Deni
6 months already!
Mar 27, 2008
Well time just flies when your havin' fun! 6 months ago right now I was laying in the hospital bed, nervous as hell, and wondering if I was doing the right thing! In fact, I contined to wonder that for the next several months as I watched my relationship with food fade fade fade away. Not easy - good bye old friend! But hello healthy me! 6.5 months ago I weighed 309 pounds . . . 3 0 9 ! ! That's not small!! Today I am 209! That's an awesome thing!
I lost so much so fast that the loss now is very slow, but will not be discouraged. That evil little voice tries to come out with every pound and say "well, that will be the last one. You'll never reach your goal." (that asshole!) And you know, maybe I won't, but maybe I will! My personal goal is about 25 pounds more than my doctors goal for me (he say's 150, which is unreal to me! my personal goal is 175, which will put me in about a loose 12, would be great with me!!) Ultimately, this is about being healthy, which I am so much more today than I was then. IT'S ALL GOOD PEOPLE! I have sagging skin. I have deflated boobs. I have thinning hair. SO WHAT!! I also have a ton of energy, and self esteem, and pride in myself for taking care of myself so I will be here to take care of my kids and my husband. THAT'S RIGHT!!
I will now set my next mini goal....we are going on vacation to Hawaii in July...OH YES!! I would like to lose 20 more pounds by then, which would put me at 189, and hopefully a loose size14. I am not even gonna thing about the beach, and the bathing suit! The loose skin is not pretty to me, but it's not going anywhere any time soon, so I am just going to have to work with it!!!
Anyway, happy 6 months to me....here's to the next 6!!!
too funny!
Mar 18, 2008
How Much Have You Lost?
1 pound = a Guinea Pig
1.5 pounds = a dozen Krispy Kreme glazed donuts
2 pounds = a rack of baby back ribs
3 pounds = an average human brain
4 pounds = an ostrich egg
5 pounds = a Chihuahua
6 pounds = a human’s skin
7.5 pounds = an average newborn
8 pounds = a human head
10 pounds= chemical additives American eats each year
11 pounds = an average housecat
12 pounds = a Bald Eagle
15 pounds = 10 dozen large eggs
16 pounds = a sperm whale’s brain
20 pounds = an automobile tire
23 pounds = pizza an average American eats in a year
24 pounds = a 3-gallon tub of super premium ice cream
25 pounds = an average 2 year old
30 pounds = cheese an average American eats in a year
33 pounds = a cinder block
36 pounds = a mid-size microwave
40 pounds = a 5-gal bottle of water or average human leg
44 pounds = an elephant’s heart
50 pounds = a small bale of hay
55 pounds = a 5000 BTU air conditioner
60 pounds = an elephant’s penis (yep, weights more than his heart!)
66 pounds = fats and oils an avg American eats in a year
70 pounds = an Irish Setter
77 pounds = a gold brick
80 pounds = the World’s Largest Ball of Tape
90 pounds = a newborn calf
100 pounds = a 2 month old horse
111 pounds = red meat an average American eats in a year
117 pounds = an average fashion model (and she’s 5’11”)
118 pounds = the complete Encyclopedia Britannica
120 pounds = amount of trash you throw away in a month
130 pounds = a newborn giraffe
138 pounds = potatoes an average American eats in a year
140 pounds = refined sugar an avg American eats in a year
144 pounds = an average adult woman (and she’s 5’4”)
150 pounds = the complete Oxford English Dictionary
187 pounds = an average adult man
200 pounds = 2 Bloodhounds
235 pounds = Arnold Schwarzenegger
300 pounds = an average football lineman
400 pounds = a Welsh pony
Okay, if you are reading this, and laughing your butt off, you have to comment and tell me what absurd amount you have lost! I will not rest until I see that elephant penis!!!
Feelin a little pissed!!
Mar 03, 2008
Suffice it to say that I broke my plateau!!! Yes, Yes, Yes! For the past 5 Monday mornings that stupid scale has told me the same thing...221...221...221...221...221...OKAY!! I get it! So this morning would have been 6 weeks, and I was like, PLEASE GOD! Please just let it move to 219 and get me into the teens! And there it was...216!!! Yes!! Can you say, 93 pounds gone!! for a while there I thought I might have to give up cheesecake (hee hee hee, just kidding!!). I have been making a consious effort to get more protein in (with the help of bariatriceating.com....yipee for AcheivOne and Soy Crisps!!), so maybe that heped. Could be too that I have really been busting my butt with the walking and loving it!!
Well, not the funny post I had before, but now my stinking break is over!!!
Have an awesome day friends!
Feelin a little sexy!
Feb 14, 2008
So I got dressed this morning, looked in the mirror, and was like "right on!" I think I'm lookin a little sexy! That felt pretty nice! I know I still a ways to go, but I am pretty darn proud of my progress so far.
The other day I was out playing catch with my daughter (that feels pretty great too knowing that I am going to be able to chase down a pass ball!!) and my neighbor, who I am friendly with when I see her, but we don't hang out or anything, comes out to get her mail and says "Wow! You look really great! You must really be working hard!" . Well how good did that feel that this person who knows nothing of what has been going on to go out of her way to say something like that. Compliments are always nice, but when they come out of the blue like that from an unexpected source, it's even better!
