Am I doing enough?

Mar 16, 2009

Today marks my 3 month post op check in.  I had my 3 month appt with the dr. last friday.  It was not a good experience.  Let's just say that from the beginning I have been a slow loser.  My highest weight was 280.  The week before surgery I went to the dr for preop weighing in at 272...then I freaked out, ate everything in sight and when I weighed in at the hospital, the day of surgery, I was 277.  Not the best i have ever behaved, but it's the truth.

Fast forward to today.  237 pounds.  Down 40 from surgery and 43 from my highest.  THIS IS ACCORDING TO MY SCALE...AND I WEIGH MYSELF AND TRACK THIS DAILY.  But at the dr on friday I weighed in at 240 according to his scale (I hate that scale)  so he, having me at a starting weight of 272, sees me as having only lost 32 pounds.  And did I ever get a talking to about that.  i felt like a failure and a child who just wanted to be accepted.  I didn't explain my bad behavior or defend myself...I just took it. 

So I wonder if I am really doing enough?  I have gone from a size 22 to a 16, I record everything I eat, eat all organic foods, and follow the WLS rules.  I know I dont move my butt enough but if I was good at exercising I would have never gotten to 280.  I don't do fast food or sugar.  But I will have a single bite of something if it's a special occasion.  I take my vitamins, drink my water and don't do sodas.  So why am I such a slow loser?  Why am I failing at this? 

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