CynthiaLouisaJane
Alive and Well, maybe a little TOO well....
Jan 01, 2007
Well, I haven't posted because the holidays hit and lo and behold, time was not my friend. I went for my first follow-up and I had lost 20 lbs. SHOCKER! However, I was scolded for being dehydrated and told to eat a little more. Seriously, I was so weak, I could not even drive. Things really turned around the next day. I ate and drank more, went to the office for a coupla hours, went to see my parents and came home wiped out. Over the holidays I pretty much followed my food plan, and I am holding steady on the weight. I get my first fill on the 23rd and start working out TOMORROW! I am pretty excited. I am feeling really great now, and very little soreness at the port site. The only real problem I am having is drinking enough. I will be so glad to be back at work and away from home where all the food is. I keep thinking about food and I am not hungry for the most part, but there is TONS of bad food left from the holidays. So, I am throwing stuff out tomorrow and it will not be calling my name from just down the hall.
Most of the gas is GONE. We went on a short trip with the kids over the holidays and finding food that I could eat was not too bad. Constipation is another small problem, but working that one out.
It is so weird to get a saucer full of food and not be able to eat it all. Everyone is watching what I eat. How much, how does it feel, are you full?????
I am feeling feisty!
CJ
Most of the gas is GONE. We went on a short trip with the kids over the holidays and finding food that I could eat was not too bad. Constipation is another small problem, but working that one out.
It is so weird to get a saucer full of food and not be able to eat it all. Everyone is watching what I eat. How much, how does it feel, are you full?????
I am feeling feisty!
CJ
Day 4
Dec 18, 2006
I woke up today feelng kind of depressed because I had hoped to go to work today. There is NO WAY I can drive 20 miles. Even if I just go and turn around, I can't do it. DH took kids to school, etc. Fortunately, I can work from home and that worked out well. It was good to be back in the action a little bit. I evaluated why I feel so tired and part of it is because I havent eaten ANYTHING for a week. Foodwise anyway. So, TADAH! Tonight I ate cottage cheese. It was like a tablespoon, absolutely delish. Everything liquid I have had so far has given me incredible gas. Not the gast they pump your tummy with for surgery, new, improved, self-generated gas. I could heat a gymnasium if I could get it out. I cant wait til Wednesday, first follow-up and dietician appt. I am feeling more like myself tonite! Yippee!!
I'm BAAACK!
Dec 16, 2006
Well, here I sit banded and all that. It feels great. I dont really remember that much about surgery day. I was really sore that night, barely slept so I tried to stay up all day yesterday and my strategy worked great, I slept like a train except three potty stops. I walked a lot yesterday. The belly is pretty swollen, the incisions are so attractive! But I am amazed that I feel pretty good. I feel great when standing, pretty good laying down and crappy when I am sitting. The gas is still rolling around in there and when I sit down it goes strange places and feels pretty uncomfy. It feels worse than my gall bladder surgery, but still very bearable. I have been trying to keep up with my liquids, but get full really fast. I guess thats the point!
Tomorrah!
Dec 13, 2006
I cant believe its finally here. It really seems like it has been MONTHS I have been waiting for this day. I am not nervous ( I dont think) but I have been cleaning house like a crazy person, so maybe I am. I have also been S******G like a mule, so I can tell the IBS has kicked in major league. Ok, I must be nervous. I am so worried that I am going to go through all this and not lose weight. I am going to be so frustrated. I have all the intentions of being the Lapband poster child for good behavior but since I have been a weight loss failure for sooooooooo long, it is hard to think positively.
I have had two lap surgeries before and they went like gangbustas, no problems or side effects. I like Dr. Thomas and he seems like the guy for the job. The rest is up to me. What an idiot to schedule surgery right before Christmas. Maybe for Christmas dinner I can have an eggnog shake. SEE!!!??? I am already obsessing over food. My kitchen counter looks like a GNC display. Vitamins, supplements, protein drinks, etc. etc. Goodbye food, you were such a good friend, and now I am kicking you to the curb. Its time for me to come out swinging and be a champ! I think I can, I think I can.....next time I post here, I will be friends with the BAND! WHOOOO HOOOO! YAY ME!
