Danette W.
Another day
Sep 02, 2010
I'm having a bad day. I can feel depression breathing down my neck. I so tired and just can't seem to get enough sleep but have slept so much that I can't sleep any more. I just wish that I had more energy. It's an effort just to go an check my mail. On top of it I'm having trouble with diarrhea today. I've looked a my food log an there's nothing on there that I should be getting diarrhea problems now. Nothing new since I started the stage 4 diet.I have to try and get energized for tomorrow. There is a tatoo cancer challenge where you get a tatoo of the ribbon in support of the fight against the cancer of your choice. I'm going with a another friend made though this bariatric journey.
I'm also a little depressed because I don't feel a lot of support from my family. Since I've been home I've asked for minimal help and the things I do ask for seem to be such a big deal. Like I need a ride to the hardware store to get new legs for my couch. It's an hour by bus but only 10 minutes if you drive. I'm asking for a single hour. One hour of time. Then people who said they would help me during my convalescene have suddenly become very busy. I'm not asking for a huge output of time. Just an hour some times less. I can hardly wait until I am cleared to do this stuff myself.
I keep forgotting to take my blood sugars. Maybe it's related to that. I'll have to set up some kind of alarm to remind myself to take my blood sugar everyday.
I'm also feeling very hungry. It's like I'm craving something that I'm not getting. I'm sticking to the diet pretty closely. I even took my scale to a vietnamese restaurant to weight out the beef in from the soup to make sure I wasn't eating too much.
I hope these feeling pass soon. I also keep feeling like I'm going to cry at the slightest provocation. Like tears are just pushing against the back of my eyes.
Lets hope this doesn't go any further.
Danette
