WOW! I was so sick then...

Feb 04, 2009

Hey everyone! I am very pleased to announce that I am not near the sicko I was in my one and only blog from last year.

I have to say that I was holding onto so much pain and anguish about my weight/food issues that it really came out in what I wrote.

BUT today is a new day...bright and shining , so the world isn't nearly the sinister place to me as it once was. Hopefully this isn't a honeymoon phase but I am just so happy to be here a lottle (not to be confused with little) smaller and with a lottle more energy. I did of course have a couple of extra hospital stays for infection and a horrible bout of C-diff that is now nearing the end of its run since I'm on very expensive (co-pay $333.27) antibiotic. But I would do it all over again as God is my witness!!!

Its been 2 months and I'm sown 60lbs. My sleep apnea is gone, I can wipe like normal girls do in the bathroom (front and  back), I can fit into any booth I want to , I'm not afraid that people are staring at me because I'm soooo big anymore, I am off my antidepressant, I love to see what size I will fit into next, blah, blah, blah!!! I could literally go on and on. I have of course tested the waters a little with our food plan but for the most part I am faithful about eating my 1/4 c ration three times a day.  I do still have nausea and have to be soooo careful about getting my fluids in. Vitamins have been difficult too but I'm doing it nonetheless.

Things at work have been weird since I have been back and forth so much but I know I have job security so AMEN to that!
Things are also very exciting at home as my husband has been full of passion for me since we met 17 years ago, but now we are finding one another again. Not in bed YET since I've been too ill, but I got me some plans for Valentine's day baby!

My oldest son JUST graduated from high school. SOOOO PROUD!!!
My baby boy is happy as a clam his momma isn't gonna die from being too fat.
My daddy feels the same way, and so does momma.

Life is just so good I can't even begin to say just how happy I am...when there was no hope, I thought endlessly about my size, my shape, how repulsive I was, the pain of just moving was overwhelming. The physical pain was only the tip of the iceberg though. And as family here at OH we know the mental pain we have all endured and still re-live in so many ways. It is better now though. So much better.

THANK YOU LORD JESUS!

Thank you all for your all of the wonderful people you are and may each and everyone be blessed beyond compare...

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