I have had two lap surgeries before and they went like gangbustas, no problems or side effects. I like Dr. Thomas and he seems like the guy for the job. The rest is up to me. What an idiot to schedule surgery right before Christmas. Maybe for Christmas dinner I can have an eggnog shake. SEE!!!??? I am already obsessing over food. My kitchen counter looks like a GNC display. Vitamins, supplements, protein drinks, etc. etc. Goodbye food, you were such a good friend, and now I am kicking you to the curb. Its time for me to come out swinging and be a champ! I think I can, I think I can.....next time I post here, I will be friends with the BAND! WHOOOO HOOOO! YAY ME!
Day after tomorrow...
Dec 12, 2006
Ok, two days to go. I have a cold, which SUCKS...Dr. Thomas says we will have to see where I am on Thursday with the anesthesiologist before we know if it is a go or not. OY VEY!
But I am ready and I am not scared of the surgery, just worried that I am not going to be able to make the band work for me. I have my diet all planned out and I am psyched to make it work, just really worried that the food devil will rear his ugly head and make me do bad things.
I met Dr. Thomas at long last and I like him. He is pretty straight forward, which I like, spend some time answering questions, etc. Only two days until he lays his sterile, gloved hands on me and makes me a new woman. Bring it on!
But I am ready and I am not scared of the surgery, just worried that I am not going to be able to make the band work for me. I have my diet all planned out and I am psyched to make it work, just really worried that the food devil will rear his ugly head and make me do bad things.
I met Dr. Thomas at long last and I like him. He is pretty straight forward, which I like, spend some time answering questions, etc. Only two days until he lays his sterile, gloved hands on me and makes me a new woman. Bring it on!
Liquid Diet Part II
Dec 05, 2006
Ok, I'm doin it. Friday was ok, Saturday SUCKED, I felt like crap all day, terrible headache and could not get warm. My metabolism is so whacked out from the years of mega-yo-yo dieting. I go for my LAP seminar and hospital orientation Friday. Then I have my big annual Christmas party Friday night, where I will be eating cream of something bisque and Saturday our big celebration with DH's family. I will probably just suck on the ham bone. So far I have been ok. The only faux pas was last night, DH made pasta and I grabbed a sauce covered rotini and popped it in my mouth. As soon as I started to chew I realized it was FOOD and I sucked the sauce off and spit it out. DUH. That has really been the only issue, walking past food without mindlessly shoveling something in. I even went to BK and got a diet Coke and was ok.
Everyone keeps adking me if I am nervous and I have not even had time to think about it. When I had my gall bladder out, I was so thrilled to be getting rid of the pain, I don't think I was nervous at all. Nor when I had my tubes tied. I am still debating whether the slight possibility of death is worth the risk of extending my life for many years and so far the answer is YES!
Everyone keeps adking me if I am nervous and I have not even had time to think about it. When I had my gall bladder out, I was so thrilled to be getting rid of the pain, I don't think I was nervous at all. Nor when I had my tubes tied. I am still debating whether the slight possibility of death is worth the risk of extending my life for many years and so far the answer is YES!
Liquid Diet!!!!!!
Nov 28, 2006
It is right around the corner. The liquid diet. I cant wait! (Me being facetious.) I havent posted because I havent had anything to say. People keep asking me if I am excited, and I am! I am just too busy to really think about what is going on.
I got excited today after I went to see my PCP for my surgical clearance. He was so excited and happy that I was getting banded. He told me that he would have recommended the band for me for several reasons. He also said he knew I had to be self pay because he hasnt had a Blue Cross bariatric approval in two years. That sucks. But other than that, it went great, I am truly starting to get a little excited and maybe nervous that I will be one of those people who cant lose any weight with the band. Lots of thoughts running around my head. How much will I weigh next year at this time? Today I weighted 333 and I am 5'9 1/2 inches tall. What a freaking tank.
