Yesterday

Jul 31, 2010

Yesterday was a bad day and a good day for me. 

I attended the funeral of my dear dear cousin.  He was only 45 and it was hard to say good bye.  The funeral was on the reservation and the social afterward was torture.  All the foods I grew up with and loved.  They did have soup I could skim the broth off and sugar free jello two diet staples.  I did manage to behave myself and not indulge.  But I just wanted to take a piece of fried bannock and stuff it in my mouth or...2 ...or 5 pieces. ( Yeah I'm fat cause I'm greedy)
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Then that evening I went to Alegria the Cirque du Soliel show.  It was so amazing!  I'm thinking of spending the money and going again tonight. 

But I fell down again.  I had 3/4 of a box of popcorn.  I'm back on the wagon and I was doing well. 

I wasn't even hungry.  I even had a built in guilt inducer.  Once of the women from my bariatric group was there and she even came down and said hi.  I knew she saw the popcorn.  IT WAS IN MY HAND.  I addressed it.  I then put it under my seat because the show had started.  I resolved not to eat it.  Then halfway though the show I remembered it.  And ate it.  I could have stopped myself. 

  Ido like the shakes.  The only problem is I might be lactose intolerant.  I have gas really bad,  always farting.  And now I've developed diarehha.  A gallon of milk every 2 or 3 days isn't helping that's for sure. I will ask the group today.

I'm gong to take the bus to walmart today to get some of those jello cups.  After the parade.

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