will post about that as well, in all it's glory.
6 Month Anniversary (no cake, no candles)
Jun 13, 2007
I have lost 54 lbs.
I have lost 28.5 inches.
My BMI is down to 40.2.
In 8 more lbs I will no longer be morbidly obese, I will move into the severely obese category.
These are ALL REASONS TO CELEBRATE! And I am learning to celebrate without food (although I did buy a big screen TV yesterday.) Seriously, it was a Father's Day present for my DH. Seriously!
;-}~~~
Yay, me, Yay BAND!
xoxoxo
Not to Fill....
Jun 12, 2007
Turns out I did not have to make the decision after all. Chris the Fabulous says I lost 10.5 lbs last month, asked me a zillion questions and says NO FILL! Too bad because my girls had gone with me to see the poke and prod process in action.
I feel good about it and pretty excited. I have lost 53 lbs, my six month anniversary is in two days. I am trying to grind out two more lbs by Thursday, YES, it is possible!
XOXOXOXOXO
I am in band heaven today. I am actually starting to believe that this whole process is going to work. Yes, I have issues.
To Fill or Not to Fill...?
Jun 11, 2007
I dont know what it is such a big decision. I just needed to write it down so I can come back tomorrow and look at it and realize that I was stressing out over nothing.
It is only 60 something days til LSU football and I have a jersey my dad gave me SEVEN years ago and it has never fit. I am wearing it this year, it almost fits and it is SO COOOOL!
So, that is why my post today is in Purple and gold!
WHOOOTY WHOOT WHOOT
Jun 07, 2007
I get a fill next week, but not sure if I want it. I have had really good restriction, and I have lost ten lbs. since last appt. six weeks ago. I had an episode a couple of weeks ago where some burger got stuck and it took an hour to huck it out. It was miserable and my port site must have gotten inflamed from that fine ordeal because I could not eat for about three days and major heartburn. Better now, but still paranoid that I have had slippage. See what the doc says.
Yippee kiyokiyaaaaaa!
CJ
Two posts in one day????
May 30, 2007
XOXOXO
Me
Divesting myself of...
May 29, 2007
Clothes. Bad habits. Poor choices. Stinkin' thinkin!
Tall orders for me. I have such a tendency to hold on to bad habits. I do not consider myself to be a pack rat. In the last 7 years, for some reason I have kept clothes, kids clothes, toys, stuff, junk and other crap. I am having a huge yard sale on Saturday. I went through my mini-storage and getting rid of almost everything in there. Now, granted, a good portion of it is stuff DH brought on the scene in 2003 when we got hitched. But still....what is that all about.
So, yesterday I tried on a ton of clothes that were jammed in the closet. The big stuff doesnt anywhere near fit. And the sad thing is that when it did fit, I did not wear it. I found 4 pairs of pants I did not even know existed, two have tags. Pathetic.
On the upswing, I have an interview of sorts today to do some consulting for another real estate company. But I am still committed to Moon River Properties and all that is involved with that!
t-minus 50 lbs and counting. I am stuck at 50. Now wearing a size 22, down from a very tight 26-28.
How do I look?
May 26, 2007
When I look in the mirror, I am starting to see less of me. Not like I am not still fat, but just less. I am getting rid of all my clothes that dont fit instead of hoarding them back for when I regain the weight. The good thing is that I hoarded back all of my clothes from the last time I lost weight 5 years ago and VOILA, straight leg jeans are back in. Lucky me.
Holidays are still a challenge for me--we always have people over and I am always the one cooking. Tonite I made banana pudding for tomorrow and had to taste test the condensed milk. I think I could have slurped up the whole can, but settle for one glob on my finger. Tomorrow is "Pirates of the Carribean" after church. No popcorn and no soda. Carbonation is kicking my ass. I posted some pics, but have not done an "at the moment" shot, maybe tomorrow. My butt is getting flatter. My face looks like it is melting. Bring on the PS.
XOXOXO Good nite. PS: I am EVER critical of myself.
Faster than a Herd of Turtles
May 21, 2007
Sometimes this whole process seems like it is slower than molasses. From researching it for years, to actually going for a consult, to having the pre-op approvals, waiting with baited breath to make sure I would have the funds, then finally, the surgery and SHAZAM--wait, I mean, I AM STILL STUCK AT____(insert weight here)__. I am irritated because one of my friends who had GB told me she had lost 50 lbs the first two months. Ok, thank you for that tidbit of information. I just want to be thin. That is all. Is that so much to ask? I WANT IT ALL-I WANT IT NOW>
Guess that's what got me here in the first place.
Ok, on another note, my business is taking off like a rocket and I do not have time to eat. Ok, that's a lie, I ate cake and ice cream yesterday. Somehow I managed the time to shovel that plus real food into my mouth.
I have become addicted to tomatoes and cottage cheese. I am telling you, I eat it three times a day. Which means I ate 4 meals yesterday, including the cake and ice cream.
What a food junkie.
I found 4 pairs of pants that I wore for two weeks when I lost some weight about five years ago. ONE OF THEM IS ALMOST TOOOO BIG. I guess something is happening. Here is the problem. I am losing weight so slowly, I can't even see it. I look in the mirror and it is not apparent to me. I guess I will always be a fat chick in my mind. I am torn between losing that person and finding a new me. Maybe a little of both.
My BMI is now 41.
My next goal, which is to be severely obese, (I find that freaking hilarious) us 272 lbs. I am only 14 lbs away from being removed from the MORBIDLY OBESE FILES.
And next time we'll talk about addiction transference, and exercise. I am becoming obssessed with exercise.
DOIN' A Happy DANCE!
May 13, 2007
I am so freaked out, I had a fill last Tuesday and it has made such a difference. I felt like I pigged out on Saturday, then when I got on the scales yesterday, I had dropped a couple of lbs. I went back and evaluated what I actually ate, and I hardly ate anything. I just felt full from what I ate. I am feeling pretty good about it.
My first goal is 50 lbs and my reward is another tattoo on my foot. In the interim, my tattoo guy, Buddha, died unexpectedly. So I will probably put that off for a little while.
It has taken almost exactly 5 months to get here. I guess an average of 10 lbs a month is pretty good. I did not realize that until today.
The band is working even when I dont always realize it.