That reminds me....when I was at the Women's conference last month, the guest speaker said something that I really liked! She said when someone pays her a compliment, she thinks of it like a rose, and is gracious, and accepts it. At the end of the day, she gathers up all her roses, makes a boquet, and presents it to God! I thought that was awesome, and a really great way to think about it since everything we accomplish is really due to Him.
So I am still at my plateau! Almost 4 weeks now. But the last one lasted 4 weeks, so I am not sweating it too much. Every once in a while there's an evil little voice in my head () trying to tell me that this is it and I won't lose anymore, but I know that is not true. So I just smash it like a bug and don't listen. I remind myself to get more water in, keep up the good exersice, try not to snack, and just puch on! So that is what I am doing.
I hope you all have a wonderful wonderful day filled with love and sugar free chocolate!!!
Another Plateau
Feb 05, 2008
So I went through my closet last weekend and pulled out everything that no longer fits. It was jam packed and I was tired of digging through it for the few things I can wear. (Funny thought: It used to be that I wanted things to be as loose and roomy as possible, as if I was hiding all that body! Now I just want things to fit and not be hanging off. I want to see my progress, and I want the world to see it too!) And for so many years when I did my weight yo-yo'ing I would keep clothes in several sizes as if admitting to myself that I would eventually need that bigger size again... and I always did. (Talk about a self fulfilling prophecy!) So I thought "to hell with that logic"! I pulled it all out. If I wasn't sure, I tried it on. I know have a giant pile of things to give away. A lot of work suits and dresses too, some pretty nice stuff. The sizes range from 18-30! And as soon as the few 18s I kept and 14-16s are too big, they will go too, and so on, if there is a son from there! Anyway, super proud of my self! I'm letting go of the past...good riddance!!
Love you all! Thanks for all your support!! You guys are the best.
4 months and counting!
Jan 25, 2008
The recent rain has really impacted my exercise the past week or so, but it will slow down soon. I even started jogging! (WHAT???) Never in my life have I jogged! But I was at the track walking one day and deceided to see if I could go a lap. Which I did! The next time, I tried for 2 and actually went 4 without stopping! Now that's a fricken miracle! Sine then I have still been foing 4 or 5 laps, but not all together. I will walk 1, jog 1, walk 2, jog 2, etc. I still do the same amount, but my muscles don't get quite as tired! Now it's not fast jogging, but it's jogging!
I am off to an annual women's retreat this weekend in the Santa Cruz mountains where there is actually snow right now! My sister in law "Sassy" and I have been going every year for the past 6 years. It's so wonderful and relaxing. It's a Christian retreat, all ladies, very peaceful and fulfilling and awesome! Now in the past the food has been one of the highlights! So I am a little nervous cause my pouch tends to be pretty picky from one day to the next when it will "let" me eat! (A lot of things still make me sick, and for about 2 months I have been vomiting almost everyday! The last couple of weeks it has been better, and I actually went 5 days last week without getting sick! Oh well, I know this too shall pass.) So anyway, I am off half day from work, so I am outta here at 11, and off to "heaven"!!
Peace sisters! Deni
3 months already!
Dec 27, 2007
Holy Crud!!!
Dec 12, 2007
Are those collar bones????
Dec 05, 2007
As of today I have lost 53 pounds in 10 weeks....hmmmmm, I believe I like that! I can't wear any of my old clothes, and I really like that!! My birthday is in March and I have my fingers crossed to maybe be at 75 or 80 pounds by then. It has been a much slower pace losing since I broke my plateau, but there is nothing wrong with slow and steady. I have always said that slow progress is better than no progress.
I love Christmas time. I love the smell in the air. I love the lights. I love the seemingly renewed spirit in so many people, even some of the grinches. I love the excitement in my kids eyes. I remember my anticipation as a child as the "big day" drew near. We didn't have much when I was a kid, but somehow mom always made sure Christmas was magical. Now as an adult, and a born again Christian, I know the true meaning and significance of the day. But the child in me still looks forward to that one morning a year that is filled with magic and wide, excited eyes. Awesome!
Monday....WHATEVER!
Nov 26, 2007
Well I think I finally broke my plateau I weighed yesterday and had lost 4.5, so I'll take it. Tomorrow is my 2 month surgiversary, and I have lost 50 pounds. Works for me! I have been retaining a lot of water, and was able to get rid of it during my time off (not sitting at my desk for hours on end). Now I just need to make sure I get up and move around and drink more water so it doesn't float back!
Thanksgiving was good. I was able to eat more variety than I had expected, but still only a couple of ounces. Everything tasted so flippin good, and I just wanted to be able to scarf down my mom's mini quiches, and my aunts garlic spinach dip. Not to mention the usual spread of yummies my Grammy puts on. But alas, not for me. That's all right. What I had was great, and I didn't vomit, so !
I uploaded a few nex pixs, but they pretty much suck! I'll have to have my kids start taking my monthly pix cause my camara phone is pretty limiting and I would like to be able to look back when later down the line and be pleased with the chronology.
I was fishing for somethin to wear to work this morning and found a size 20 suit pants. They are a tad snug, but zipped right up! Right on! And my jacket is an 18! Yes! I'll be happy to get my butt into a 12 when this is all said and done. I guess time will tell.
That's it for this Monday....talk to me friends!! D.