Praying for the Best...

Jan 05, 2009

Hi Everyone!

So, after my last post, I feel really bad for how negative I was, but I just needed to vent. I want to update you all on a few things. Today I called my surgeon's office because I was worried. I talked to the RN, and she asked me how much water I was intaking. I explained that I was getting about 50 or so ounces a day, but that was all. Last night and this morning I had to take a nausea pill just to start taking my water. So, she doesn't think it is because I'm dehydrated, which was a relief.

However, and it's a big however, she thinks I may have a stricture. A stricture, as I understand it, is an abnormal narrowing of the intestine that won't let much more than water pass through. This seems to make sense to me, since I can get the foods down, but they all come back up soon after. Last night, I even threw up my multivitamin and calcium. It scared me a lot. So, I go in tomorrow for a gastroendoscopy, which is where they insert a tube with a camera on the end down my throat and into my stomach and intestines. This means that I'll have to miss my first Race and Ethnic Relations class of the semester, which stinks. However, I emailed my professor and we'll see what he says.

I'm scared. I think I've been scared for a while but have been afraid to show it. But, now that I know my body is adversely reacting it scares me even more. I've been told today that I look skinnier, which is so awesome, but I have no energy to even celebrate that people are noticing my 40 pound loss. A very close friend, one that had a similar surgery a few years ago, said that my color is gone and my eyes look sunken. She expressed her worries, and I was just hoping others couldn't see how crappy I looked. I've always been an upbeat person to get people to laugh, but all I want to do now is sleep. In fact, I think I'm going to go take a nap. I'll keep you all posted on what happens tomorrow.

God Bless~
Jeff

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