ghouliegal
Life is about changing.....
Feb 26, 2011
Nothing ever stays the same. I have decided that after a whirl wind year and a half of working full time again, wasnt what I wanted anymore. My family was suffering without me being home. I was suffering without being home. I gained weight from eating away my stress and drinking wine every night. That is NOT who I want to be!! So with the support of my wonderful husband, I walked in one morning and put in my notice. Instantly I felt better! Now I am back at home and everyone is happier, including ME! I found that the stress is leaving slowly....and my eating has slowed down again too.
Being 130 pounds lighter has its advantages in SELF ASTEEM! I feel I can do anything now and my fat is not holding me back. I have always wanted to start my own candy making business, and I feel now the strength and determination to do it. I now have the attitude "you will never know unless you try, and whats the worse thing that could happen"? So with two of my friends, we are slowly getting ourselves together. I have to take a course of food saftey and also get my kitchen certified. I will start selling at Farmers Markets and just go from there! I am extremely excited about this. I am taking control of my life path once again.
I have been taking my vitamins DILIGENTLY now. I found the liquid Calcium with Vit. D that has 1000 mg of Calcium per tsp. and 1000 IU's of Vit. D....I take 2 tsp. 2-3 times a day. I will be going at the end of March to recheck my levels and see if my PTH hormone is correcting itself. (HOPEFULLY YES!)
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Being 130 pounds lighter has its advantages in SELF ASTEEM! I feel I can do anything now and my fat is not holding me back. I have always wanted to start my own candy making business, and I feel now the strength and determination to do it. I now have the attitude "you will never know unless you try, and whats the worse thing that could happen"? So with two of my friends, we are slowly getting ourselves together. I have to take a course of food saftey and also get my kitchen certified. I will start selling at Farmers Markets and just go from there! I am extremely excited about this. I am taking control of my life path once again.
I have been taking my vitamins DILIGENTLY now. I found the liquid Calcium with Vit. D that has 1000 mg of Calcium per tsp. and 1000 IU's of Vit. D....I take 2 tsp. 2-3 times a day. I will be going at the end of March to recheck my levels and see if my PTH hormone is correcting itself. (HOPEFULLY YES!)
So tired all the time.....2 years post op!
Jan 05, 2011
It was two years ago in October of 2010 that I had my RNY....2 years? I almost fainted. 
It has just gone by so fast. I have been so busy i life. Being a full time mom, and working a full time job has taken its toll on me. I am trying to make sure I keep up on my vitamins, but I guess it just wasn't enough.
At my 2 year post op, I found out that My Calcium and Vitamin D levels were soo low, that my body was leaching it from my bones to replenish it.....which cause my PTH (parathyroid hormone) levels to skyrocket. I am also anemic, and my iron stores are at an 8. YIKES! So what are the side effects? Fatigue, irritability, muscle cramps (BAD CRAMPS), Dizziness (serious Vertigo). So I have tripled my intake to catch up as much as I can. The cramps are down from every night, to about every other night. The vertigo is gone for now. Now I just need to catch up on my iron and stop being so tired. Irritability.....eh...I have a husband......enough said!
Its sooo funny, when I close my eyes at night, my head hits the pillow....I am OUT COLD!!! Nothing can wake me up.
So my words of wisdom for you.....TAKE YOUR DAMN VITAMINS LIKE YOU SHOULD!!!
hahahha.
Would you believe I am still at the same weight? I haven't dropped a pound in months. But holding steady, and I can handle that. I think my body is happy where its at. LOL. I look good, and feel comfortable in my own skin. I love who I am and I am my own best friend again.
LIFE!!!!! It is so rewarding.
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It has just gone by so fast. I have been so busy i life. Being a full time mom, and working a full time job has taken its toll on me. I am trying to make sure I keep up on my vitamins, but I guess it just wasn't enough. At my 2 year post op, I found out that My Calcium and Vitamin D levels were soo low, that my body was leaching it from my bones to replenish it.....which cause my PTH (parathyroid hormone) levels to skyrocket. I am also anemic, and my iron stores are at an 8. YIKES! So what are the side effects? Fatigue, irritability, muscle cramps (BAD CRAMPS), Dizziness (serious Vertigo). So I have tripled my intake to catch up as much as I can. The cramps are down from every night, to about every other night. The vertigo is gone for now. Now I just need to catch up on my iron and stop being so tired. Irritability.....eh...I have a husband......enough said!
Its sooo funny, when I close my eyes at night, my head hits the pillow....I am OUT COLD!!! Nothing can wake me up.