Embarrassing thing: Doc checks my ankles for swelling and I havent shaved my legs in 5 days. He laughs at me and then the EKG tech comes in and she laughs and says she has me beat she hasnt shaved since her sisters wedding on November 4. HA
It was a pretty good day!
I got excited today after I went to see my PCP for my surgical clearance. He was so excited and happy that I was getting banded. He told me that he would have recommended the band for me for several reasons. He also said he knew I had to be self pay because he hasnt had a Blue Cross bariatric approval in two years. That sucks. But other than that, it went great, I am truly starting to get a little excited and maybe nervous that I will be one of those people who cant lose any weight with the band. Lots of thoughts running around my head. How much will I weigh next year at this time? Today I weighted 333 and I am 5'9 1/2 inches tall. What a freaking tank.
Embarrassing thing: Doc checks my ankles for swelling and I havent shaved my legs in 5 days. He laughs at me and then the EKG tech comes in and she laughs and says she has me beat she hasnt shaved since her sisters wedding on November 4. HA
It was a pretty good day!
Thursday
Nov 09, 2006
I had lost some weight until this week, which is my birthday. I have been eating my a** off. Cake, birthday dinner, birthday lunch, etc. I am the master of playing food games...skip a meal, eat twice as much later, justify eating mo' food, crash dieting before a weigh-in. Oy, vey. Well, this year I did something totally out of character, which is I did not set weight loss goals for November. Usually, I set a goal around July, then August, then September, then October to lose "X" lbs by November 7. And I always fail MISERABLY. Knowing that WLS is coming up, I did not do that, and I didn't feel crappy about not meeting the unrealistic goals I set.
HOWEVER, in blowing out the candles (twice) I did wish for many more birthdays with many less pounds. I wished that next year I will weigh 80 lbs. less.
I am overwhelmed by the fact that it could be possible!
Countdown!
Nov 06, 2006
Countdown until December 14!
Today my DH actually told his best friend that I am getting banded, which is major for him. He doesnt tell anybody anything. He said he told him he is concerned about me having surgery and going under anesthesia. He also told him that it doesnt matter to him if I am big (he is a fat chick lover) or small, just as long as my personality doesnt change. So, of course, his wise BF told him that he knows a chick who had WLS and lost 150 lbs and went crack-ho wild drinking, partying, tearing up peoples lawns, just like the on Oprah's show. Well, great. I did tell DH that I have not always been fat, in my 20's I was a pretty hot mama and attracted a lot of attention. This was when my boobs did not stare at the ground and when I danced my butt did not keep time to the music in a different time than my feet. I also sowed enough wild oats for me and half the free world. So, I am thinking I have all that out of my system. This silly little man does not realize it took me 39 years to find him and have a great relationship. So, I am going to lose weight and leave his a**? NO!
I am not so stupid as to think that losing weight is not going to change a lot of things about my life. I can do my landscaping that I love to do, I can get on my knees in my closet and pick through my shoes, I can chase my kids and bend over for more than 15 seconds. I can't wait for all these things! I've already been through the "find myself" phase, and HERE I AM! I need to lose weight so I can be healthy enough to be here for my kids until they can take care of themselves. Will I look better? I hope so. Will I feel better? I know I will! Will I have any more time as a smaller person to go track down a new man and some wild party friends? Will I want to?
The answer to this is "I love the man I have now, and I have plenty of friends." WLS is a great decision for me to make the life I have now better. If I was looking for a new life, I would take my car, my money, my kids, my furniture, my clothes and find a new life and THEN have WLS. Silly boy! But if thinking I might find me a new fella will keep him in line and make him do more laundry, let his imagination run wild!
