1 year anniversary of RNY

Dec 17, 2008

Well today has finally come and gone.  I had gastric bypass a year ago today.  I was 252lbs the day of surgery.  I weighed 196lbs this morning.  I was 203lbs last night at the gym. What a failure.  What ever happened to people losing 100lbs the 1st year post op????? Why does this have to be so difficult.  It's all my fault. I have horrible eating habits..plain and simple.  I wonder if I can go in for a 3rd surgery??? Before this one gets out of hand.  I eat bread, carbs, pasta, cold drinks.  You name it I eat it!!! Just like a pig.  I bought Alli to combat my eating habits.  How sad!!! I had gastric bypass and still have to have an external measure like a diet pill!!!! It's the christmas holidays.  I have NO self control!  You give it to me so I eat it!!! and who's heard of protein these days?! What's that??? I havent had my protein drinks like I should. Quite frankly I'm am burned out on them!!! Chocolate, Vanilla, Strawberry, Pina Colada, Nectar, Whey shots..I'm sick of them ALL!!  I guess weight loss surgery just wasn't for me. I wouldn't be surprised if i've gained the 50lbs i've lost back in the next 3 to 5 years.  I guess I really faked the psychiatrist out on the psych eval.  You know what to say and what not to say during those evals.  Will there be a third surgery in my future???  I am glad for those who have been successful at the surgery.  I quite frankly felt like my pouch wasn't made small enough.  I asked the nurse practioner about it and she gave the spill about a man whose my age with rny can eat the same amount that I can eat and that an older female with rny will probably say that she can't eat alot.  Well I guess I'll have to have a revision surgery when I hit 40!!!  I really don't have too much to say.  I would say HAPPY SURGIVERSARY to me but there's nothing HAPPY about today.

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