I have not fallen off the earth!!

Apr 07, 2009

So life has been insanely busy and this is the first time I have logged on in months. 

Kids are both on the baseball/softball teams, and my daughter had a lead in the school musical.  So between practices, games, rehearsals, and shows...what exactly is personal time??  I don't even remember!  Plus we have been going thru a huge transition at work and my job is the demon spawn itself!

So I just wanted to come on and remind myself that I do still exist!

18 month surgiversary just past (I can hardly believe it) and I am so indescribably grateful for my surgery!  A year and a half ago I was so unhealthy, and so unhappy, and could not have even imagined the freedom I feel now.  Aside from my children, it is the greatest blessing of my life.

I am now under my original goal of 175 and weighing in at 169!  Unbelievable!  I can sqeeze into a size 10 but more comfortable in a 12 so all my "junk" doesn't show!  I never thought I would want plastic surgery, but, I was wrong!  I don't know how I would ever get it, but, given the opportunity, I'd jump at it!  I've never seen myself with a flat tummy in my life, and I can only imagine how my clothes would fit without all the extra skin.  Oh well, I am not complaining at all!  I'll take that extra skin all day long over the crap that used to fill it!!

Love to all  Deni


Where does the time go!!

Nov 12, 2008

Well I see I have been slacking off!  (Much like my scale!)  Loss has been very slow these past several months, but I know now that I am so close to goal that that is totally normal.   I would ultimately like to get down to 165, but I was just fricken gitty to see that '7' on the scale!  178.8 Baby!!  Rockin a size 12 down from a 28-30 just over a year ago...I'll take that!!!

My daughter and I started working out at a women's circut gym and that has been really awesome!  Our schedules haven't allowed us to get there nearly as much as I would like, but such is life!  We go when we can and are grateful not only for the chance to make ourselves stonger and more healthy, but to have that time together.  She is growing up so so fast and will be off to college before I know it!!  (Okay okay, so she is only 10, but the first 10 went by so fast that I know I need to charish the next 10 because by then she will probably be off into the big bad world without mama!!)

The holiday's are upon us and I have to remind myself regularly that even though I don't dump on a bit of sugar that that doesn't mean I can just have my jolly's with it either!!  I told my husand yesterday that that stinkin Halloween candy needs to leave the house!  It just sits there, in that big blue bowl, calling me!!  And a tiny piece here and a tiny piece there add up to my scale being stubborn...duh!  So I am in heavy prayer about getting though the coming baking season, cause I do love to bake! 

That's all for now.  Take care friends.  Love, D.


Has it really already been a year???

Sep 23, 2008

So Sautrday marks one year since surgery!  Man, where does the time go!  Parts of it seem like it went at a snails pace (like when I was throwing up everyday for the first 4.5 months!) and part seems like it had wings.  What a ride this has been so far.  128 fricken pounds my friend!!  128 pounds!!!  This time last year I weighed in at 309 pounds!  12 months later my scale reads 181.  Amazing...that's all I can say.

The past few months the loss has been very very slow (averaging about 2 pounds a month) but that is to be expected the closer you get to goal.  I am hopeful that I can continue to lose over the next several months and ultimately reach my revised goal of 164, which is the national average for a 42 year old woman in America.  Oh, to be average!!!  But even if I don't lose those last 17 pounds, that will be just fine!  I am healthy, and I am happy.  I am so thankful to have been given this gift of re-birth and renewed spirit.  I am truly blessed....and I look pretty decent too!!!! 


Jul 07, 2008

Well here it is just 3 days from our long awaited trip to Hawaii!!!  YIPEEEEE!!   We have been planning our trip for about 6 months now and I can hardly believe it is almost here!  I had hoped to get down to about 190 for the trip, and as of this morning my wonderful (at the moment!) scale sang 186.9!!  Oh yahhhhhh!  Just over 9 months ago I weighed over 300 pounds with such a sad and discouraged heart.  And now, well, now my heart is singing!  It is healthy, it is strong, it is happy, and it is proud!  This has been a difficult path, but one I would choose over and over.  I got my life back...and there is still so much more to come!  

When I originally set my goal at 175, I don't think I really believed in my heart that it could happen.  But now it is just under 12 pounds away!!!  That is astonishing to me.  When my doctor originally told me he thought I could lose down to about 155, I thought he was on crack!!  But now I al alomst allowing myself to think it may be possible.  I'm not banking on it, but I no longer think it is a drug induced delusion!!  At this point, anything more I lose is just that figurative icing on the cake!   And it is the yummiest frosting I ever had!!!