So my words of wisdom for you.....TAKE YOUR DAMN VITAMINS LIKE YOU SHOULD!!!
hahahha. Would you believe I am still at the same weight? I haven't dropped a pound in months. But holding steady, and I can handle that. I think my body is happy where its at. LOL. I look good, and feel comfortable in my own skin. I love who I am and I am my own best friend again.
LIFE!!!!! It is so rewarding.
Knock....Knock.......
Mar 21, 2010
Um can I come in?? I know its been a few months....I am sorry! LOL. I get on here about a few times a week, but never want to just sit and type type type. I am doing just wonderful. I actually got a job back in November, and its full time and takes up a big chunk of my life on a day to day basis. Its so hard these days, missing my old "stay at home mom" life that I was living for the past 3 or so years. But I absolutely LOVE my job!! I love all my co-workers as well. Its like leaving my family in the morning, to hang out with my other family during the day. Its nothing like the Career I had in Hotels. I have never been happier!
My body is angrily hanging onto my last 15 pounds to my goal. hahahha!! I am back to basics as of the last couple weeks, but only lost 3 pounds. And then I eat something bad....swell up like a balloon.....and gain it all back. BOO! But as of my home scale....I am at 177. I cant even think of the last time I weighed that.......I swear it had to be 8th grade? My pants are now a
10 /12. I got out of my 14's pretty damn fast. My tops are a medium......I have absolutely NOTHING to wear. LMAO!!!!
MY MIND HAS NOT CAUGHT UP! I do not see myself as others see me. I talk about getting off these last 15 pounds to goal, and everyone tells me "Lose it from where? You are too skinny! Stay where you are right now...you look great" But I just do not see it... :-( I hope it catches up soon.
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My body is angrily hanging onto my last 15 pounds to my goal. hahahha!! I am back to basics as of the last couple weeks, but only lost 3 pounds. And then I eat something bad....swell up like a balloon.....and gain it all back. BOO! But as of my home scale....I am at 177. I cant even think of the last time I weighed that.......I swear it had to be 8th grade? My pants are now a
10 /12. I got out of my 14's pretty damn fast. My tops are a medium......I have absolutely NOTHING to wear. LMAO!!!!
MY MIND HAS NOT CAUGHT UP! I do not see myself as others see me. I talk about getting off these last 15 pounds to goal, and everyone tells me "Lose it from where? You are too skinny! Stay where you are right now...you look great" But I just do not see it... :-( I hope it catches up soon.
Having the time of my life
Nov 15, 2009
Yea!! I accomplished another goal! My husband gave me a piggy back ride!! LOL!! We giggled the whole time he was carrying me to the car. In fact, we giggled so much that he had to drop me. That is so amazing! It was an awesome feeling being carried. I have never been picked up in my life. (obviously since I was a baby).
My one year post op went pretty good if you ask me! I am doing great. I met my surgeons goal of 190 (I am 184 right now) and they were sooo proud of me. All my vitamin levels look pretty OK, but I am low in Vit. A, and my Calcium and Vit. D levels were dropping (because I don't take them 3 times a day like I am supposed too). My Iron level was a little low and my ferritin levels. But nothing that I cant boost with some extra supplements. She told me that I DO NOT need to take chewable Centrums...that I should have stopped doing that a long time ago. She told me to go to Costco and get their vitamins because they have a higher level of Vit. A and that's all I would need to boost that. I was confused anyways because she had told me before that I had to do the chewable because I wouldn't absorb a whole pill. She said I was wrong. OOPS! LOL.
So its Fall and gorgeous outside....but I am seriously always freezing. FREEEEZING! Do skinny people suffer from this? I am drying out my family by having the heater on constantly, and our PG&E was $40 more last month that its EVER BEEN!! LOL. I need a snuggie. HAHHAHAHAHA.
I dropped into a 14 pants and can actually put on a size 12 as well if they are cut right. WOW! My tops range from a Large to a Medium. I have nooo problems shopping for clothes anymore and I love it to death. I buy mostly second hand clothes (because I am going through them so fast) And just being able to drop into a different section opens up soo many options. Like jeans for instance....In the larger sizes my options were maybe 10 pairs...the LARGEST sizes I would find maybe 1-2..sometimes None at all. But now being in a 14 I have a huge selection! 20+ pairs I can rummage through. Its pretty fun!!
My poor Poor POOR Boobs.....little deflated balloons. They are so disgusting to look at. I am still wearing my old bra that I bought in May that is a 38C, and the cups are only half full and now also too big around. I want to get a new bra so bad, I want to go into Victoria's Secret and get a really nice push up sexy bra! I just need to come up with a little extra cash for that.
