CW: 140

Jun 28, 2009

I will be at my goal weight (127) in thirteen pounds.  However, when I look in the mirror I cannot tell a difference between now and 217. 

I realize that I have changed a lot, mentally and emotionally, since my surgery- the experiences which I have had (drunk nights in West Hollywood, rolling on E, having sex, having boys lust after me and bombard my phone with texts...) are relatively normal.  Yet, I find it intriguing that I was only able to act in such a fashion after I lost weight.  Furthermore, when boys hit on me I find myself inclined to dismiss them because they failed to see me before (and at my weight that was quite a feat!). 

Sigh.  I need to go to bed- I have spent the past three days drinking in Hollywood and I am exhausted.

Incidentally, I rarely eat anymore- the majority of my calories are courtesy of vodka and lattes. 

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