DeannaL
2007
Sep 22, 2009
July 2007Life has a way of taking over, and not leaving room to breath. That is how I feel lately. I have been completely inactive on the boards, and just feeling pressure in all directions. We are financially bankrupt, and are dealing with the creditors and all the hassles that go along with it. I feel depressed all the time, and like there is no hope, no point. I am trying every day not to cry in front of my children, I need to be strong for them. My body does not handle stress well and I am terrified of my ulcers rupturing again. I just don't know how we got into such a sitiuation, I know that sounds silly and naive, but it is the truth. I guess I kept thinking that there would be a way out, and if we just kept on going, it would work out. Well the bottom has fallen out, I can't even afford groceries, and I feel like a failure. I can pay the rent, and the utilities, and that is about all. The cars have to go, every thing has to go. I don't really mind losing the material things, I just want peace and freedom from the bill collectors. I know there has to be a way out, and hopefully I'll find it. I am going to try and find a second job, so that will help, maybe. But if my husband has to go out of town, on his job, then I can't work a second job.
This royally sucks.
AUGUST 2007
Things are better for now. Life sure has it's ups and downs. Thank goodness for the power of family and standing together. I know so many couples destroyed by financial problems. I am so lucky that we are facing our problems head on - together. We have made some tough decisions and we are dealing with it one step at a time, one day at a time. We have retained an attorney and are filing bankruptcy. We know it is not the easy road, and we wish we didn't have to do it. We have voluntarily surrendered our vehicles, and other items. We now need to stick to our budget plan and get through the next few months while we prepare to file the papers in court. It will be so relieving to have this behind us.
Ok, as far as the rest of our life goes, we have been BUSY. The kids are back in school, and I did all their school shopping at Walgreens, Staples, etc... while they had their 1cent sales. I seriously walked out of Staples with a huge bag of supplies for 13 cents. (I had a $3 coupon) but still it was so amazing. I probably spent a total of $20 on school supplies, which includes 2 back packs, and I have enough crayons, glue, pencils, paper, etc.. for 2 years of school. Coupon shopping is very important to me, obviously and it can be rewarding, but very time consuming.
The kids are playing soccer this year, and fortunately we don't have to pay that much for that. They are enjoying it very much. it will be a nice - free- diversion each weekend.
Dan is going on a business trip for a whole month. He is leaving next week and I am going to miss him so much.
I have not weighed myself in months. I am so afraid to see what the scale has to say. I know this is denial. I am watching my quantities much better these days and have been doing more exercise. I walk the kids to school now (unless we are running late) and that is a nice added exercise. I also go for walks around th neighborhood with a friend. The kids go too so we have a good time.
Well that is it for now. I have more to say, but no more time to write.