I'll post after Hawaii and hopefully have some cute new pics!!   Aloha! 

8.5 months

Jun 16, 2008

Well it's been over a month so I thought I better check in!  Down to 193 people!!  Amazing!  I hit anothe f*^[email protected]+&% platau for a month, but lost 2 last week, so hopefully it will move again for a bit before the next pit stop!  But who can complain!  116 pounds in 8 1/2 months is not garbage!  

I did just a bit of clothes shopping this weekend for some summer stuff and actually enjoyed it a little!! (I'm not much of a shopper!)  But to walk through the "normal" departments was freeing!  I am in a 12-14 depending on the style, and even bought two "medium" tops!  What!!  Now get this...I SQEEZED my butt into a 10!!!!  Mind you, it looked like crap, but that is not the point!  I got it on, I zipped it, it counts!!  I wouldn't be caught dead in public in it yet...but it gave me hope that that day will come!!  What do yah know!

No more time today, but wanted to check in!

Oh, I think I have revised my goal!  My original was 175 (cause my doctor's goal of 155 was just OUT OF CONTROL!), but I do believe I am now setting my sights on the "national average" for a 42 year old woman, being 164!  Me?  Average??  Never!!  But that number sounds good to me!

Until next time,  when I hope to be in the 80's!!!!   D.


May 08, 2008

YIPEE!!  YAHOOOOOOOOOO!!  There it is!!!  199 Baby!  Not since 1993 has my scale graced me with a "1" in the hundreds place!!!  WAHOOOOOOOO!!  Proud of me, uh huh, uh huh!!  Hard but worth it, hard but worth it, hard but worth it!  Deni, you rock!!! 

Close to Onederland!

Apr 21, 2008

Oh, I cn almost taste it (no pun intended!)!!  203 today.  Just 4 pounds and I will see a ONE on the scale.  I have not seen that since 1993!!!  That's um, like 15 years!!  And I only saw it then cause my gallbladder was sick and it was just before laproscopic (sp?) surgery had been approved, so I was waiting, and doing without fat (so I wouldn't curl up in pain), and lost to 179.  I was a size 9 then (and for you younger girls, that was before there was such a thinG as size 2 or 4, let alone zero!!  If you were a 6 back then you were SKINNY!).  So my goal is 175, 4 pounds under that.  I don't think I'll be back in a 9 since I have all this really cool (not!) hangin skin now, but that's ok.  This is about my heart, not what size I could get into.  And I am now sporting a pretty happy heart!!!  It takes me on long walks, up the stairs without palpitating, and rejoices when my kids wrap their arms all the way around me with room to spare.  

Thank you Dr. Felix, you gave me my life back.  But mostly, thank you Heavenly Father, for loving me,  for filling me with the strengh to endure this path, and for giving my children a Mama that can stand by their sides a whole lot longer.

Happy Friday

Apr 11, 2008

It's been a little bit...just bisy time of year.  Running kids all ofver town for baseball/softball.  Not complaining....I love that they are active.  

Scale hates me...moving very slow.  Not complaining, just whining a little!  down 101, weight at 208.  I was thinking this morning that I have not been under 200 pounds since about 1993!!  But those fews pounds to get into onederland are a bitch!!  Oh well, I keep trying to remind myself to just relax.  It's been 6 1/2 months.  Even at the slow rate I am at that will be about another 20 pounds or so by then (hopefully more, but I'll take 20!)  That would put me at 188.  I like 188!  And I read some posts where people continue to lose for another year after that.  Slowly, but surely.  So, I slap myself around (not too hard, I"m kind of a whimp where pain is concerned!!) and try to be patient.  (I learned years ago not to pray for patience!!  You pray for that and God gives you a trial...guarentee it!)

Anyway, Happy Friday Friends....I love my OH family!          D.   

ok, 3rd post today, but.....

Mar 27, 2008

I just had to share a happy thought....I actually enjoyed eating lunch today!  That doesn't happen all that often as I typically have to eat what Alan (my pouch - yes I named it!  It's just so moody it needed a name. And since it can be so aggravating, it had to be male!!  Hee Hee) is willing to accept.  I have been trying harder lately to expand my variety, so today I went to 's.  I got 1/2 taco salad and oooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh myyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy gooooooooossssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!  It was still too much, but nearly the waste of a whole salad.  A few chips, chili, taco sauce, a little cheese, guac, tomato, and lettuce (veggies are a new "ok" by Alan and we are very excited!!!).   It was the best meal I have had in 6 months!   Wooooo Hooooo!

Cool site

Mar 27, 2008

Check out this cool site!  It charts your loss and gives you lots of cool info!


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