Today my DH actually told his best friend that I am getting banded, which is major for him. He doesnt tell anybody anything. He said he told him he is concerned about me having surgery and going under anesthesia. He also told him that it doesnt matter to him if I am big (he is a fat chick lover) or small, just as long as my personality doesnt change. So, of course, his wise BF told him that he knows a chick who had WLS and lost 150 lbs and went crack-ho wild drinking, partying, tearing up peoples lawns, just like the on Oprah's show. Well, great. I did tell DH that I have not always been fat, in my 20's I was a pretty hot mama and attracted a lot of attention. This was when my boobs did not stare at the ground and when I danced my butt did not keep time to the music in a different time than my feet. I also sowed enough wild oats for me and half the free world. So, I am thinking I have all that out of my system. This silly little man does not realize it took me 39 years to find him and have a great relationship. So, I am going to lose weight and leave his a**? NO!
I am not so stupid as to think that losing weight is not going to change a lot of things about my life. I can do my landscaping that I love to do, I can get on my knees in my closet and pick through my shoes, I can chase my kids and bend over for more than 15 seconds. I can't wait for all these things! I've already been through the "find myself" phase, and HERE I AM! I need to lose weight so I can be healthy enough to be here for my kids until they can take care of themselves. Will I look better? I hope so. Will I feel better? I know I will! Will I have any more time as a smaller person to go track down a new man and some wild party friends? Will I want to?
The answer to this is "I love the man I have now, and I have plenty of friends." WLS is a great decision for me to make the life I have now better. If I was looking for a new life, I would take my car, my money, my kids, my furniture, my clothes and find a new life and THEN have WLS. Silly boy! But if thinking I might find me a new fella will keep him in line and make him do more laundry, let his imagination run wild!
Anxiety
Nov 03, 2006
It seems that the results of my psych exam indicate that I would be well suited for an anti-anxiety med such as Paxil/ REALLY????
I cant imagine why or how I am so anxious. I get up at 5:30 am almost every day and get up get the kids ready, pets fed, myself ready, do a little work, take the kids to school, go meet a client, stop at the surveyors office, then to the office, and by then have talked to at least 5 more clients. This is by 10 am. I am extremely stressed out and thinking about having to lose weight in the normal fashion has to be the A#1 thing in my world for me to be able to do it.
AHHHH. Paxil. or some equivalent. Can't wait! I previously was prescribed anti-depressants when I was getting divorced. At that time I worked and was a part-time student, full-time mom on a very strict budget. I think I knew I needed Paxil when I keyed a brand new mini-van that slammed its door into my car in the parking lot. The owner walked away without even acknowledging that he dinged my car, so in my pre-Paxil anxiety I jumped out and scraped my keys eloquently down the side of his car. When I got back in my car I noticed that he had a temp tag in the back window, geez, it was brand new... I drove away praying that the police were not following me.
NOW-what does all this have to do with weight loss and lapband, et al? Once I started taking Paxil, I lost 30 lbs. very easily. Maybe that's it. But it's my blog and isn't this better than some crazy story about me eating a whole barrel of KFC extra crispy and regretting it for two weeks?
I cant imagine why or how I am so anxious. I get up at 5:30 am almost every day and get up get the kids ready, pets fed, myself ready, do a little work, take the kids to school, go meet a client, stop at the surveyors office, then to the office, and by then have talked to at least 5 more clients. This is by 10 am. I am extremely stressed out and thinking about having to lose weight in the normal fashion has to be the A#1 thing in my world for me to be able to do it.
AHHHH. Paxil. or some equivalent. Can't wait! I previously was prescribed anti-depressants when I was getting divorced. At that time I worked and was a part-time student, full-time mom on a very strict budget. I think I knew I needed Paxil when I keyed a brand new mini-van that slammed its door into my car in the parking lot. The owner walked away without even acknowledging that he dinged my car, so in my pre-Paxil anxiety I jumped out and scraped my keys eloquently down the side of his car. When I got back in my car I noticed that he had a temp tag in the back window, geez, it was brand new... I drove away praying that the police were not following me.
NOW-what does all this have to do with weight loss and lapband, et al? Once I started taking Paxil, I lost 30 lbs. very easily. Maybe that's it. But it's my blog and isn't this better than some crazy story about me eating a whole barrel of KFC extra crispy and regretting it for two weeks?
About Me
Ponchatoula, LA
Location
47.4
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Surgery
12/14/2006
Surgery Date
Sep 20, 2006
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