Take care everyone!!
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My one year post op went pretty good if you ask me! I am doing great. I met my surgeons goal of 190 (I am 184 right now) and they were sooo proud of me. All my vitamin levels look pretty OK, but I am low in Vit. A, and my Calcium and Vit. D levels were dropping (because I don't take them 3 times a day like I am supposed too). My Iron level was a little low and my ferritin levels. But nothing that I cant boost with some extra supplements. She told me that I DO NOT need to take chewable Centrums...that I should have stopped doing that a long time ago. She told me to go to Costco and get their vitamins because they have a higher level of Vit. A and that's all I would need to boost that. I was confused anyways because she had told me before that I had to do the chewable because I wouldn't absorb a whole pill. She said I was wrong. OOPS! LOL.
So its Fall and gorgeous outside....but I am seriously always freezing. FREEEEZING! Do skinny people suffer from this? I am drying out my family by having the heater on constantly, and our PG&E was $40 more last month that its EVER BEEN!! LOL. I need a snuggie. HAHHAHAHAHA.
I dropped into a 14 pants and can actually put on a size 12 as well if they are cut right. WOW! My tops range from a Large to a Medium. I have nooo problems shopping for clothes anymore and I love it to death. I buy mostly second hand clothes (because I am going through them so fast) And just being able to drop into a different section opens up soo many options. Like jeans for instance....In the larger sizes my options were maybe 10 pairs...the LARGEST sizes I would find maybe 1-2..sometimes None at all. But now being in a 14 I have a huge selection! 20+ pairs I can rummage through. Its pretty fun!!
My poor Poor POOR Boobs.....little deflated balloons. They are so disgusting to look at. I am still wearing my old bra that I bought in May that is a 38C, and the cups are only half full and now also too big around. I want to get a new bra so bad, I want to go into Victoria's Secret and get a really nice push up sexy bra! I just need to come up with a little extra cash for that.
Take care everyone!!
26 pounds to go? I would have never dreamt it could be true
Oct 27, 2009
I am having a really hard time wrapping my brain around the fact that I have only 26 pounds to go until I reach my goal of 160 pounds. Being overweight my whole life and ALWAYS having 50 or more pounds to lose instead of, now what I think of as, a "measley 26 pounds"! I am so emotional right now, partly because of my period...LOL, but its truly something I never ever Ever EVER thought would happen to me in my lifetime. I was prepared to live out the rest of my life being an overweight person because no matter how hard I tried, I could never lose a daunting 150 pounds all by myself. I want to stand on a mountain top and scream at the top of my lungs, just for that gratifying feeling of being free from my 20 year bondage. I'M FREE!! I'M FREEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Just got the call for my One year Post Op!
Oct 09, 2009
Has it already been almost a year??? WOW!!!! October 30th 2008 I was on the operating table, and who knew that this year would fly by so fast!? I have never NEVER felt this good in my life. I have to tell you that the attention can be intoxicating. I unfortunately have been getting A LOT of attention from the opposite sex and my hubby is thinking its pretty funny. I think its pretty funny, but ya know...I am the same person I was 118 pounds ago dammit! So those other guys can shove it, my saviour is right by my side where I need him. My husband, the love of my life.
I am still losing weight these days, which is surprising since my eating habits have changed. I still worry constantly about the amount of food I can eat in one sitting. (its a lot to me, not everyone else). I can eat a whole taco. LOL. I know that sounds like nothing....but when you consider the size of your pouch that's a lot! I have been doing a little exercise here and there, but haven't been to the gym in months. BAD JESSICA! *slaps hands*
Anyways, I will be going in two weeks to get my blood drawn so they can check all my vitamin levels. I hope I am doing good on those. Days get missed, but for the most part I stay on top of them. My Calcium (giant horse pills) I chew even though they are not chewable, extra vit. D, B 50 complex, B12, Iron, Vit. C., 2 Centrum chewables.....its a meal! I will have to bring in a food log...I wonder what the nutritionist is going to say about that taco? LOL.
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I am still losing weight these days, which is surprising since my eating habits have changed. I still worry constantly about the amount of food I can eat in one sitting. (its a lot to me, not everyone else). I can eat a whole taco. LOL. I know that sounds like nothing....but when you consider the size of your pouch that's a lot! I have been doing a little exercise here and there, but haven't been to the gym in months. BAD JESSICA! *slaps hands*
Anyways, I will be going in two weeks to get my blood drawn so they can check all my vitamin levels. I hope I am doing good on those. Days get missed, but for the most part I stay on top of them. My Calcium (giant horse pills) I chew even though they are not chewable, extra vit. D, B 50 complex, B12, Iron, Vit. C., 2 Centrum chewables.....its a meal! I will have to bring in a food log...I wonder what the nutritionist is going to say about that taco? LOL.
How did I do it??
Aug 14, 2009
I just want to know how I did it? How did I carry so much weight around and function on a daily basis? My daughter weighs about 53 pounds at one month shy of being 6 years old. (totally normal weight for her height and everything) But the other night I had to carry this sleeping child from the car into the house and I almost didnt make it! I had her over my shoulder an could barely make it up the front porch steps. LOL! Imagine now, that I carried 2 of my daughter on a daily basis! 106 pounds......how did I do it? I was miserable, Hot all the time, tired, depressed, my feet ached. But I survived, I went on and on and lived this way. I cant imagine how I did it, because I feel so good now. I NEVER want to feel that way again!! EVER! I have been stalled for awhile now and just had a discussion with my hubby last night about how I need him to start smacking food out of my hands. LOL. I am falling back into the same old pattern. I think...I am going to try to eat this, and if it sits ok then I will. Even if it doesnt sit well I will still eat it....just to throw it up. Thats a serious eating disorder. I am back to logging my food online at Fitday.com. I am going to start holding myself accountable for what I am eating again. I WILL LOSE THIS REMAINING 35 pounds!
Oops! Its been awhile!
Jul 23, 2009
Its not that I don't want to update on my progress, its finding the time! Its hard to just sit around anymore. With all this great energy I have lately I don't want to waste it sitting in front of the computer. I love being out and about. I have the energy to clean my home on a daily basis (its the WANT I struggle with *giggle*) But I think about how I used to just crave the couch and a good show. I TIVO most things I want to watch so I can snuggle up later and watch them, but even those shows are going unwatched because I cant sit still for more than 20 minutes! I used to be tired ALL THE TIME. All the time. Now it amazes me how I can go go go all day and feel just fine. No need to stop and take a breather. I watch my uncles dog for him every now and then. He lives up in the hills and his house is on a hill, so when you walk the dog its downhill for the first part, then uphill to get back home. I would (and this is no exaggeration) have to stop 3 or 4 times on the way back up because I couldn't go another step, my lungs burning from gasping. Now....not a problem! I can run up the hill with the dog all the way!!!! Its things like that I love to stop and think about. How having this surgery and losing all this weight has sooooo bettered my life in every way possible. I changed my avatar, and made it a "before and after" photo of my 100 pound weight loss thus far, and I showed it to my husband.....and you know what he did?? He started crying! He was soo proud and so happy for me. He says he just cant remember me being the "before" picture at all. Because he never saw me that way. (what a good man)
My eating habits right now are horrible (obviously not in comparison to what they used to be) but they are getting bad. The old cravings are back and my brain telling me that I NEEEEED that. Indian food especially is my downfall. Cheese Its are my downfall! I found that I can eat 2 cookies and not dump.....arg. I am pushing myself too far. Today is the day I am going back to basics. No more snacking!!! Just say no! LOL. Its my drug. It always has been. Its like being a heroine addict and being clean for 8 1/2 months and then falling off the wagon. I have been tinkering with the idea that my hormones have a lot to do with my sudden cravings and "hunger" so I need to get that check out. I also have been thinking about calling my dietitian and seeing if she has any classes I can re-take just to learn the basics again. I have fallen so far off track I feel, that I need someone to smack me back into reality.
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My eating habits right now are horrible (obviously not in comparison to what they used to be) but they are getting bad. The old cravings are back and my brain telling me that I NEEEEED that. Indian food especially is my downfall. Cheese Its are my downfall! I found that I can eat 2 cookies and not dump.....arg. I am pushing myself too far. Today is the day I am going back to basics. No more snacking!!! Just say no! LOL. Its my drug. It always has been. Its like being a heroine addict and being clean for 8 1/2 months and then falling off the wagon. I have been tinkering with the idea that my hormones have a lot to do with my sudden cravings and "hunger" so I need to get that check out. I also have been thinking about calling my dietitian and seeing if she has any classes I can re-take just to learn the basics again. I have fallen so far off track I feel, that I need someone to smack me back into reality.
100 pounds GONE FOREVER!!!!!
May 19, 2009
Its official! I weighed in this morning at 209, that is 100 pounds lost since I started this journey back in April 2008!! 100 pounds lost in a year! HOLY SHIT! hahahahhaha!!! 
I am in a size 16 jeans and a Large top....I never thought my body could do this. I never thought I would see the day that I was only 10 pounds away from being out of the "two bill club"...but here I am. I had fears that my bottom part of my body would stay huge and I would get too small on top, but I actually am losing all around and seem to be very well proportionate. I'm in a size 16? That's a long way from a size 26/28!!! WOWOWOWOW!!! 
I have a lot of excess skin under my arms that seems to be pretty ugly...I need to start doing more muscle toning than cardio when I go to the gym. Its just...I really don't know how to do that. So I am going to start reading up on it. My hair is still falling out, I wish it would stop....my pony tail is seriously the width of my thumb its so sad. But other than that I feel fine. I have a few friends who seem to be having a little trouble with their gallbladders which is worrying me a little bit. My sister had to have hers out too after her surgery, I am just looking for the signs just in case. But so far so good. No problems.
You know whats really funny? It was a REALLY HOT weekend this weekend.
My family and I were up in the Modesto Area and it was about 105 degrees. I mean, it was damn hot. It was hot for me too, but It was not completely unbearable as it used to be for me in the past. I find that I'm still cold when its 80 degrees out side! LOL. I will be going to Texas tomorrow, so that will be the real test to see how I feel in the humidity. I get to put myself into that beautiful dress this weekend. I will take pictures and post them when I get back.
I have a friend Keisha who is having her RNY tomorrow and I am so happy for her! Everyone keep her in their prayers~
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I am in a size 16 jeans and a Large top....I never thought my body could do this. I never thought I would see the day that I was only 10 pounds away from being out of the "two bill club"...but here I am. I had fears that my bottom part of my body would stay huge and I would get too small on top, but I actually am losing all around and seem to be very well proportionate. I'm in a size 16? That's a long way from a size 26/28!!! WOWOWOWOW!!! I have a lot of excess skin under my arms that seems to be pretty ugly...I need to start doing more muscle toning than cardio when I go to the gym. Its just...I really don't know how to do that. So I am going to start reading up on it. My hair is still falling out, I wish it would stop....my pony tail is seriously the width of my thumb its so sad. But other than that I feel fine. I have a few friends who seem to be having a little trouble with their gallbladders which is worrying me a little bit. My sister had to have hers out too after her surgery, I am just looking for the signs just in case. But so far so good. No problems.
You know whats really funny? It was a REALLY HOT weekend this weekend.
My family and I were up in the Modesto Area and it was about 105 degrees. I mean, it was damn hot. It was hot for me too, but It was not completely unbearable as it used to be for me in the past. I find that I'm still cold when its 80 degrees out side! LOL. I will be going to Texas tomorrow, so that will be the real test to see how I feel in the humidity. I get to put myself into that beautiful dress this weekend. I will take pictures and post them when I get back. I have a friend Keisha who is having her RNY tomorrow and I am so happy for her! Everyone keep her in their prayers~
My 6 month post op
Apr 18, 2009
So its almost been 6 months, my appt was just two weeks early so no biggie. I do not see my surgeon anymore, I see a woman Dr. O'Brien, and I really like her. She is funny and nice. We went over all my labs that I had done, she said that I am low in Vit. D, Ferritin, and B1. So she upped my Vit D another 1000 per day, and Iron 3x a week and then told me to stop forgetting to take my B1...LOL. 
She and my nutritionist that I saw were both very happy with my weight loss, and the fact that I have been going to the gym. Dr. O'Brien also said to instead of going 3 days a week, up it to 4. LOL we will see. I have lost 73 pounds since surgery! With as slow as its been going lately, and the feeling of being discouraged....when I see it like that...WOW! I love it!! So that's a grand total of 95 pounds all together. I am only 5 pounds away from having lost 100 pounds! OH MY GOSH!! AND I am only 15 pounds away from being out of the 200's altogether. I don't even know what to say I am so in shock right now. I would never been able to do this on my own. I'm glad I did this, I have my life back! 
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She and my nutritionist that I saw were both very happy with my weight loss, and the fact that I have been going to the gym. Dr. O'Brien also said to instead of going 3 days a week, up it to 4. LOL we will see. I have lost 73 pounds since surgery! With as slow as its been going lately, and the feeling of being discouraged....when I see it like that...WOW! I love it!! So that's a grand total of 95 pounds all together. I am only 5 pounds away from having lost 100 pounds! OH MY GOSH!! AND I am only 15 pounds away from being out of the 200's altogether. I don't even know what to say I am so in shock right now. I would never been able to do this on my own. I'm glad I did this, I have my life back!
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San Jose, CA
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10/30/2008
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Aug 29, 2006
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